Ok. I'm gonna vomit.

You know there's this New Year's Eve bash on MTV. Well Hilary Duff is there. So is Simple Plan (why I'm watching). And they were standing next to her and then Damien's all "You're friends" [in my head I was all "No, SP just humors her and pretends like they like her], "Any chance of possible collaborations?" and Hilary's all "I'm standing right here, you better say yes!" [like what a bitch] and Pierre was all "[jokingly, sarcastic] Uh... suure... of course..." None of them said yes or even maybe seriously, though. But I ran back to my room, ready to vomit. I was coughing so much. Ack. Stupid hilary.

That's all. :) I'm sure I'll hve more Hilary hate later.

Hm. Ok lately, I've been getting into a song very much. Er, other than L.A. song. I really really like "Hurt", Johnny Cash. At first I didn't really care much about it, but then when they were advertising for the top 106.7 videos of 2003 on KROQ (wheee Hold On at #103! Well it's better than not on the countdown at all. They only played it for like a week 5 times a day before suddenly not playing it anymore.) and then they had him saying something and they played part of it in the background at one part and I downloaded it and I've been listening to it a lot and I really like it :)

Ah I might not have to go to my parents' friends house for New Years Eve! See, we always go to this house down in L.A. every New Years Eve and spend the night there. It's really boring. There are only two other youngish people there. Actually, one probably won't be there cuz now he's like... 20 something and in the marines or something. The other is a guy turning 18 like... 2 weeks after I turn 15. So... yeah. Not really... people I would talk to a lot. Bah, it's really boring and stupid and stuff and all they do the next day is watch football. Well, there is a dog, so that's nice. But still. I'd rather stay here and watch the stupid MTV thing and suffer through Ludacris and Chingy and Hilary Duff just to see Simple Plan perform a cover of some song (Happy Together! Please! Surrender would be fine. So would American Jesus. But I reeeally would like to see Happy Together!) after midnight. See we're not going cuz one of the people that's my parents' friend who owns the house we're going to (Ah ok. This is all so badly worded. Dennis and my dad were friends in high school. He married Sue. It's their house. So you know who I'm talking about when I say Sue) ok Sue is sick so instead we might just go over there tomorrow morning, or people might come here. I don't know if they'd come to spend the night, or if they'd just come tomorrow morning. Either way it wouldn't matter 'cause I could just sneak off to the family room. So yes.

Anyways! Hm. I still have to finished Adri's Christmas presents! Ah! Stupid me. And Jackie's layout! Ah. Again stupid me. And of course the stupid global thing that I still haven't started. Oh, and geometry tesselations. And a French thingy. Oh, and did I mention I'm going to Big Bear from Friday to Sunday? Yep. Sigh. I procrastinate too much. Oh well.

Yeah... I think that's it. :)

Heh. Last night I had a dream where I was on my mom's computer and decided to call-in to KROQ for free tickets to a GC concert even though I wasn't listening to the radio so I don't know how I knew when to call or that if I called I'd get anything, but I did and it rang instantly (ah, KROQ loves me even in my dreams ;)) and then I was the right caller and all but before like... I could say anything else or anything the power went off in my house and I was on a cordless phone so it cut out and I got pissed cuz like... I wanted my tickets! But then for some reason in the family room and stuff my mom was watching TV and some of the clocks were working, even though the power was out. Well that was my dream, and all I remember of it.

However, my mom had a dream with Simple Plan in it last night. I find that so amusing. She told me about it this morning. She said that we were at some Disneyland/ski resort type place and we were on this thing like a chairlift but it wasn't, and they were chairs and stuff and.. yes there was a place to put your sweatshirts and we put ours there and apparantely mine and my mom's were exactly alike and we went up and when we came down we were all separatedly and both of our jackets were gone and then she was waiting for me and my dad when she saw a crowd and then like Simple Plan was selling tickets to their concert there for some reason and there was a really long line to talk to them but somehow she went over there and talked to them while they were selling tickets and talking to their fans and... yeah. So she waited there because she figured I'd be over there pretty soon cuz... hello, Simple Plan :) But then I wasn't there so suddenly she was in this restaurant and I was eating with three of my friends (but she doesn't remember who they were) and we had just been to the Simple Plan concert even though... they were just selling tickets to it and we were saying how cool it was and then she asked about her sweatshirt since I had mine and I told her some kids were playing with it and I didn't get it back from them and she got really mad at me.

