The concert thing last night was fun :):):) I forget what the first band was called, but they were pretty good. However, they were my least favorite. Then there was this... ska band I guess you could say, with a female lead singer, called Last Monday, and they were fucking awesome. 2nd best of the night, IMO. They were like... really really talented. Then 3rd band was No Left Turn, which was my 3rd favorite. They were still really great though. The annoying thing was that there were obviously loads of their friends in the crowd, and like to every single song they made a circle pitt, and for the previous bands there was like... one circle pitt or two per entire set. I probably would have liked them a little better if I wasn't constantly keeping an eye out to make sure no stupid idiot teenage guys were about to run into me. I elbowed one guy that did, though! =) Um, and then last band we saw was This End Up! They were the best, IMO. Very very talented. And I enjoyed it more too because I actually recognized their songs! Yay me! So yeah, it's awesome, because I got 3 new bands to like out of that concert. I think if they have it every week, we need to go every week =) Even though i felt super out of place. It was still cool. I'll be adding this to the concerts list later and the bands to my favorites list =) Yay me, again.

Ok, last Friday in French, there was this like... double quiz (meaning two quizzes that would've been separate, but she joined them into one) that I iddn't study for that was super hard. It was so hard that she added 5 bonus points to everybody's test. You know what I got? A 96/98. Oh, and that was without the bonus points. With, I got 101/98. Galaxy wanted to hurt me. I don't think it's a good thing for me to sit behind her if I get better scores than she does.... O_o

Um, yes. The guy in science was pissing me off again. He immediately began correcting what I did again and I was all "I can do it myself, stop redoing everything I do!" And he was all "But it has to be perfect!" so I said "...no, actually, IT REALLY REALLY DOESN'T!!!" And he was all "...well I think it does..." and I said "Well how would you like if someone redid like every single thing you did?" and he said "I wouldn't mind" which is such a lie and I said so, I said, "trust me, it gets so annoying you want to kill the person [fake smile]" and then I was all "Dude, seriously, I CAN DO THIS MYSELF!" and he said "I didn't say you couldn't" and I said "Actions speak louder than words" and he "brilliantly" said "But mine don't" and so I helpfully laid it out for him: "You say that you know I can measure stuff on the fucking (ok I didn't say thatbecause it was in class, but I'm sure he knew I MEANT it) triple balance beam, yet you constantly redo every single thing I do." and he was all "Angry today, are we?" and I was all "Not we, and I'm annoyed, not angry. There's a big difference." And I think he was also implying that I was PMSing or something which I'm so totally not and you know what pisses me off? Whenever a girl over the age of like... 12 is angry or annoyed or something, she's automatically PMSing. Like, wow, girls can't be mad on their own, it has to be their hormones making them act this way! Gr. [kills science guy] Anyways. And I know why his breath smells! Because he eats his lunch in class [DUDE JUST WAIT TIL LUNCH! IT'S NOT GONNA KILL YOU IF YOU DN'T EAT YOUR SMELLY FOOD UNTIL LUNCH, BUT YOUR FUCKING BREATH WILL KILL ME IF YOU DON'T] and his lunch smells as you can see from my mini-tangent and so his breath smells and then he was breathing on me and it was all smelly and I wanted to hit him or fling monkey poo on him or something but noooooo. Sigh. *hits more stuff*

Um what else. I got 22/20 on my math homework, and I was missing an assignment. O.o I don't think he's a very good grader... And yes, it was a 22/20 and not a mistake and a 20/22. Sigh. Stupid math teacher.

What else, what else. I got a 30/30 on my art test even though I missed one! Yay me! Aaaaand... I got 11/15 on the second summer reading book quiz. Gr. That's like... a C+ Sigh. I don't think I'm going to do very well in English this year. My predictions for this year grade-wise:
Geometry: A. I'm not bothering being modest. I'm so getting an A in Geometry this year. It's easy to do that when you know more than the teacher does.
English: Um... Anywhere from a B+ to a C+
Global: Anywhere from... A to a B. I'm not sure. I'm thinking more along the lines of a loooow A-, if I study. i'll be able to judge better after the test on Friday.
Science: Somewhere in the B's until we switch lab partners because the smelliness and annoyingness of the guy is going to distract me. And I'll probably still get a B after that because she can't even fucking grade anything right. You know, Jackie confronted her today and was all "Uh... why'd I get a 1/3 on this?" and she was all "...How did I grade this?" and Jackie was all "...how should I know?" in her head and then she was all "Is it a 1/3 on the entire packet or just this sheet?" and it's like... um.. you should know... you fucking graded it. Gah. [hits science teacher] Cuz that'll help and all.
Band: A. It'd be sad not to get an A.
French: Based on... so far... probably an A. Maybe an A-.

So, yeah. My grade predictions. Not so well in English or Science and possibly Global. Sigh. [hits... stuff]

...I should do homework. Yes.

Ok, sorry for the last entry, Jackie. I just felt that parts of it were like a direct attack on me, and I felt very defensive and I love to argue, so I defended myself. I wasn't mad at your or... grrrrrr-y, I just.. felt like saying this.

Anyways. For Global we have to write 5 theses resembling the parody of Martin Luther's 95 Theses. I like mine a lot, so I'm going to post them. They're on my parents.

1) You always say it doesn't matter how well I do, as long as I do my best. Of course, no matter how hard I try, it's never my best, according to you.
2) If I mention something when I'm 7 that you think is "cute" or "funny", you never fail to bring it up every chance you get, and it never fails to embarrass me.
3) As soon as something remotely interesting happens you tell anyone who will listen about it. For a year and a half.
4) Anytime I do anything fun, you hold it against me. "A concert?" you ask, "Didn't you already go to a concert?" Yes, I did. A concert 4 months ago of another band, but of course that's supposed to be enough for the rest of my life.
5) You listen to the same music that I do. That should be a crime.

#4 is actually kinda... more Tiffany's parents then mine... but I used it because when I asked if I could go to the concert I'm going to tonight, my mom was all "Oh I don't want this to be a weekly thing..." because I had asked once before to go to a concert of a local band that had approached us at the spectrum and I was all "IT'S NOT A WEEKLY THING! IT'S HAPPENED TWICE, AND LAST TIME YOU SAID NO!!!" ...so yeah. I was annoyed when she said that and... I decided that it warranted complaint #4 =) Jackie did hers on marching band. It's funny and quite true.

Ok, this is in response to Jackie's latest entry in her blog =)

Tiff annie and michelle are going to a show. Yes.. you see me very ecstatic over it don't you? I don't feel very good about it. Sorry, but i dont.
Fun things happen there.. and it will be discussed at school. around me. Yay. more inside jokes that i'll never get.

First off, Annie isn't going, Adri is. Second... ok, I'm sorry but we do have the right to go somewhere and have fun. I don't know, what you said makes it seem, to me, like you're the injured party here. It's not like we go off and have fun and make inside jokes just to make you feel left out. It just happens. We all have inside jokes with each other. And wow, ok, you're not the only one stuff gets discussed around and feels left out. People still mention Tina and Tiffany's birthday party from last March occasionally, and I feel completely left out since I wasn't even invited to that [not that I hold it against either of them, seeing as I wasn't really friends with either of them]. I bet Tiffany feels left out when Annie and I or you and I talk about marching band [sorry about that Tiffany... trying to cut back on that...]. I'm just saying... we all have our inside jokes and inside stuff. We can't all do everything with each other at all times.

Ok I kinda responded to this one in your tag, but badly:
Ok.. just saying.. Michelle, you were ...somewhat cranky this morning when i told you the stuff after the game.. and..you said it was annoyance.. and partly i may be wrong, but i think it's because your mom didnt lt you go. Sorry, but i don't.. find that really great of you.. cuz.. you see annie practically every week.. I got to see the person of the longest friendship i've had in a whole month. Yea. that's it. I specifically noted i may be wrong about this whole thing.. so ..people..dont yell at me...

Didn't I already tell you why I was annoyed when I was talking to you? This is how I remember the conversation:
Jackie: Why weren't you there afterwards? We were looking for you!
Me: I. HAD. TO. GO. HOME.
Jackie: Don't yell at me... o_o
Me: I'm sorry, it's just... I'm annoyed because I wanted to stay and look for you guys but my mom said that I couldn't stay because she had to do the bird cages and shit.

That's not exact because my memory is not perfect, but that's the gist of it. And I realize I might have sounded a bit rude, I just was really annoyed, because like I said, I ASKED MY MOM IF I COULD STAY TO LOOK FOR YOU GUYS JUST TO SAY GOODBYE! She was all "No no, it'll take forever, and all teh Woodbridge people are having a meeting and I still ahve to do the bird cages we have to go home NOW." When I talked to you, you made it seem, to me, like I had some sort of control over whether I stayed or not, which i didn't, and that's why I was getting annoyed. I wasn't annoyed at all that you went to burger king and were talking about it. So I don't exactly get why you're saying that it wasn't so great of me and that I get to see Annie every week and you don't. Because that really has nothing to do with why I was annoyed. Ok, what, I'm sorry you don't get to see Annie every week? I'm sorry I do get to see Annie every week? Well I'm not, because she's my friend too, and I want to see her as much as possible. You know, I said that when I first found out Annie was going to Woodbridge (or I guess I hsould say, first accepted she was going to Woodbridge), that I wasn't going to let myself miss her because I was going to see her as much as possible. Which I'm doing. So what, I'm sorry that I'm not letting Annie drift away from me? I'm not. And I have no control over how much you see her, so there's no reason you should be mad at me if you don't see her as often as I do.

Ok. That's all I had to say. =)

Wheeeeeeeeee! Spectrum yesterday was fun. It was me, Tiffany, Annie, and Adri =) I got a new CD! Cuz these guys from this band, This End Up, came and asked us to listen to their CD and then I bought it and so did Annie and we got free tickets to this show they're gonna play at tonight and my mom said I can go and Adri and Tiffany are going too, so it's gonna be cool =) Oh shit, I have to remember to ask my mom if Tiffany can come over before to print something out on my comptuer.

Um, what else? I think that's it... I finished most of my hw last night, yay me. Premiere of Charmed tonight. I'm gonna have to tape it, but that's ok. Er, yeah. I doubt I'll have a new layout up today. Sorry. I just... don't wanna bother with it. And I realized I probably won't have time to next weekend either. Oh well. Soonishly, yes?

In other news I actually updated my fanart site. Yay! =)

Our football team actually won a game. [faints]

Hee it was fun. Annie was there! *waves* I wish I could've stayed afterwards, but my mom was too lazy to leave and them come back to pick me up. Plus, she didn't want me walking around in the dark. But still, it was cool. We actually played well. After the first movement, our section leaders were all [whisper] "Oh my god it's a perfect line! Good job guys!" Um yeah. AND I GOT SOMEONE WHO ACTUALLY KNEW WHAT THEY WERE DOING TO PUT MY LYRE ON MY CLARINET! WHEEEE! Except she said that the lyre is like... dented or something. Ionno. It sucks though. BUT I ACTUALLY USED MY LYRE! AND FLIP FOLDER! WHEEEE!

Ok. Hm. I have to make some blends tomorrow. I need to update my blend site. And I have no idea if I'll have a new layout up this weekend. Tomorrow is spectrum and making blends and stuff and ionno if I'll ahve time for a layout, and then Sunday I have a lot of homework. So yeah.