But yeah, that's it. Her dream was more interesting, I think. :)

New layout! I know, I don't think I've had the other layout up even a week. Maybe a week. I don't know. But this idea has been floating around in my head since last night... well kinda since this weekend when I watched Dead End. If you don't know what this is of, this is from the episode "Dead End" of the second season of Angel. Featured here is Christian Kane (who plays Lindsey) performing "L.A. Song". The lyrics are from that song.

I kind of like this one. The past layout and this one have been pretty simple layouts, which I like. This time there's not even any line/bar thing separating the about me stuff from the main blog. But anyways, tell me what you think in my tag board :)

Ah, I want to say that I know I've kind of abandoned my fanart site. I haven't meant to, I just haven't really made any graphics recently. I've been out of a graphic-making mood. I'm sure I'll get back in one soon. And while I have had a few ideas for new layouts there, I haven't made any mostly because it's such a hassle changing layouts there. Plus, brinkster has now decided to put ads everywhere which pisses me off. However, I'd like to also say that even though I've almost abandoned it, if you are some random person who has been both there and my blog, do not take my work. I'm fine with people using my wallpapers on their computers without asking. I don't care about that. However, do not put your work on your site without asking me. I'll let you in an instant if you ask, but do not just take it. And if you do use something and ask permission, credit me. And lastly, do not direct link. That means, copying the exact link that it's at and putting it in the < img src > codes. Save it to your computer, upload to your own server. Otherwise, I'll just transfer the work there onto brinkster because it doesn't allow offsite linking. I know for all my friends who are probably the only ones at my blog this is very boring and annoying but I do have a reason for saying this. I don't care if you credit me when you don't ask (well obviously it's better that you do, but I mean it doesn't make it ok to steal it), you need to ask me. Anyways. Enough of that.

Dude for the past week, I've been remembering my dreams, and at least one of the dreams everytime involves a pool of some sort o.o It's really odd. Last night I didn't remember my dreams, though. The night before, though, I had a dream I was on swimteam, like local, not school, but then it was during second period and when I got out I couldn't find any of my stuff but somehow I was suddenly wearing my pants I had worn there and I was freaking out cuz I had to get to Global (my third period) and I couldn't go there wearing a swimsuit. Oh, and this was at my community pool, not at my high school. Well, I suppose it's not as if they're far from each other, but still. It was odd. I tried to call my mom on the phone but I... something happened. I odn't remember. But yes, the whole thing was odd.

Anyways! :) Jan. 2 needs to come sooner. If you don't know why, don't bother in asking 'cause you won't care.

Hm. Video countdown of videos that have spent the most time at #1 on TRL today. The Anthem at #1 :) Yay The Anthem! Lately I was kind of... I don't know. Not caring about music as much, I guess. Or GC. Like, I care and all, but it was fading-ful. Ah shut up, I don't care if you don't understand me. But anyways, I had a really good feeling that The Anthem would be high on the countdown and so my heart was all bouncy and I was all excited...y when it was #1 :) Which was nice. Even though it's stupid, because I have it on DVD and can watch it whenever I want. But anyways. It made me feel good that I felt good about it being high. If... that makes sense. Ah, I don't care if it doesn't, shut up.

..yeah. That's it.

Yes, I haven't blogged recently. Been watching DVD's. Ah, I love the character of Lindsey on Angel. Christian Kane is fucking awesome. Plus he has a really really awesome voice. Ah I wish I liked the music he put out, but it's too country for me x.x Still, he has a lot of talent. Wheee and he's back on Angel this season! I need to tape The O.C. while watching Angel on the small TV. Anyways. Not what I came to say.

I need to rant about something. Gah, I hate when like older people (people the age of my parents, basically) make comments or something is mentioned about records and record players and then they're all to people my age "Although I suppose you have no idea what those are" or whatever. It's like, dude, yes we listen to CDs. Yes, technology has changed. That doesn't mean we don't know what records are! It hasn't been that long since they were the way people listened to music! I mean, growing up my parents had tons of records! We have a record player. Now maybe some people my age don't know what records are, but I find it hard to believe that so many people don't. Really, how many teenagers these days have no idea what a record player is? It really pisses me off. Ugh. I mean, they even sell records at Hot Topic! There's this one area where there are a bunch of records of recent music. TEENAGERS ARE NOT IDIOTS. WE KNOW WHAT RECORDS ARE. Gah, even if we don't use them now doesn't mean we don't know what they are! Ugh! Stupid idiot condescending older people x.x

Ah. So concludes my rant. I don't know, maybe I'm wrong, maybe there are vast amounts of 14-year olds who don't know what records are. But somehow I doubt it.