What else? I think that's it. =)

Hee. I wrote a Hilary Duff death fic last night and apparantely people liked it, so... yeah. Jackie and Tiffany have it up on their blogs if you wanna read them =)

Erm, today was a good day, besides the 1 1/2 hours of English and Science. I can not take 1 1/2 hours of science. Gr. Our science teacher... ok well we had this packet thing due of stuff we'd done and we had a 3-point graph and then the rest of the crap was worth 2 points if we completed it. She gave Jackie a 1/3 on the graph just because she forgot the title of the graph! OK WHAT THE FUCK!?>!?!?!?!??!?! DUDE OK, SO SHE FORGOT THE TITLE. YES, THAT IS WRONG. BUT IS IT WORTH GOING FROM 100% ON IT TO A 33%?!?!?!?!?! I MEAN SERIOUSLY! 1 POINT, MAYBE, 1/2 A POINT YES, BUT 2 POINTS?!?!?!? GOD! *kicks science teacher* Ugh. And the guy that sits to the left of me with whom I do lab things with pisses me off so much. He's so fucking condescending! He never lets me do anything. I have to be like "Ok... I didn't get into honors by cheating, I actually do know how to do this stuff," and when he finally "lets" [AND HE SHOULDN'T HAVE TO FUCKING "LET" ME, HE DOESN'T CONTROL IT] me, he always redoes what i do! Like we were measuring mass on the triple beam balance, and it was like... a hair above the line it was supposed to be at which makes a difference of about .00000001 g and we had to estimate the hundredths anyways because it's calibrated to the tenths and all so it wouldn't have even made a difference but he just haaaad to "fix" it and then I was all "It doesn't matter... it's just like... ahair aboe and it makes no difference and it's just for practice, we won't even be graded on this and if we are, it won't be for accuracy, just for completion," and he was all "IT MATTERS TO ME!!!!" And his breath smells really bad x.x;;; Aaaand at the end when we were cleaning up he wasn't doing anything and then she said to clean the floors and he was all "You'll clean the floor" and I'm all *glare* "You could ask more politely. And you know, ask in a way that you're actually asking and not ordering me to do it" and he was all "...just do it." and I was all "GRRRRR *hit hit die die*" except inside my head. God.

But other than all that! Really, it was good. When we were setting at the top of the show, the marching band director (not the band director, the marching band dude) came past me and said "Hey, I just wanted to say I've noticed you've made a lot of improvement marching so good job" and I was all "[semi-blush, grin] Thanks." Which is fucking awesome because I never feel like I'm doing anything right and I feel like I'm always about to be corrected and I'm always messing up, and him saying that makes me feel a lot better about my marching. And then we had a sectional today but all she did was talk about our clarinets and reeds and stuff for about 20 minutes before going through chromatic fingerings verrrrrry verrrrrry slowly and we didn't even finish them but I'm slow packing up and so she stayed so she could lock the door behind me and she was talking to me and said good job and stuff and I don't know what at but I'M DOING A GOOD JOB APPARANTELY! =) and talked to be about chromatics and stuff. ...yeah. It was cooler than it sounds. Um, I think that's it,but it's been a cool day. I'm going to try to write the sequel of that fic tonight. I have no idea about the plot, but I guess I'll just start writing and hopefully it'll be good =)

Tiffany and my conversation about the Hilary Duff Bash thing [we watched it because Simple Plan performed on it]:

Michelle: OMFG HER LAST SONG WAS AWOIJAWOEIRUAW;IERJUA;WLIERUAW;OEIRUWA;OEIRU SO FUCKING HORRIBLE
Michelle: especially the "la la la's"
Michelle: they sounded just so flat and... wrong
Michelle: they were all "lah LAH LAAAAAH" and... it pissed me off
Michelle: i was like... seriously... hands over ears screaming "LALALALALA I CAN'T HEAR YOU" back at her :-)
Michelle: oh and it seems that a lot of it is prerecorded
Michelle: and the 2 first songs were definitiely prerecorded and enhanced
Michelle: i mean seriously enhanced
Michelle: they juyst came off so... fake
Michelle: she said simple PLAAAAN
Michelle: it pissed me off a lot
Michelle: cuz... THAT'S NOT HOW YOU SAY IT AND SHE LEARNED HOW TO TSAY IT FROM MTV AND TEENIES AND THAT'S THE ONLY REASON SHE LIKES THEM AND NO I'M NOT ASSUMING THINGS SHHH YOU LIEEEEEE
Michelle: gr
Michelle: i don't like hilary duff x.x
Michelle: i felt bad for simple plan... they were obviously conned into doing that performance... and i don't thikn they had any idea who she was :-)
Michelle: anyways
Michelle: *goes to watch Jake 2.0*
Tiffany: ahahhahaha
Tiffany: 3 minits in i was about to hit the tv
Tiffany: but then i played guitar and it was all good
Tiffany: and when they put it on tv it wanst really hilarry singign
Tiffany: the took stuff from the record
Tiffany: and enhance her voice
Tiffany: cuz like parts where its all distored like perpusly..you cant do that when singing into the microphone!!!!!!!!1
Tiffany: and i think peirre was cool by spanish cake in her face
Tiffany: if that wer mee i would have dumped the whole thing on her head
Tiffany: and and and
Tiffany: she was all like
Tiffany: 'o everyone thinks its just gona be bublle gum pop,but its not'
Tiffany: frist of all
Tiffany: wth is bublegum pop?!?!?!
Tiffany: there is no such thing
Tiffany: i guess she means like poopy poo
Tiffany: pop*
Tiffany: poppy pop*
Tiffany: and...just because you go onstage with a black tanktob and some black braclets doesnt make you not pop!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
Tiffany: *kills hilary*
Tiffany: and even one of her friends called her ditzzy
Tiffany: which can be translated has...cares about guys cloths and make up..
Tiffany: translated into PREP!!
Tiffany: DIEEEEEEEEEEEee
Tiffany: *kills everything*
Michelle: bwahahahahhaha
Michelle: yteah i was gonna say the thing about the bubblegum pop thing too
Michelle: she was all "everyone thought it'd be like bubblegum pop but i mixed it up" or something and i was all "Hilary, hun? IT IS FUCKING BUBBLEGUM POP!!! *hits her*"
Michelle: except you know, not
Michelle: cuz... i can't reach her
Michelle: asnd i thought the same thing with pierre!
Michelle: when pierre did that, i was all "you shoulda smashed the entire thing in her face. and then kicked her in the stomach. repeatedly. and shot her. :-)"
Michelle: he didn't listen to me
Tiffany: hahhaha
Tiffany: MEE TOOO
Tiffany: were sooo twins xD
Michelle: and one thing that really bugged me about her performance is just that: SHE DIDN'T PERFORM
Tiffany: I KNOWWWWWWWWWWWWWww
Michelle: mean the contrast between SP and her was really... huge
Michelle: i mean SP obviously has experience and are good performers
Tiffany: I KNOWWW
Michelle: with only one song
Michelle: pierre managed to be on all sides of the stage
Michelle: involve the crowd
Michelle: get them jumping, etc.
Tiffany: she just stands there..
Michelle: hilary stood in one place and shook her ass a little
Michelle: and she waved her arm a bit
Tiffany: and shook her but
Tiffany: ..
Tiffany: yes..
Michelle: GET OUT OF MY HEAD
Tiffany: xDDDDD
Michelle: ...it's scary... you're like... stealing my thoughts
Michelle: yeah anywyas
Michelle: she like... maybe got to half the people (mostly just the front) through all her songs
Tiffany: and like you can tell the sp performanc was actually LIVE unlike hers
Michelle: and pierre got to everybody and involved the crowd
Michelle: i know!
Tiffany: and they toltaly like edited allt he crap for tv
Tiffany: she doesnt sound like that
Tiffany: they used the album a lot
Tiffany: and stuff
Michelle: i mean, hilary, if yo'ure lip syncing, that means you can GO OTHER PLACES AT LEAST
Michelle: i knooooow
Michelle: ESPECIALLY in the ones that were super not live
Michelle: those were soooo fake
Tiffany: I KNOWW
Michelle: they just sounded so enhanced and horrible
Tiffany: exactaly!
Michelle: and she talks too much in her songs
Michelle: IT'S NOT EVEN RAP
Michelle: it's just TALKING
Tiffany: YEAHH
Tiffany: well iw asnt really listing that much
Tiffany: and she gos lalalallala to much in her songs
Michelle: I KNOOOOOOW
Michelle: OMG THAT PISSED ME OFF SO MUCH
Michelle: and she sings the la's HORRIBLY
Michelle: they're all off key and flat and YUCKY
Michelle: like LAAAAH LAAAAH
Michelle: and... SHE SAID SIMPLE PLAN THE EVIL WAY!
Michelle: GOD WHY CAN'T PEOPLE SAY SKIMPLE PLAN? I MEAN IF YOU SAY "IT'S JUST A SIMPLE PLAN TO EAT CHEESE" YOU WOULDN'T BE ALL SIMPLE PLAAAAAN
Michelle: GR
Tiffany: I KNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOW
Tiffany: i noiced that!!!!!!!!!
Tiffany: iwa slike NOOOOOOO I HATE YOU MOREEE
Tiffany: DIEEEEEEEee
Michelle: hahahahhahaaha
Michelle: ti's cuz she learned who they were from MTV
Michelle: and teenies
Tiffany: EXACTLY
Michelle: and that's how they say it
Tiffany: and they all go simple PLAN
Tiffany: jakies writing a fic for me where she dies
Tiffany: xD
Michelle: bwahahahahahahahhaha
Tiffany: cuz i was very pissed off
Tiffany: and..yes..
Tiffany: i wanst listing to it most of the time cuz i couldnt stand it
Tiffany: but...GAHHHHHHHHHHHH
Michelle: bwahahahahha
Michelle: i played guitar through the first entire half but i heard some stuff
Michelle: and then i stopped playing cuz my fingers hurt and watched
Michelle: but i plugged my ears a lot and flicked her off and yelled at ehr :-)
Michelle: AND SHE HAD BACKUP SINGERS!
Michelle: THAT REALLY PISSED ME OFF!
Michelle: WHO HAS BACKUP SINGERS? SHE SHOULD HAVE A STRONG ENOUGH VOICE [not that she does] TO BE ABLE TO SING BY HERSELF
Michelle: christina aguilera does! kelly clarkson does! i don't like them but they have really great voices and hilary duffs and *die die die*
Michelle: i dunno... the backup singers just really pissed me off...
Tiffany: yeah
Tiffany: but when christa and stuff sing they have the stuff playing in the bakground
Michelle: yes
Michelle: but they sing most of it
Michelle: hilary was only able to sing all of it because it was copmletely enhanced and already recorded
Tiffany: and they can sing
Michelle: yes
Michelle: i mean... ok wow. she can sing like... an octave. wow. she totally deserves to have a record contract x.x
Michelle: i mean seriously... you should be way better than she is to put out a CD and shit
Michelle: and her laugh bugs me soo much
Tiffany: MEE TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOoo
Tiffany: GAHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Tiffany: you know what
Tiffany: you know the prepy girls at school that go like 'omg hes so hot *giggle*'
Tiffany: its like THAT laugh!!!!1
Michelle: I KNOW!!!! OMFG IT SO IS!!!!
Tiffany: SO ITS ANNOYING!!!!
Michelle: IT IS!
Michelle: and god i'm a teenager and even i can't stand the way she talks
Michelle: she's always "like, so we went into the link cave things, and then like... we did stuff... and it was cool and stuff! like, totally!"
Michelle: *kill kill die die*
Tiffany: EXACTLYY
Tiffany:did you notice she twitche her head?!?!
Tiffany: i want it to snap off one day
Michelle: SHE DID!!!!!!!
Michelle: and in the last song she performed
Michelle: she kept like... at the beginning holding her hand on her head and poofing her hair up and... i can't explai it
Michelle: BUT IT WAS EVIL
Michelle: : and... she was all
Tiffany: YEAHHHH
Michelle: 'LIKE OMG I'M SO PUNK LOOK AT ME WITH MY HAND IN MY HAIR OMG!!!"
Michelle: /...yeah
Tiffany: exactly
Tiffany: ..you knwo what..how she twitched remineds me of avril..
Tiffany: so its like shes an avril wana be
Tiffany: which is like being a wana be...of a punk wanabe..
Tiffany: ...
Michelle: i know!!!!
Tiffany: yes..
Tiffany: hehehehi m ranting to soemone else about hilary tooo
Michelle: bwahahahahahahahha
Tiffany: shes just all like..did you watch hilary and im like..yes..i want to kill her..
Tiffany: and shes like yeah me too
Tiffany: xD
Michelle: bwahahahahahahah

Wheeeeeee =) Good day. Got our geometry tests back today. I got a 73/75! A 97! *cheers* One of the top 3 scores in teh class! Yay! And he was all "Oh don't worry if you don't get this stuff cuz this was the hardest thing we'll be doing and the other stuff will be easier." I was all "But... this... is easy... O_o" Anyways. And we had chair tests today. There are only like 5 clarinets in my section, so while there's less competition, it's a lot easier to get last chair. BUT I GOT FIRST CHAIR!!!1 WHEEEEEEEE! =) Of course, we have chair tests like every wekk, so I'm sure I won't stay in first chair.

Hm what else? Dunno. Our polo shirts are icky, and even ickier when tucked in =) Erm... I should be doing hw. Yes. I have to finish the literary terms but I already know what they mean and she doesn't even check them so... yeah. You know what? There are like... 2 main differences I've noticed between high school and middle school. The first: in high school, they don't collect the hw. Or check it. Like, ever. Well ok, sometimes. But like... well ok, if you're in my English or have the same teacher I do and are in honors, we had this plot summary for this short story due. But... we never turned it in. And we had to fill out this pink sheet on the short story. But we never turned it in. We've done a lot of work that we haven't turned in and she hasn't even looked at. And in French it's the same! We have small assignments but she never checks them! In math it was like that because he never checked them, but from now on we're gonna be turning them in every day. Still.

Oh, and the second difference: everyone's listening to their headphones at all possible times. Seriously, it's a passing period and I'm like going to Global and I see 5 people listening to headphones. I mean there's no point cuz... you only have 6 min. and you have to get to your next class, but they're listening anyways. And at lunch, everyone is listening to their headphones. It's cool but so different.

OH and another huge difference that I forgot: UNI has a really good, large deaf program. So there are tons of deaf students walking around together and signing. It's really eerie cuz like... one time I was walking to band and I saw a huge group of kids and they obviously knew each other but they weren't making any noise and it was weird cuz... kids usually make lots of noise but then I realized they were all signing. It's crazy cool watching them sign. Um, yeah. Anyways.

Er... yeah. I need to update my blends site because I have some blends that won awards and I need to make a few blends for various challenges this weekend. And I need to make a new layout for my blog, because it's long overdue. I think I know what I'm gonna do now though. =) Um, yeah. That's it.

Ok, you know what's been annoying me recently? I've noticed some people have been saying "Oh, I have no future, I can't do anything, etc." Ok, this isn't directed at any one person, I was just thinking about it and getting kinda annoyed and you'll see why in a moment. And... I'm not mad at anyone. I just wanted to let it out. And it's my fucking blog so I ca do what I want :)

Ok, what the hell? You guys... ok, wow. You might feel like you have no future or you can't do anything but... we're all freshmen. If you haven't figured out your life right now, you're not doomed. And ok, yeah, if you sit around being all "I have no future, I'm going to end up miserable in life [um, compared to what? How positive and happy you are now?] ugh I hate this" then yeah, you'll have no future, you'll dned up miserable in life, and you'll kill yourself. Ok. You want to do that, then fine. But if you don't want to end up that way, then you don't have to. Again, I'll reiterate, we're freshmen. Work hard. Do well in school. Study. Get good grades on tests. Be in good classes. Do volunteer work. Do all the shit we have to do. Do well on SAT's because of all the studying and good work you've done. Get into a good college because of your high SAT scores and good work in high school. Follow a path you want to follow. Get a job you love. Be successful doing what you love.

No, it's not that simple. But it'll be a lot easier to do that than if you sit around complaining that you're going to be a failure and won't be able to accomplish anything. I'm sorry, I'm just getting sick of hearing that people feel like they have no future. Based on what? WE'RE 14! WE HAVE PLENTY OF FUTURE! Now maybe if we were seniors and had slacked off all through high school and weren't even graduating, then yeah, ok, a lot closer to a failure. But we're not. There's time to do well. There's time to become successful. You'll be a failure if you believe that's all you'll ever be. But if you work hard then it'll be a lot easier to make something of yourself.

We're not failures yet. And if we start working hard, applying ourselves, doing well, and all that shit, then we won't become failures. Ok? God. It's not the end of the world because we're 14 and have failed at a few things we've done.

I am worried about the future. I'll admit that. I am scared that I'll do poorly in school and get horrible SAT scores and not be able to get into a good college and get a lousy job and end up unhappy. But that doesn't mean I'm going to let it happen. I'm going to work my ass off to make sure that it doesn't happen. I mean, people that have known me for like a long long time [...meaning more than 8th grade] that I'm more organized? I'm getting better grades? I'm working harder? 'Cause you see, I semi-freaked out about this back... in March I think. And I didn't want to let any of the aforementioned things happen to me. So I'm not going to let them. You hear that? End message: You don't want to end up a complete failure? Then don't let yourself be. There's time left.

Ok? Ok. Again not directed at any one person, just in general and please don't take offense at it. I rarely get to express my true feelings in this blog, so now that I have, I don't want to take any shit about it. Ok? Ok =)

Um, layout prolly not tonight. I don't feel like it. I've made the graphic and it looks awesome but I can't get the colors to work so I might have to tweak it some and I just don't want to bother with it tonight.

Gravity Games on NBC from 4:30-6:00! Sucks that it's only an hour 1/2 long, but then it goes on for many Sunday's.

Now I should be off doing my geometry and French homework.

Wheeeee today was fun. The thing wasn't what I thought it was gonna be and like the good stuff wasn't happening until 7:30 PM and my mom didn't want me to be there that late so Tiffany and I just went back to my house and she helped me put up some magazine stuff and then we went to spectrum. We went to Johnny Rockets and I got actual food (gasp!) and the guy said hi to us and then we went to Barnes and Nobles and I got the new BOP before Tiffany and there's loads of stuff and there was only that one so now Tiffany's gonna kill me dead, apparantely. Um yeah, then we went to... we explored the other side of the spectrum. They have a Robinsons May over there! I never knew that! And we went um... where'd we go? I think we went to Anchor Blue and I got jeans again (gasp!) but I tried them on and the fit's kinda weird so I dunno if I'll wear them very much and then we went to FYE and there are some CD's I need to buy and then we went to Hot Topic and there was a monkey hat that Tiffany needs and then we went to Mrs. Fields and on the way this guy gave me this free demo CD of his band or ionno if it was his band but I'm assuming it is and they're actually pretty good and I'll plug them as soon as I check the CD and see what they're name is cuz it's playing now and I don't want to stop it to check but I will later and then Annie called and said she couldn't get a ride to the Spectrum and so then we decided that we were bored and so we went to Annie's house and it basically involved Annie poking Tiffany a lot and Tiffany screaming =) Um.. yeah. That's pretty much it, but it was really really fun =)

I really have the urge to practice guitar! I think I'm gonna do that while waiting for dinner. I will make a new layout sometime tonight. I know what it's gonna be, so... yeah. I just gotta make it. =) Aaaand... yeah. That's it. =)

Ok, small survey =) No new layout tonight unless I get like... super inspired. Which I won't. I'm just feeling too crappy right now to make one. And tired. And my voice has gotten really really low cuz of the cold. ...yes, that does affect whether I will or will not make a layout tonight1 STOP ASKING SO MANY QUESTIONS!!! =) Anyways. Tomorrow night maybe or sometime Sunday.

1. Who is your favorite singer/musician? Why?
This is really tough for me since I have several really super favorite bands, but... well, I always have like favorites of the moment. Like right now I'm really into Yellowcard. In February I was really into Midtown. But the band that always stays the same is Good Charlotte. Yeah, predictable,i know. But it's true. I've listened to The Anthem... god, I don't knwo how many times now. A lot. But it never fails to make me happy when I listen to it. Before the first CD was my "comfort" CD... but now both are. Of course there are a few songs I don't like (Riot Girl comes to mind... and I don't like Walk By very much), but... god, so many of their songs I just love. Some of them I think send really great messages, unlike all the rap and pop artists these days. I mean those genres... so many of them say "We must objectify women's bodies!" [what, you disagree? "Baby turn around and let me see that sexy thing go bump bump bump..." Oh yeah, that's totally respecting a woman and appreciating her intelligence and other great personality traits and not exploiting her body at all!] and "Sex is good! Let's have unprotected sex right now! When we're 12 years old! Because, I mean, the music says to, so we should!" Etc. Some may say that The Day that I Die sends a bad message, but it really doesn't. Plus, there's Hold On which I know has definitely helped a bunch of people. I mean, whenever they play Hold On in their concerts, they always say beforehand that while things may seem crappy right now... hold on, and they'll get better. And a lot of their songs work through issues kids go through. Some people don't like them for this reason entirely, and I think that's stupid. Yeah, ok, so they're not political. So they do sing some [albeit VERY FEW] love-ish songs. Wow, how stupid of them. Cuz you know, nobody goes through love. Nobody in the world has to deal with heartbreak. God, some people annoy me. But yeah. Emotionless, Complicated [it was GC song before it was an Avril song x.x And it sounds nothing like the Avril song. Although I wouldn't like it verymuch if it weren't for the bridge. I love the bridge of that song.], Story of My Old Man, Christmas By the Phone... they all deal with issues that kids could be dealing with. Plus, the songs are all... pleasing to the ear. They sound good. And don't go "NO THEY DON'T!" because ot me, they do. Ok? Ok. They're not the best band in the world. There are loads of bands that are waaaaay better than them. But I like them best. They're true to themselves. They don't try to be something they're not. Everyone's always "THEY SAY THEY'REPUNK BUT THEY'RE NOT POSERS!!!!!!!!" Hello? Dude, the day after the VMA awards, Benji was on TRL, and he said something referring to GC and was all "Who'd ever thought that this pop-punk band from Maryland..." or something like that. But he referred to them as pop-punk, which they are. THEY'RE NOT PUNK THEY DON'T THINK THEY'RE PUNK DEAL WITH IT =) So yeah, to wrap this up: GC sends a good message, they sound good, and... I love their music.

2. What one singer/musician can you not stand? Why?
Oh god, there's so many. Um Hilary Duff. For one thing, she can't sing. The studio enhances her voice completely [I heard her sing like... not live, but live on TV kinda?] and she. Can't. Sing. Her songs are really stupid and make no sense. I mean, look at her video for "So Yesterday". So, her boyfriend dumped her and so she steals his shirt and makes other people take pictures in it and stuffs them in his mailbox? WTF?!?!?! I mean... I'm sure he's going "OMG THERE ARE PICTURES OF OTHER PEOPLE IN MY SHIRT IN MY MAILBOX! I BETTER GET BACK TOGETHER WITH MY EX-GIRLFRIEND NOW!" No wonder he dumped her. [rolls eyes] I mean, you can see the look on his face. He's all "...what the hell is this?" If I were him, I'd be getting a restraining [..sp? my mind's blanking] order against her. Seriously. Stalker, much? I hate how popular she's becoming just because she was on a successful TV show. She's not even that great of an actress either! Gr! [hits Hilary Duff] No no... better yet [kills Hilary Duff]

3. If your favorite singer wasn't in the music business, do you think you would still like him/her as a person?
Well I wouldn't know them at all if they weren't in the music business. My bet is that I would. They seem like they're very down-to-earth. They seem very real and they have a lot of the same interests as me. I don't know, I really can't judge them since I don't know them, but I do think I would like them.

4. Have you been to any concerts? If yes, who put on the best show?
Oh yes. I've been to 3 concerts before. Um the best... well, it's tough between Warped and the KROQ GC Beach Party. I'd say... damn. Both! Warped was fucking awesome because I got to meet the members of SP and see them and a bunch of other bands that I love. Plus, I got some new music that nobody's ever heard of before! [Plug: Soapbox Revolt, Maxeen, THEdAY, None The Less] The KROQ concert was fucking awesome bceause I was 2 feet from the stage and there was only like... 50 people at most there. I got awesome pictures. Plus, I couldn't stop laughing the entire time. It was just awesome.

5. What are your thoughts on downloading free music online vs. purchasing albums? Do you feel the RIAA is right in its pursuit to stop people from dowloading free music?
I think that people should be able to download free music online. However, if they like what they download, I think they owe it to the band/artist to buy the music. I mean, if you really like the music, then why not support them? Plus, even when I downloaded music back when my computer's sound worked, I always got the CD of the band anyways. It felt more... official for one thing. Plus, again, supporting the bands you love. If you don't buy their CD's, then how can they continue to make music? You really owe it to the band if you like their music. If you don't like it then ok, don't buy it. Maybe that'll motiviate the artists to make better music ;) No seriously, I don't know about not liking the music, but if you like it, BUY THE CD! SUPPORT THE BAND YOU LOVE! YOU'RE THE REASON THAT THEY'RE ABLE TO CONTINUE MAKING MUSIC! And I don't know about the RIAA so I'm not going to comment.

Ok, that's it. Survey finished =)

Before I forget, this is for tomorrow: HAPPPPPYYYYYYYY BIIIIIIIIRTHDAAAAAAAYYYY LUUUUULUUUUUU =)=)=) Um, yeah. That's it.

OMFG lunch was so fucking awesome today! They set up this half-pipe in the crossroads (this... part of our school... I can't explain it but it's like the main pathway thing) and then 3 pro BMX-ers, 1 skateboarder, and 1 inline person went on it and shit and then it was like sponsored by Got Milk and they gave a bunch of "Why tobacco is baaaad. Baaaaad, I say!" info but it didn't matter cuz it was AWESOME! Cuz I mean... it was. This guy they said that won the silver at the X-games in the inline thing was there and I think I remember him and it was cool. OH and tomorrow at the Orange County Fair Grounds (and Sunday and today) there's this whole like... motorcross and BMX and etc. thing and BRIAN DEEGAN IS GOING TO BE THERE and a bunch of people and it's only $8 and you don't need to buy tickets ahead of time and it's from like... all day long and I really really really wanna go. Hopefully I can convince my mom, but ionno. I'd go there instead of spectrum for sure.

Wheeeeeeeeeee I just asked and she said yes!!! I think we're gonna go there instead of spectrum, yes? Unless like Tiffany reeeeeeally wants to go to the spectrum or something.

Um, what else? I tried playing the Eb concert scale for the chart thing and got a slash, but it was fair because I messed up a note. I can't play anytyhing perfectly when I'm in the band room. I can play it like... amazingly outside, walking to where we do marching stuff, but I can't in the room. I'm always so nervous in front of everyone. You know, I don't know what's gotten into me. O_o Last year I like... hated playing in front of people. I dreaded those chair auditions so badly. I like just hated it. Ionno what's different, but I like it now. I barely raised my hand to try another scale when she asked if anyone wanted to and I don't even think she saw me but she called on me specifically anyways, when I wans't even raising my hand. That was amusing cuzlike... she knows that I would want to. I need to redo my Bb concert and my Eb concert. It's sad that I can do chromatic better than those basic scales O_o Seriously. Especially the Bb concert since that's like the easiest scale on clarinet. Super easy. I'm so ashamed. Or... something. Not really. =) Anywyas.

Ummmm what else? I missed like... 3 points? I think on my art test. So I did pretty well. I know I missed the sistine chapel one, which is so stupid, but I thought we had to write the name of the specific part and so I said the birth of adam but then it's not even the birth, it's like... giving life or whatever. Something different. I put Sistine Chapel in parentheses but I don't think he's gonna give me credit. Whatever, that's only one point. Then I think I'm gonna get a point or two off on some explanations because I said stuff that we didn't mentino in class about them. Still, that's like a what, 57/60? Not bad. That's a 95 =) Now hopefully I'll get an A on my Prince assignment. For the science test, I think I completely messed up the data table and subsequently [..right word?] the graph as well. It took me forever to figure out the data table. Whatever. I hoe they're not worth much, because I'm pretty sure I got everything else right. Not everything else. But most of it. And then we got this French quiz back in... French. I got a ...what was it? Um... oh yes. 46/47. Which is a 97.87-ish% which is very good. Especially since a lot of people didn't do very well. Galaxy got a 45 though! ..I think? Yeah. I'm pretty sure she got 2 wrong. But then I remember her saying 46... whatever. She got one worse than me. Ummm... yes. Tiffany said she can go to the place instead of spectrum tomorrwo too, so yaaaay! Anyone else wanna come then IM me. And... if I don' have your sn on my buddylist, then you're automatically blocked [ok, I'm justifying this: people were starting to give other people my screenname without asking me first which really pissed me off and then I'd be in the middle of doing some important work and then all of the sudden random people I didn't know would start IMing me and they'd be all "hI! wHoO r U?!?!?!?!" and i'd be all "...yes, the random person I don't even know who's interrupting me in the middle of an important essay is asking me who I am." and they'd be all "...sOOoOoOOoO wHoOoO R u??!?!?!?!?!?" and then I'd block them cuz they were pissing me off and they'd go on one of their 100 other sn's and be all "Y dID U bLoCk MeEeEeE?!?!?!?!?!?!" So I decided to automatically block anyone not on my buddylist] Um, yeah there was a point to that tangent. Basically if you wanna go and are friends with me but don't talk to me online but somehow found my blog anyways, then e-mail me (blurry_dreams@hotmail.com) with your sn and I'll add you so I can talk to you about the thing =) Ok? Ok.

Um, yeah. New layout for this possibly tonight, if I dn't feel like crap. If not, then Saturday if I have enough energy after the thing. If not, then Sunday since the only hw I have due Monday is a small amount of French and some Geometry.

..I think I have a fever. Seriously. My face is all hot and shit... but NOOO YOU LIE I CAN'T BE SICK I HAVE TO GO NOOOOO! I still have my cold, but whatever. I'll take some of that nasal stuff before I go and my nose will be clear for like... a few hours. Although my throat will be super sore. Whatever. I'LL BE FINE CUZ I HAVE TO GO TO IT =)

Blaaaaaaaaaah I feel so crappy right now x.x Oh no, nothing bad. I just have a really bad cold. It started this morning with my throat kinda... bad... and having a headache... and then I started sneezing and getting a runny nose. I think I sneezed like... 5 times in classes today. Gr. I sneezed when we were supposed to be at attention. But it was at the end, when we were doing announcements and shit, so it wasn't as bad as say like in the middle of marching or in the block at attention or whatever. Still. I don't like have colds cuz you feel all shitty and clogged up and your nose hurts and you keep sneezing and things taste funny and Pepsi makes your throat burn so you can't get your caffeine/Pepsi fix and even though you feel so shitty and all this stuff, you still have to go to school and do all other types of work cuz, hey, it's just a cold and it's not as if you're vomiting or lying in the hospital deathly ill. It's just a cold, eh? They really need to develop that cure for the common cold soon x.x I'll work on it when I'm older and have some sort of brains =)

Gah and this is just the beginning. Tomorrow I'm going to feel awwwwful. Sigh. And Saturday I won't be much fun when we go to the spectrum. Stupid cold. And I know who's fault it must be! There's this girl who sits next to me in Global and she had a bad cold the first like... week of school. It's all her fault. Gr. Although it could just be random germs from somewhere else. No, damn you, I'm feeling crappy and I need to blame someone! It's all her fault! Sigh. Gah and I have a headache coming on. I have too many headaches and KJA;'IUA'WIERJ I just sneezed. I don't like sneezing1 It feels bad x.x Gah. *kills stuff*

I felt more coordinated in marching band today, which is nice. I'm getting better at backwards marching without bouncing. However, I still cannot dress x.x I just... grr. But still. And I can't mark time without swaying. Sigh.

Um yeah. I finally got cleaning supplies and cleaned out my clarinet! It was reaaaallly yucky inside. Hopefully it'll play better now. Although IMO I still need a new clarinet. Maybe like... in December or smoething. Ionno.

Hm. I FINISHED THE PRINCE ASSIGNMENT! Except I think I'm goign to get a B on it, but that's ok. ...well not really, because I don't want to get a B on it, but whatever. I have an art test in Global tomorrow. I'm actually like... memorizing stuff and shit. I'm proud =) I just hope I can remember all the terms... frescoe and sfumato and oiaweurpaiuwr and such :) Um and I have a science test. But that's really easy. As long as there's no like short answer or defining and such. I can do fill in the blanks and multiple choice though! Whatever, I think I'll do fine on that. Grrr I hope I get an A on The Prince. But looking at the aspects of an A paper... I only have like... 3 of them. I have more of the B paper. Whatever. So I get a B. Not the end of the world. It's only been 3 weeks of school.

Whaaat else? Um... hm. School was at 8:30 today (it always is on Thursdays due to block scheduling) and so I was walking to Lulu's house while there were 1-6 graders walking to the elementary school on my street. They were all so short! It's funny to me, ok? I don't remember being that short... Some of them looked at my funnily. Prolly cuz I was wearing a big black baggy sweatshirt, my guy shorts, and listening to my Mest CD on my headphones somewhat loudly. But that's ok.

Er, yes. I should study for my art test more. Simple Plan was a wannabe! =) Heh, and it was the one time Tiffany didn't watch it. Poor Tiffany. Maybe they'll start playing the vid again soon. That would be good cuz I miss seeing that video.

Uh, I think that's it. JACKIE FINISH YOUR "THE PRINCE" ASSIGNMENT1 =) Cuz.. you really really need to work on it if you're not.

Eep. I can't do anything in marching band right. They're always telling me how what I'm doing is wrong and where I'm supposed to be and I can't even fucking dress right. First they tell me one thing and then another and then I'm all confused and grrrr I don't like marching. I like the people in it and I like everything about it except the marching part. *hits stuff*

But then I'm happy cuz in band I played the Bb chromatic scale and got an X (95) on it. It's kinda sad that I did better on my chromatic Bb then my Bb scale... which is like... the easiest scale on clarinet. But I can play high G now! Wheeee!

Um yeah. I like global cuz... I do :) History's more interesting when it's taught by a teacher who... well, isn't my 8th grade Humanities teacher =)

I'm more motivated than last year for some reason. Or any year. I think it's cuz it's high school now, and like.. I have to do well. Before it was all "Oh, I'm getting an 83 in algebra? Whatever, it's first trimester of 8th grade, it doesn't count for anything." But now it's all "FUCK I'M GETTING AN 83 IN GEOMETRY? I'M NOT GONNA BE ABLE TO GO TO HONORS NEXT YEAR!" or whatever. Or "SHIT NOW I'LL NEVER GET INTO [insert college of choice here]!!!" So.. yeah. I used ot be all "...I don't get this problem. Screw this, I'm watching TV and getting a 0 on the assignment, whatever" but now I'm all "Ok just... think. You can do this. Ok. So..." and.. yeah. I... concentrate more. Work... harder. Stuff. Yeah.

I was thinking about wars. They're really stupid. I mean duh, yeah, not the most original conclusion ever drawn, but still. When you think about it, it's like these two kids. Ok, so like, five-year old Bob doesn't like how four-year old Bobette makes a sandcastle, so Bob decides to go over, stomp all over the sandcastle and completely ruin it, and then run away leaving Bobette to deal with it. And even more literally. We don't like what they're doing somewhere so we go in and start beating them up? Like, who came up with this whole war thing again? [rolls eyes] I mean... putting it like that it just seems so silly. Are we really that immature that they only way we can solve things is run over somewhere and start beating another country up?

Anyways. That's my... musings I usppose for the day. Heeeey Saturday is Lulu's birthday! =) *random* Ok then. *goes back to English homework*

AHAHHAHAHAHAHAH THEY MENTIONED UNI AND MATTER DAY IN THE O.C.!!! It made me laugh a lot. ;) The episode was really good. Mischa Barton was better than she has been and I think she was really good in her scene with Ryan at the vending machine. Um Seth was aweosme as usual. He said awesome in the episode! And I liked the Seth/Summer interaction. It amused me a lot. Plus, as bitchy as Summer may be, she is completely and totally loyal to Marissa, which I really... respect or something =) So yay. Oh and they played part of Something Corporate's new song during the little... AOL presents aowieraiwuer; whatever. They play part of a music video. Anyways. It was cool, yo ;)

Ummm not much else. Except fuck that the o.c. isn't gonna have a new episode until October x.x Grrr. Well, at least i'll have new episodes of like... every other show I watch to tide me over. I'll have Charmed and Everwood and Gilmore Girls and Jake 2.0 and Friends and... I think I need to find me some new shows, but anyways =)

;IAOUG'LWAEIUJR'KALJW'GKJ'ALWEJRAWJER JOSHUA JACKSON IS GOING TO DIRECT AT LEAST ONE EVERWOOD EPISODE THIS SEASON! OK, OBVIOUSLY I REALLY LIKE JOSHUA JACKSON AND EVERWOOD, SO THIS IS GOING TO BE FUCKING AWESOME! =) He directed an episode of Dawson's Creek last year. I didn't see that episode, though, because I believe that it did not feature P/J. =) Still. OMFG1 JOSHUA JACKSON! WHEEEEEE! I think he should do a guest appearance as like... a substitute teacher! That would work! =) I like my ideas. ;)

Wheeeeeeeeee just saw the season premiere of Everwood! Fucking awesome episode! And I totally appreciate Emily Van Camp's talent after seeing Mischa Barton on the O.C.

Boss-dude: [to Ephram] Who are you and why are you so pale?

I laughed a lot at that. But.. yeah. I got tear-eyed and everything! It was saaaad. But it was fucking awesome =) Nothing more to say than that cuz... I'm on the after-episode high. This is the one thing I love about September: season premiere... season! Wheeeeeeeeeee! I love Everwood =)

Wheeeeeeee I finished the new layout at my fanart site! I'm really proud of it, so go check it out! =)

Uh nothing else to say than that. I might make some blends later today, if I have any time.

Hee, spectrum was fun. THERE WAS A CLOWN! Tiffany saw it and ran away and after that Annie and I teased her a lot. Um what else? I BOUGHT JEANS! They're guy jeans so they're nice and baggy. You have to have jeans for like pep rallys and away games for marching band to wear with polo shirts. Sigh. The band director was really annoying. She was all "Who doesn't have jeans?!" and I was all in my mind, "ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" Gr. Oh well. They're nice and comfy but... I'm not used to jeans... they're like... jean-y.

What else? When I was buying the jeans I was wearing my Less Than Jake shirt and this guy came up to me and was all "I wore that shirt yesterday!" and he was wearing a different LTH shirt and I gave him a thumbs up which was kinda really lame, but that's ok. During that Tiffany... well ok this song started up and I was all "sounds like Metallica" and then a few seconds later Tiffany was all "NO NO IT'S KORN!" and it was and she was going all "HAHAHAHAH I WIIIIIN! I WIIIIIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!" during that.

At Jonny Rocket's Robert [remember? The waiter guy!] said "Hey girls" when we came in but TIFFANY AND ANNIE DIDN'T HEAR! I waved at him though =)

I... think that's it. There's not much else to be said. You know what I found out? ANNIE ACTUALLY READS MY LONG ANALYSISES [analyses?]! BWAH! That's cool cuz... she doesn't understand any of it! Hehe. Anyways.

Yeah. Ok. I'm gonna possibly make a new layout for my fanart site sometime tonight and I might make some new blends. I will add a few awards to the site as well. I've won a total of 16 now, though not all of them are up at the fanart site =)

Blah, had no time at all to blog yesterday. The football game was kinda fun. It was cool just cuz... hanging out with friends and such =) Therewas this thing that some upperclassmen make called The Lyre [geddit? Huh? You geddit?] and it had this gossip section and on the bottom it said Emma [well her initials, but it was definitely her] and her group of girls hang out with the little tuba man a lot [obviously Justin], how sweet... or something. It was funny. Um, yes.

I'll analyze Anti-Prom and True Love some other night that's not tonight. I'm tiiiiiiired. And I don't feel very well. :S Blah. Uh... new layout maybe maybe maybe for mmy fanart site this weekend. I was going to alternate changing layouts on each place every weekend, but... I'm really not motivated to. I have this idea for a layout, but the layout's supposed to be sad and it would be all... happy. I can't explain it, but it wouldn't work. Anyways.

Ummmm what else? There was stuff I was going to say, but I've forgotten by now. On this Global packet we were supposed to describe the characteristics of the paintings and I was gonna write "person looks more like they're sitting" because in the really early paintings they don't and I can't explain it but yeah, I was writing that but I accidentally wrote shitting instead of sitting. Yeah. =) I didn't turn it in cuz... it's not due... I'm just saying. It was funny.

Er...yeah. I don't have any energy at all right now.

Show Me Love

Pacey: Look, Dawson, if you want me to drop out of this race, you're gonna have to ask me yourself.
Dawson: Do whatever you want, Pace.
Pacey: I'm only doing this to help your mother.
Dawson: The way you helped Joey?

Good lord, I hope not. Why is Dawson even saying that? I mean, it implies that Pacey wants to have sex with Dawson's mother, from Dawson's eyes, becuase he believes Pacey only wants Joey for sex. Ew, much? [...good god, I believe I'm channeling Summer...] And anyways. Point? Dude, he helped Joey by being a friend to her all year long and being there for her when you weren't. He put aside his feelings for her until they nearly killed him [which you'll do later in this episode! Oh, but that's for later.] and went through a hell of a lot of grief trying to figure out how to tell you so you wouldn't be hurt... and then you become as much of an ass about it as possible and make him feel worse than he ever has before because he no longer has his supposed best friend [although I don't see how the hell you could call Dawson that] or the woman he loves. Dawson should hope Pacey cares that much about her [not in an ew-y way, in a... supportive, helpful, caring way... I can't explain it, but in a non-squicky way] and want to help her that much. Plus! PLUS PLUS PLUS! Pacey knows that helping Dawson's mother helps Dawson. Dawson, you selfish spoiled-brat, Pacey's fucking helping your mother's business! You know how you get those clothes you're wearing and that roof over your abnormally large-sized forehead? From your parents' money. Now, football coaching isn't exactly pulling in the big bucks for your dad, so you should be THANKFUL that Pacey is trying to help your mothers' business! Dude, what I'm saying is that Dawson, you might just not have the option of having all these luxuries that you have now, and if Pacey helps your mother, your... financial situation will improve. But no, you fucking don't see that about him. Selfish spoiled-brat.

Dawson: Look, I really need a sail boat, okay? I've entered the Regatta.
Jack: Isn't Pacey racing?
Dawson: Yeah.
Jack: So don't you think, uhh, pistols at dawn would be more suitable, not to mention romantic way to settle this thing?

Hee! Jack is seriously just fucking awesome sometimes ;) And word, Jack. =) [get used to that and stop laughing Tiffany, cuz I'll be saying that a lot. The word part, not the Jack part.] Stupid Dawson. *kills Dawson*

Dawson: It's not about Pacey, it's about Joey. Alright, look. I spent the last two months laying on my bed staring at empty walls. It's no wonder Joey got away from me. This is my chance to actually show her how much I care. You gotta help me.

Do you realize how... stalkerish/obsessive/possesive/abusive this sounds? No, that's not how Joey got away from you. She got away from you when you fucking turned her down cold and shoved her into the arms of Pacey. And... got away from you? She's not your puppy whom you accidentally left by the open door and ran away. She's a human being with free will and can choose if she wants to be with Pacey or you. And if she did "get away from you", it was from her own free will. Which you'll hear Pacey echo later. Um, yeah. Notice when I get really pissed I start talking to the characters like they're actually reading this? Heh.

Joey: Look Pacey, this wasn't my idea. I didn't ask him to do it, but I mean, you know Dawson, once he gets something in his mind... I'm sorry.
Pacey: If it wasn't your idea, why are you apologizing?
Joey: Because you're obviously upset.
Pacey: I'm "upset" because we haven't spoken in two weeks, and now finally do, the first words out of your mouth, as per usual, are about Dawson.

Ooh, he's got 'ya there, Joey. And... word to Pacey. Joey, forget about Dawson for 2 seconds and be concerned about Pacey for once.

Joey: Well this conversation is just about to get harder, Pacey.
Pacey: You want me to drop out too? (Joey looks down, ashamed to even ask) Wow, Dawson Leery couldn't have scripted this one any better, could he?
Joey: What do you mean?
Pacey: Don't you get it? No matter what I do, he wins. If I drop out, he wins. If I stay in the race, I'm forced into direct competition with the guy. And if I actually win, I don't actually beat him, I beat you. So guess who really wins there?

Dude, complete word to Pacey. Again. [that'll be happening a lot, get used to it] And you can bet that Dawson realized this little problem for Pacey before he entered. He knows that he's going to win no matter what ad there's nothing Pacey can do about it. And Joey? That is such a really rude and assy thing to do, trying to get Pacey to drop out. He's been working hard and looking forward to this for months. He actually knows how to sail. Dawson entered that morning just so he could beat Pacey one way or another and win Joey back. He doesn't even know how to fucking sail! God, and now you have the fucking nerve to get Pacey to drop out? If anyone drops out, it should be Dawson.

Pacey: Yeah, we tried that. He doesn't really want to talk to me right now, and when he does, it's not entirely civil.
Joey: Could you try again, Pacey, please?
Pacey: Yeah... if that's what you want. If that's all that you want.
Joey: (pauses) That is all that I want.
Pacey: Okay. Okay, that's what I'll do.

See, this illustrates why Pacey is better than Dawson completely. If this was Dawson, there would be no way in hell that he would back down. I mean, later in this episode you'll hear him say "No, I'm not getting out of his way!" [you'll see it in context later and understand it better if you have no idea what I'm talking about]. He would never do this for Joey if the roles were reversed. Pacey is doing this because it's what Joey wants. He may hate Dawson, he may want him to die a long, fiery death with lots of sporks and shovels [...ok, maybe I'm projecting here], but... it's what Joey wants. So he'll do it. He puts Joey in front of everything else constantly. Dawson does not. Dawson is all about his own feelings, never about anyone elses. He gives Joey that famous ultimatum in The Longest Day because he wants her to choose him. He knows it'll rip her apart trying to choose, and he doesn't care. Pacey would never do that to Joey, and in fact doesn't. You'll see later in the episode. Basically, Pacey is willing to talk to Dawson for Joey even though he'd probably rather kill himself. That is why Pacey is the better person.

Pacey: What are you trying to prove?
Dawson: (seeing Pacey and stopping) I was trying to help Joey.
Pacey: Look man, why don't you just take a swing at me? I mean, honestly, just take a poke. Get it over with, save both of us a lot of time and trouble, wouldn't involve our friends.
Dawson: Or our family.
Pacey: Do you think indulging yourself in some James Dean meets Grease Lightening fantasy that you're actually gonna prove you're a better man than I am?
Dawson: I don't have to prove that. You made that clear when you moved in on Joey.

PIOAUG'IH'ALWUE'RIALUWER HE DIDN'T FUCKING "MOVE IN" ON JOEY! DUDE, WHAT IS DAWSON'S PROBLEM? Ok, this is what he's always like. "You moved in on Joey," "how Joey got away from me..." Ok she's not a fucking DOG, she's not a fucking... OBJECT! SHE'S A HUMAN BEING! HALF OF THIS IS HER FAULT, ALL RIGHT? SHE RECIPROCATED PACEY'S FEELINGS! HE WASN'T KISSING HIMSELF THERE, HE WAS KISSING HER! SHE KISSED HIM BACK WILLINGLY! GOD! And word on Pacey. Entering the Regatta is not going to prove you're the "better man", it's going to prove that you're hte most immature and the bigger asshole. And Pacey didn't even "move in" on Joey. He supported her when she needed him, unlike Dawson, and held in his feelings until he couldn't stand it any longer. Nobody should be forced to hide their love forever. AND THEY DATED FOR 4 MONTHS! A YEAR AGO! DUDE! IT'S NOT MOVING IN! IT'S NOT LIKE YOU WERE DATING AT THE TIME! YOU HAD BROKEN UP FOR A YEAR, YOU HAD SHOWN NO ROMANTIC INTEREST IN HER FOR MONTHS, GOD, COULD YOU BE ANY MORE OF AN ASSHOLE?!?!??!! Oh wait, you can, I forgot that you almost KILL PACEY IN THIS EPISODE. GOD.

Pacey: For the very last time, Dawson, I made a mistake.
Dawson: Mmm-hmm.
Pacey: I thought you of all people would understand someone falling for Joey Potter.
Dawson: Are you delusional enough to believe that you actually have something real with Joey?

You know, a lot of Dawson's idiotic retorts I really don't have to yell at him for because Pacey does an amazing job of doing it in this scene. I love me some Pacey =) Anyways. HOW THE FUCK WOULD YOU KNOW ABOUT PACEY AND JOEY'S RELATIONSIHP? YOU SAW THEM ARGUING AND GOING THROUGH TONS OF GRIEF TRYING TO FIGURE OUT HOW TO TELL YOU, YOU PATHETIC ASSHOLE, SO THAT YOU WOULDN'T BE HURT, AND THEN YOU DO THIS! YOU DON'T KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT THEM, OR THAT THEY'VE HAD SOMETHING MORE REAL THEN YOUR PATHETIC 4 MONTH RELATIONSIHP! Ok, who the hell is he to talk about having something real with Joey? He had a life-long frienship and 4 months of dating. Joey and Pacey had the same amount of time of friendship and later will have a year of dating. Joey and Pacey is way more real than Dawson and Joey ever were.

Pacey: Well if I do, it's because of her own free will.

WORD WORD WORD, PACEY! As I said, Pacey really does a great job of defending himself in this scene, that I dn't really need to comment. But I will ;)

Dawson: Do you really think a couple confused weeks means anything compared to the lifetime that we've had?

A) Dawson, you two dated for FOUR FUCKING MONTHS A YEAR AGO! GET OVER IT!
B) It's been more than a few weeks, you asshole. They've been friends since September (this is roughly in early May) and Pacey's had feelings for her since a little after then (although he first developed them in season 1) and Joey's had feelings for him ever since he kissed her, and maybe even before then (and I'm not assuming that at all... Joey said that basically exactly herself in the finale) and... IT HASN'T JUST BEEN A FEW CONFUSED WEEKS!
C) The only life-long thing you've had is frienship. Pacey and Joey have been friends just as long.

Pacey: And do you actually think that you could possibly hold on to that beautiful woman with some sort of selfish ultimatum?

Um, do I really need to say it? Word x500.

Dawson: Answer my question, Pacey. Do you really think that you can compete with history?

I would say something, but Pacey says it so much better.

Pacey: Some history. Fifteen years of watching PG movies in your bedroom followed by another year-and-a-half of pretending to be grown-up only to drop each other at the first sign of crisis. That's your history?? Come on, man. And you call this woman your soul mate?

Good lord, Pacey, WORD TIMES INFINITY! THIS EXACTLY WHAT I'VE BEEN SAYING SINCE... EVER! Dawson and Joey have been best friends for 15 years. They dated for about 4 months (Pacey's very generous in that area) and when trouble came, they stopped working at their relationship. THIS IS NOT SOULMATES! I don't even believe in soulmates, but if I did? This would nto be it. This isn't it anyways. God. If you were soulmates, then you would've been together before Pacey even came into the picture.

Dawson: Yes! I do! And you knew that, but you went out after her anyway.
Pacey: Right after you rejected her.

And again, Pacey with the perfect resonse. YOU REJECTED HER, YOU IDIOT! YOU MAY CALL HER A SOULMATE, BUT... Well ok. I could hold a kleenex box in my hand. I could call it a pear. I could swear that this kleenex box has always been a pear and always will be a pear and that nothing can change that. I can claim all I want to that this kleenex box is a pear but... when it comes down to it, it's not a pear. It's a kleenex box. Calling it a pear doesn't change what it is. They're just labels. Other than him calling them soulmates... there's been nothing else to indicate that they are soulmates.

Dawson: Oh, so she was vulnerable. Perfect for you right? 'Cause you're only interested in girls you can save or screw, right Pace?

Oh god. Pacey has so much willpower here. If I were him, I would have knocked Dawson out. Or a least kicked him in the balls or something. God. What an asshole.

Announcer: And as the leaders reach the pivotal mark the leader is... looks like True Love's out front but Carpe Diem in a bold move here, they are gaining ground.
Mitch: Alright now Dawson, we gotta pick it up here, we gotta give it more room. okay, two legs at the mark.
(Dawson ignores Mitch and closes in on "True Love's" line.)
Pacey: What the hell are these guys doing?
Will: I don't know, I don't know.
Pacey: (yelling to Dawson) Hey! Hey, give us room!
Announcer: True Love and Carpe Diem are neck and neck. They're fighting for the finish here. Carpe Diem is not giving any ground. In fact, Carpe Diem is not acknowledging True Love's request for steering at the mark. If one of these boats doesn't veer off course here in a minute, we're gonna have a major collision.
(Joey and Gail watch from the stands.)
Joey: They're both heading for the same spot, are they crazy?
Pacey: (yelling to Dawson) Hey, we got the right of way!!
Mitch: (to Dawson) You're gonna have to back off.
Dawson: I'm not getting out of his way.
Mitch: Two legs.
Dawson: I'm not getting out of his way!
Jack: Let them through, come on!
(Dawson steers "Carpe Diem" closer and closer towards "True Love", trying to take their line. Pacey is getting really nervous about a collision.)
Pacey: Get off our line!!
Will: Move over!
Mitch: If you don't we're gonna run into the dock.
Jack: Dawson, come on!
Pacey: Give us room!!
(As "True Love" moves over to avoid collision, it gets closer and closer to the docks where the audience sits. At the last moment, Pacey swings "True Love" back and away.)
Announcer: Oh my God. True Love with the right of way, changes course to avoid a collision. Carpe Diem does cross the line first.
Announcer # 2: Oh boy, there is gonna be a protest.
(Dawson flings his arms up in victory.)
Announcer: (to one of the judges) I'm sure that is a disqualification. (to audience) "Mischief" is approaching to be the second, and unfortunately, True Love, they'll finish a distant fifth.

POAIUGIAWJE'RLAIWETO PIAW[0E9RI[AOWJ[APYOI[OFIAKOP WIG[OAWJER[OPAWIEKAJF;LKJA'WLKJG ALKSDJFLASKJDF'KAL SJDF'KAJS'GKJAS'DKFLJASLD KFJ'ASDKLFJASD OMFG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ASS HOLE ASSHOLE ASSHOLE! HE COULD'VE KILLED PACEY! Ok. Calm.. being calm... THAT FUCKING ASSHOLE! SERIOUSLY! I WAS NOT KIDDING WHEN I SAID HE NEARLY KILLED PACEY! Pacey's boat had the right of way, but Dawson says "I'm not getting out of his way!" That's what I was talking about earlier. Dawson only cares about himself and what he wants. He doesn't care that he was going to kill Pacey. He just wanted to win. And Pacey's boat had to veer off course momentarily and htey ended up cmoing in 5th when they deserved 1st. Which is such... god. Asshole. Pacey's been working for this for a long time, and he would've won if Dawson hadn't tried to kill him. GOD I HATE DAWSON! I CAN'T SEE HOW ANYONE COULD EVER LIKE HIM AFTER THIS! OAIWUE'IORUJA'KJF'ALKSJDF'AKSDJF'ASKF *kills Dawson*

Dawson: (to Joey) We won!
Joey: No you didn't, Dawson, you lost.
Dawson: What?
Joey: If you knew a little bit more about sailing you would know that you got disqualified.
(Pacey makes it over to them and starts yelling.)
Pacey: Your nearly killed me!
Dawson: What, I got disqualified?
Pacey: Oh, I got a couple more words for what you are.

Hee to Pacey's last line. And OMFG DAWSON! YES, WHEN YOU NEARLY KILL SOMEONE, YOU DO GET DISQUALIFIED! I absolutely hate how Dawson's all "WE WON!" and has no clue that attempting to run into someone else's boat and subsequently almost drowning them gets you DISQUALIFIED. AOIWUJ'AIWEUR'AIWER'UAIWER I hate Dawson.

Dawson: Okay, let's not forget who started this, Pacey. You're the one who said you wanted…
Joey: Okay, stop. The both of you, stop this. I'm not some damned trophy.
Pacey: No, Jo, let's not forget who started this, okay. Let's not forget who pushed me towards Joey Potter in the first place. (to Dawson) It was you! Yes! It was you who couldn't be bothered…
Dawson: (yelling back) Because I didn't want to get hurt again, Pacey! I still had feelings for her, I still loved her! I still love her.

Oh, that's a load of bull. You do not still love her, and you didn't love her then. You haven't shown any romantic interest whatsoever for her since the very first episode of the season, back in September. You had no problem when she dated A.J. You didn't even overreact this much back when you thought they were SLEEPING together in Four To Tango! And you don't love her now. I'll go into that further later with something Joey says, but... you don't love her. You're afraid of losing her, and you don't want to "let her go", but you don't love her. Pacey and Joey, that's love. But not Dawson and Joey. Not in the slightest.

Joey: I... I hate this. I hate all of this. God, I hate you for kissing me and forcing me to figure out what it all means, Pacey. And I hate you Dawson, for… for forcing me to make a choice between our friendship and what I might have had with him. And I hate myself. I mean, I wish we could go back to the way it was, I wish I could take it all back, but I can't. Nothing is worth going through all this. No one person is worth this. Neither one of you, and especially not me. (Joey storms off.)

I've gone into this quote before, but whatever. She hates Dawson for forcing her to choose between her best friend and the man she loves, while she hates Pacey for forcing her to face her feelings and not hide from them. That's a recurring theme for P/J and D/J. Dawson is her safety blanket. She can run to him when things get tough. Pacey challenges her, he pushes her into the real world. He makes her face real feelings. He's not safe, because they're in love. She's not in love with Dawson, so there's no risk. As I said, it's safe. Anyways.

Dawson: I'm glad he kissed you because it forced me to deal with the notion of losing you, Joey. And I can't. I can't lose you. Not now, not ever.

This illustrates my point. Dawson's just worried about losing her. If she's with Pacey, then he doesn't have the option of going back to her. And what I don't get is how he's losing her if she's with Pacey. He didn't have her before he knew about them, but he was just fine. And after Pacey and Joey get together, it's not like she's only allowed to be with Pacey and no one else. She can still be friends with Dawson, just like they've been for the past several months.

Dawson: I behaved the way that I did today because I was threatened.
Joey: What are you talking about?
Dawson: Honestly? I'm just trying to be the kind of guy you want.
Joey: What kind of a guy is that?
Dawson: (sighs) Well... the one who beat up a bully, and bought you a wall...
Joey: That's not you.
Dawson: No. No, it's not, Joey. I- I've- I've just been trying to show you how much I want you instead of just telling you.
Joey: You don't want me, Dawson. You said it yourself, you just don't want to lose me.

Word Joey. That's exactly it. He's not in love with her, he just doesn't want to lose her. And god, Joey doesn't love every single guy who beats up bullies and buys her walls. She loves him for who he is as a person, and you could never even come clsoe to being that.

Dawson: Of course I don't want to lose you, Joey, I- I want you more than I ever have.

And that's what's so very... stupid. He can't differentiate between the two. He wants her more than ever because he's afraid that he's losing her. When they're friends, he's not in the process of losing her, and so of course he'll just take for granted what he has. Duh.

Pacey: I gotta be honest with you, Jo. I really thought after the way he behaved today that you'd love him less, but you don't, do you? If anything, you just love him more.

WHY, THOUGH? Because he nearly killed Pacey? I mean, seriously.

Pacey: Okay. Okay. I just gotta ask one more question and then I'm gonna stop making this hard on both of us, I swear. If it weren't for Dawson, could you ever love me like that?
Joey: Like what?
Pacey: Like a soul mate?

Oh no no no, you don't want to be soulmates. That entails being hurtful to each other and manipulating each other and being complete assholes. We want you to stay as youa re! And this totally ties back int othe thing I said during the The Longest Day analysis, where I was talking about Dawson representing what Pacey didn't have, and how he was envious of Dawson. He's constantly comparing himself to Dawson, and his relatipnship with Joey. He wants to have what the writers are trying to tell us Dawson and Joey have, even though they never show their great soulmate connection or explain it. Sigh. Oh, and *hugs Pacey*

Joey: Pacey, please don't make me choose this... don't make me choose. I really think the best thing is… is to just take a couple steps back, and...
Pacey: Yeah. (hey goes to leave but turns back) Hey Jo? I'll renew the lease first thing in the morning.
Joey: Okay.
Pacey: And I understand. I do, I understand. There are no ultimatums here.

What I don't understand is how Joey didn't decide right here, right now that Pacey was the better man. I mean, you have Dawson who's forcing you to choose between him and Pacey. And you have Pacey who is letting you have time to consider what you really want and understands how this is ripping you apart. Hm, who would you choose? If there were two guys and one gave me an ultimatum, I would totally choose the other guy, in an instant. And this illustrates again why Pacey is better for her. Dawson doesn't consider her feelings. He doesn't care if the choice will nearly kill her, he just wants her to choose him. Pacey knows how much this is hurting her and is allowing her time to figure everything out.

OK, that's it. I'll do one on Anti-Prom.. well probably not tomorrow because we have a football game we have to perform at (blah, first one. and a pep rally tomorrow) But I'll do one on Anti-Prom Friday prolly and True Love as well. =)

Jake 2.0 was pretty good. Christopher Gorham is awesome :) Absolutely loved him when he was in Popular,and I love him now too. The only problem is it has the same timeslot as Angel but... I really just can't get into Angel. I try but... it just... loses me and I stop watching and watch about 3 middle episodes and then watch the last few episodes. I think I'll be watching Jake 2.0 rather than Angel. I mean, I missed most of last season anyways. And I'm kind of lost in what's going on. And I like stating fresh with new shows. Besides, Jake 2.0 is doomed in that timeslot and the fact that it's on UPN, so... I'm watching it while I have the chance.

Ok. That's it. Wish me luck at the pep rally cuz you know I'm goign to suck :)

All right, I finished the fucking Global hw, taped Jake 2.0 because I didn't know if I'd have time to do the global hw if I watched it, and... yeah. So I'm waiting til it's over so I can then watch the tape from the beginning. And.. that means that I'm not going to be analyzing Show Me Love tonight. Yeah yeah, you're all so disappointed ;) I might do it after I watch the tape, or I might decide to actually go to sleep at 11, when I'm suposed to (dude... I stayed up til like.. 12:30 AM last night to finish that The Longest Day analysis and it left me with 5h30min of sleep, which is not good if you want to stay awake during class. By French, I was half-asleep. So... I can't stay up like I usually do. Well I can on Fridays and Saturdays but not weeknights. I just don't get enough sleep x.x

Um, yeah, anyways. That global worksheet was hard. Why were the questions all out of order?! IT'S MEAN TO DO THAT! Sigh. In Humanities last year they were always in order... *pout* Plus they were like... WEIRD. AND VAGUE. AND HOW THE HELL DO I KNOW WHAT I WOULD ASK GUTENBERG IF I WERE A HISTORIAN AND MET HIM AFTER HE PUBLISHED THE GUTENBERG BIBLE?! DUDE! *kills stuff*

Um yeah. =)

Oh my. *swoons and dies* Yeah. Anti-Prom and True Love. Just watched. *dies some more* Did I mention that I love P/J? I really really do. Only fucking reason I watch/ed the show anyways. But... *swoons some more* Um, yeah. I just wanted to say that and I'll do the same thing I did to The Longest Day with Show Me love and possibly Anti-Prom and True Love after I finish my homework and watch the premiere of Jake 2.0. Y'all [shuddap whoever's laughing at that... namely Tiffany and probably Jackie...] should watch it =) Christopher Gorham is awesome. ...[thinks this sounds oddly like the start of the Adam Brodyness...]

New The O.C. Good ep, IMO. =) Shirtless Adam Brody and Benjamin McKenzie. It had to be good ;) I got to admit something really quickly: I LIKE SETH/SUMMER, ALL RIGHT! I guess I'm just in favor of the long unrequited crush finally being... requited. Or at least.. acknowledged? SUMMER MADE SETH HAPPY, THA'TS ALL THAT MATTERS, MOVE ON! And... I have to say Mischa Barton was definitely worse in this episode acting-wise, IMO. Everything just seemed so fake. But that's not the show I'm going to analyze!

Yeah, yeah, yeah. I did a... character analysis type thing yesterday on Dawson's Creek but... I just couldn't resist after seeing The Longest Day and Show Me love. I'm going to go through the lines and... comment on them. Not all of them, just 3/4 of them. ;)

The Longest Day
Joey: Come on, let's go, Pacey. It's your boat we're planning on christening.
Pacey: [lifting Joey up and setting her on a table in front of him] I own a boat?

Hee! Had to start off this with some P/J fluff ;)

Joey: [they hug] Look, Pacey, we can't do this, okay?
Pacey: What? Can't do what?
Joey: I have to be the one to tell him, okay? (she pulls him out onto the front lawn - they stand close together holding each other's hands) I mean, things are really complicated between me and Dawson. It has nothing to do with you. It's just that, look, it has to come from me or it's going to ruin everything.
Pacey: Okay, okay! That's okay. Just calm down, Jo. It's alright. I'll do whatever you want to do, okay? And you wanna know the God's honest truth? I've been in the process of chickening out the whole way over here.
Joey: Maybe it's a sign, Pacey.

*kills Joey*

Pacey: A sign of what?
Joey: It's just that for so long, he's been everything to me, Pacey. I mean, this guy's been my family when I haven't had one. And he's the one person in my life that I can always depend on, and this, it's gonna kill him.

Yes, but not telling him and subsequently ending whatever future you could possibly have with Pacey wouldn't hurt Pacey at all. [rolls eyes] Ok, Pacey's been hurting for months. He's been in love with this girl, had his heart ripped to shreds, had a chance to finally gain what he's been long for for all this time, and it's been snatched out from under him. I'll go into something more about Pacey's character in a moment. Then you have Dawson. He dated Joey for a total of four months and then flat-out REJECTED her at the beginning of the year and pretty much abandoned her. He's shown absolutely NO sign of romantic feelings towards her, not even when she was dating a COLLEGE STUDENT earlier in the year. Yes, Dawson definitely seems like the one who's going to be more hurt. And on to Pacey. I mean, what Joey's saying now? Absolutely killing him. He's always been Dawson's sidekick. He's been an underachiever, a failure to his family (which his parents constantly tell him), and his romantic past consists of sleeping with his 40-year old teacher and dating a mentally unstable girl who cheated on him while she was recovering in Providence. His family life has been crap, while Dawson's parents have always supported him. Dawson has always been this friend (although they never explain exactly why Pacey would want to be friends with Dawson and why their friendship is so great) who has had life better than him. Pacey has to have envied Dawson on some level. And then, the final thing, Dawson always has this piece of Joey. Not because they're "soulmates" [and I will completely go into that and put that to rest after this as well... yes, it'll be long, but you don't have ot read it if you don't want to. I don't have anywhere else to put this crap, and I needed a place. Get over it.], but because he's able to manipulate her in a way nobody else can. Joey is always concerned [in these earlier episodes, at least... it changes in season 4 a bit and in season 6 completely] with what Dawson feels and is thinking over Pacey. That's got to be a huge blow. Here's this guy that he's always envied on some level, who has everything he wants... and the girl he loves is basically putting him before Pacey. Pacey's constantly in pain. Joey, to sum this up, I think Dawson can deal with finding out that you two are in love better than Pacey can stand anymore pain.

Pacey: You never had any intention of telling him, did you? You didn't come over here tonight to tell him. You came here to stop me.
Joey: No, I tried to tell him. I went up there and I tried.
Pacey: Of course you did. And let me guess, you failed, right?
Dawson: (coming out through the screened porch) I thought I heard something out here.
Joey: Dawson, uhh, we were just...
Dawson: Having an argument. Obviously. What about?
Pacey: Us, Dawson. We were arguing about us. Me and Joey. There's an us here now.

*swoon* Oh, and btw, in The Longest Day if yo'ure not a huge DC fan (but then why the hell are you reading this?) they basically repeat what happened in the day 4 times, except from a different persons' perspective each time, so you find out more what happened during that day as the show goes on. That said, I might come back to this scene and comment more. I had a lot more comments when I was watching the episodes and feeling my Dawson-hate fully. And I'll definitely have plenty to say during Show Me Love. *hits Dawson*

Joey: We're going to tell him. Pacey is going to do it today. He wanted to... I tried. I did, I tried plenty of times. It's just that when we tell him, Dawson gets hurt. And if I tell Pacey not to tell him...
Jen: Pacey's gonna get hurt.

So here's her choice. She can either choose to hurt Dawson or hurt Pacey. And she chooses to hurt Pacey. [sighs] It's all right, she's stupid now. She'll choose him in the end ;) But this is one reason why I don't like Joey very much in these episodes either.

Jen: Alright, I'll let you in on a little secret about the so called fearless. We're not as tough as you think we are. And Pacey's heart can break just as easily as the next guy. Maybe even more so considering it was already broken when it got here.

You hear that Joey? HUH?! PACEY CAN GET HURT JUST AS BADLY AS DAWSON, IF NOT MORE SO! IDIOT! =) I'm ok.

Joey: Hey.
Dawson: You changed your mind.
Joey: Kinda. Umm... I wanted to talk to you, Dawson. Pacey's not here, is he?
Dawson: No, is he suppose to be?
Joey: No... Umm... No. What are you watching anyway?
Dawson: The Last Picture Show.
Joey: Isn't that the movie we saw...
Dawson: On our first date. Yup, yes it is. It wasn't exactly a successful evening, was it? At least not movie wise.
Joey: What do you mean?
Dawson: Well, we never got to see the end.
Joey: (sitting on the edge of the bed, her face half turned away from Dawson) So, uhhh, how does it end, Dawson?
Dawson: Well, it's three friends that grew up together... Jeff Bridges is in love with Cybil Shepard and he dumps him and breaks his heart and he's completely devastated. And she's not. She just kinda moves on to the other guy. And, uhh, it destroys their friendship. It was never the same after that. And that's pretty much how it ends. Everyone alone, everyone hating each other. It's pretty depressing, actually, I don't know why I'm watching it. So what was it you wanted to talk about?
Joey: (standing and avoiding his glance) You know, actually, I just remembered that I promised Bessie that I would help watch Alexander tonight and she's probably waiting for me, so umm... (already out the window and on the roof) bye.

Ok, so basically in this scene, Joey's come to try to tell Dawson that she and Pacey are... well, in love. What she doesn't know is that Jen assumed Pacey had told him that when Dawson came to Jen's house earlier, and so Jen started talking to him about it and Dawson figured it out. Ok? Ok. So basically, Dawson knows about them in this scene. This is what a manipulative ass he is. He knows why she's come. Yet, what does he do? He plays the movie they saw on their first date together. He talks about a love-triangle that ends horribly with everyone hating each other. He's basically saying, "By loving Pacey, you're ruining all our friendships forever. This can't end well. We'll all end up hating everyone." Then later, he has the fucking nerve to be mad at Pacey and Joey for not telling him. HELLO?!?!?!?! MAYBE IF YOU DIDN'T COMPLETELY AND UTTERLY MANIPULATE THEM WHEN THEY TRIED TO TELL YOU, THEY WOULD'VE HAD THE CHANCE! HE'S PISSED THAT THEY DIDN'T TELL HIM, BUT HOW COULD JOEY POSSIBLY HAVE TOLD HIM THEN? HE WAS FUCKING MANIPULATING HER INTO "REALIZING" THAT NOTHING GOOD COULD COME OF BEING WITH PACEY AND SHE SHOULD GO BACK TO HIM BECAUSE THEN EVERYONE WILL BE HAPPY! GOD! *kills Dawson several times*

Dawson: Well, she thought I knew. I had to be pretty freaking stupid not to know, right, that the two people I trusted most in the world was lying to me? So are you, bored, confused or just malicious?

Let's try "in love", you asshat! Good lord. He knows nothing about how it came to be, about their feelings for each other, about how much Pacey has been in pain about this... and yet he automatically assumes and judges them. They would not be spending so much grief over this if they were bored, confused, or malicious. And what the hell is with the malicious? They'r enot doing it to fucking hurt Dawson! They've gone out of their way and bent over backwards to try to stop Dawson from being hurt! That's what this whole crap is about anyways! He heard them outside arguing, he heard all the pain they were going through, he heard that they were confused and scared and lost... and yet he went out there anyway and felt like he had the right to be mad at them! He talks about them lying to him... but they really weren't. I mean, did he ever ask if they were sneaking around behind his back? AND WHAT THE HELL?! HE HAS NO RIGHT TO FEEL UPSET ABOUT THIS! HE DATED THIS GIRL FOR A GRAND TOTAL OF 4 MONTHS! A YEAR AGO!!! SHE'S ALREADY DATED ANOTHER GUY! HE HAS NO RIGHT TO SUDDENLY BE UPSET WITH THEM! THEY'VE BEEN GOING THROUGH ALL THIS HELL JUST TO MAKE SURE HE DIDN'T GET HURT, AND THEN HE MAKES THEM FEEL EVEN MORE PAIN AND GO THROUGH MORE GRIEF BY MAKING THIS EVEN HARDER ON THEM! GOD! THERE ARE NOT ENOUGH WORDS INT HE ENGLISH LANGUAGE TO EXPRESS HOW MUCH I COMPLETELY AND TOTALLY HATE HIM RIGHT NOW. *kills Dawson again*

Dawson: So I guess it's safe to assume that friendship doesn't come above sex to you as a personal priority.

Oh. My. GOD. DID ANY OF WHAT HE SAW PORTRAY IN ANY WAY THAT THEY WERE JUST IN IT FOR THE SEX?!??!??!?!?!?! AGAIN, THEY WOULD NOT BE GOING THROUGH THIS MUCH GRIEF IF THEY WERE IN IT JUST FOR SEX! And again with the judging! He's known about their relationship for all of half a day, and he automatically assumes that the only reason they're doing this is for sex! How anybody can still like Dawson after this episode (or Show Me Love) is completely beyond me.

Dawson: Oh, what are you, in love, is that what this is? (Pacey looks at Joey) Don't look at her, alright? You know what, Pacey, I feel sorry for you. Because when all this is over you're really gonna need your friends and you're not gonna have any. You are not gonna have a single one.

Before I yell at Dawson before, I just love how Pacey looks at Joey when Dawson says that. And yes, actually that is what it is. They are in love. Deal with it. And now the yelling. WHAT A FUCKING ASSHOLE! YOU'RE NOT GOING TO HAVE A SINGLE FRIEND?!?!?!?! WHAT KIND OF... "PERSON" [calling him a person is too insulting to the human race] SAYS THAT? THAT'S JUST... I CAN'T EVEN DESCRIBE IT! Ok, he's basically just saing that he's better than Pacey and so all their friends, including Joey, are going to side with Dawson and Pacey will be completely and utterly alone? WHAT KIND OF SHIT IS THAT?!?!?!?! WHAT THE HELL GAVE HIM THAT IMPRESSION?!!??!!? Oh wait, right, Dawson is the bestestest person in the world, and how could anyone not love him? [snort] You know, there's way more I could say about this, but I'll reserve it for this, because this is about the worst of the entire scene.

Andie: (walking up with Will) Hey guys, what's going on?
Dawson: Why don't you ask Pacey? Ask him how long he and Joey have been sneaking around behind my back. Or better yet, as Joey how long she's been lying to me and to you. Go ahead, ask them, cause I can't stand to look at them.

'AKSJF;AKSJF'ALKSJF'ASKGJAKSLJF'LAKSJFOIWEJFANIFJKDJAKSDFJ'AKLJG'AJ'AIJFA[GJAKJFAJ'AKGJ'AJ'WEIOFJOIANVKKGJALKJG'A/AKLJSF;'ASKLFD'JLKAJF OMFG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ASSSSHOLE. SERIOUSLY! I JUST CAN'T EVEN BELIEVE THAT. Ok. If you can't tell why I'm upset... it is so not Dawson's place to tell Andie about them. Pacey and Andie dated for a year and the only reason they broke up was because Andie cheated on Pacey. Andie still has feelings for Pacey, and Pacey never really... I mean, he loves Joey. Completely and unconditionally. However, things ended badly with Andie, and so obviously there's still a little something there. Dawson knows this. It was not his right to tell Andie this. He knows it'll hurt Andie and it'll hurt Joey and most importantly, Pacey, if he says this, so he does. But again, HE HAS NO RIGHT TO DO THIS! This is completely Pacey's place. It's his ex-girlfriend, and his 1-year relationship. Not Dawson's. Good lord. And on that train of thought, if any party involved has the right to be upset about P/J, it's Andie. Not Dawson. I don't care about soulmates. They dated for a total of 4 months. Get over it. Andie and Pacey dated for a year and Andie still has strong feelings for Pacey, which she's mentioned previous times this season. Dawson rejected Joey and has shown no signs of romantic feelings until P/J came about. Andie has the right to be upset, especially sicneit was Pacey who broke up with her (albeit because she cheated). Dawson does not have this right.

Andie: You must really, uhh... you know, to give up your friendship with Dawson, to give up everything. How could you be so stupid, Pacey? You know you're gonna get hurt. (Pacey finally looks at Andie. He looks extremely sad.) She is never gonna love you like she loves him, okay? He is her first love, Pacey. Her first love.

One reason Andie's so upset and why she acts so... asshole-y in Show Me Love is because she realizes how much Pacey and Joey truly love each other. She can barely even bring herself to say that Pacey must really love Joey. But I still want to kill her here. WHAT THE HELL? No wait, Andie's right. Joey will never love Pacey the way she loved Dawson, since in Dawson's case, she had a crush on him for awhile and had feelings for him that she mistook for love while in Pacey's case, she fell head-over-heels in love. Sorry Andie, you're right, totally different. But that's not what she meant. And what the hell again? Just because he was her first love means that she can never love anyone the same way? She has to be only in love withDawson the rest of her life? WHAT THE HELL? God. Andie's such an ass there. Dude, we could save all this pain if you'd all just push Dawson into his fucking creek and let his over-sized forehead weigh him down and drown him. Then Pacey and Joey would both be happy, and everyone else in the world would be happy because Dawson would be dead!

Dawson: Joey, what you intended does not provide me any solace. What, do you love him? Do you just want to sleep with him?
Joey: No, why would you say that?
Dawson: Cause it's what he's gonna expect.

APGOIUPAIOHUAWO[HIUAWPOIEURPAOIWUTO9UIP93UPA89UY[AIHU[AIU OK Pacey has NEVER shown any signs of wanting to sleep with Joey! I mean I'm sure he wants to, but it's not why he's with her! This totally depicts a lot of the reason why Dawson suddenly wants Joey so much. Pacey's supposed to be this sidekick for him. He uses him to feel better about himself. In season 1, in that Detention episode, he thought that Pacey was embarassing him in front of Jen and threatening his manliness or whatever and so he threw a basketball at his face and broke his nose. Dawson's incredibly jealous that Pacey has had sex (more than once) and is a lot more experienced than him and is better than him at something. He can't feel better than Pacey at sex because he's never had it. It makes him feel worse about himself. All just part of Dawson's insecurities. Or something. It's getting late, man.

Dawson: Is this punishment, are you punishing me?
Joey: No, I'm not punishing you.
Dawson: Cause I didn't want to get back together with you?

Wait, Dawson, repeat that please. Because you waht? Oh... because you didn't want to get back together with her! Or, more accurately, turned her down cold in the harshest of ways. REMEMBER THAT, ASSHOLE! YOU TURNED HER DOWN! YOU HAD THE OPPURTUNITY AND YOU TURNED HER DOWN! IT'S YOUR OWN FAULT YOU'RE NOT WITH HER NOW, NOT HERS AND NOT PACEY'S. GOD! And PLUS. He still isn't taking Pacey and Joey's feelings seriously. He's asking if she's just trying to punish him. Dude, get over yourself. The world does not revolve around Dawson! God!

Dawson: Than explain it to me, Jo. Explain to me how two people who can't even stand to be in the same room with each other ended up at my window arguing about the future of their relationship.

This shows just how clueless Dawson is. God. They have been great friends for pretty much up until now. They've been in the same room countless times and become best friends. Even if you didn't know they were in a relationship, you'd have to be able to see that they were friends.

Dawson: If things between us are complicated it's because you made them that way, okay? You think that everything that was wrong when you were with is gonna magically get better when you're with him?
Joey: I don't know, Dawson. I don't know, okay? I just know that I need him.

What the hell does that have to do with anything? That Dawson and Joey had problems together but with Pacey they'll have the same problems because Pacey's exactly like Dawson? WTF? YOu know what, yes, things will get better Dawson, because the problem wtih your relationship was you. Since that's changed, much better relationsihp. *rolls eyes*

Dawson: Need him like you need me? (Joey looks shocked. After a pause) Jo, it's a simple question. Do you need him like you need me?

No, she doesn't need 2 manipulative assholes in her life, Dawson :) God, how self-centered is that. Ever consider that maybe she doesn't need you and everyone would be better off if you'd just go drown in your own fucking creek now?

Dawson: You can't have both of us! You can't have him as your boyfriend and me as your consolation prize. You're gonna have to make a choice. And I'll tell you right now, if you choose him I'm not gonna be there to pick up the pieces when it all falls apart. This ruins everything! There's no going back.

And there it is. You have to make a choice. Dawson is giving her the ultimatum: their friendship, or a chance at a relationship with Pacey. God. And in the next episode, Pacey says "I understand, Jo, really, I do. Therea re no ultimatums here." And why is that? Because Pacey's not an asshole. I don't see how it wasn't clear then who she would choose. If I had two guys that I loved and one was giving me an ultimatum while the other was giving me time to sort out my feelings, I would choose the guy who wasn't giving me the ultimatum, simple as that.

Joey: Pacey...
Pacey: It's over, isn't it?
Joey: It has to be.

That part almost makes me cry. Pacey has this one lone tear running slowly down his face and... god, it just kills me.

Um, yeah. I was going to do Show Me love too, but this has taken me over an hour, and Show Me Love has even more than this does, so I'll just wait til tomorrow to do it. Now I need sleeeeeeep.