AHHH I GOT A NEW CLARINET I GOT A NEW CLARINET I GOT A NEW CLARINET!!!!

Wheee I love Christmas :)

Um, what else? I got Role Model shirt, camo MADE shirt that I've wanted since... forever, Buffy season 5 on DVD, Angel season 2 on DVD, 2 pairs of pyjama pants, A NEW CLARINET (if you hadn't noticed yet), 2 books, 2 pairs of earrings, some lipgloss (*shrug* I have no idea why), a classy-ish watch for concerts and stuff, and... I think that's it. Oh, and soap. *shrug* But yes. AH wheee this is awesome :) NEW CLARINET! The guy at the place my mom got it at said that I should play it for a month, bring it in for adjustment, and then play it for class. So it kinda sucks that I don't get to play it in class for a month. But who cares? NEW CLARINET! Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :)

AHHHH THEY'RE PLAYING IT THEY'RE PLAYING IT!!!!!!!! YES KROQ LOVES ME! WHEEEEE CHRISTMAS BY THE PHONE!!!!!!!!

...I don't know why I'm so excited. I've heard it hundreds of times, I have several burned CDs that it's on, I have it downloaded and saved to my computer. Twice, actually.

Ah, somehow it's better on the radio. I don't know why. It's like with Hold On video. Seeing it on MTV in the morning is fucking awesome. Even though I have it saved on my computer.

AH THIS IS AWESOME YAY :) KROQ's Christmas present to me, yes ;)

Wheeee ok, I'm a lot happier than I was before. :) I love how music can make me feel so much happier. Ah wheeeeeeee. Christmas by the Phone! Yay!

Holy shit, they're actually playing "Alone This Holiday" (The Used) on KROQ! Awesome! They need to play Christmas by the Phone now :)

Bah. Stupid Christmas Eve party was... well, stupid. Made me feel like crap for various reasons. The oldest kid there was 8. Holy shit, he was annoying x.x God. Reminded me of Dawson O.o That's scary. And it tells you what I've been obsessed with recently. Ah, my Dawson's Creek phase will pass as it has in the past. But anyways. Bleh.

That's really it.

Hm. I've been having a lot of memorable dreams recently O.o Anyways, this is one I'm sure Tiffany'll love.

Ok, so like... in my dream there were Pierre and David. I was like... David. Like I was seeing everything from his POV. I forget why but like... ah it's kind of confusing. Well my parents (they really were my parents, because I have no idea what his parents look like and so my subconscious put in my parents) wouldn't let Pierre come over because they were afraid that he and David would end up like... making out or something. I don't know. But then that was like... AH it's so confusing. It made sense at the time. Like, they didn't want him and Pierre alone in that room, but then David was all "But what about the FAMILY room?" cuz it's more open and shit. Oh yes, this was in my house, btw. And then they agreed to it. It was odd. Oh, but in the end David and Pierre ended up making out. So it was ok :)

Ah, this tells you what's been on my brain recently ;) P/D is so cute! Anyways.

That's the only dream I remember from last night. Pretty amusing, though.

Bah. Stupid Christmas Eve party thing tonight x.x BAH. And then there are these commercials on KROQ for like... "Twisted Christmas" or something and starting at like... 6 I think they're playing non-stop Christmas songs from "KROQ bands" or whatever. And during the commercials, they play part of Christmas By the Phone! The part that's all "My Christmas Eve was filled with dreams but you chased them all away." Well actually, just the "My Christmas Eve" part, but I know it's definitely Christmas By the Phone. I've heard that song enough to know that it is. Anywyas, I really want to listen tonight so I can see if they play it. I know it's unlikely, but it's in the ads! But no, I have to be at a stupid fucking party that I don't want to go to where I won't know anyone. Bah. x.x Maybe when I'll get back they'll still be playing it and play it then! Ah, I can only hope. Well hey, KROQ loves me, so who knows ;)

Ah. I watched my Dawson's Creek series finale DVD at like... 5:30. It made me feel better, cuz I was feeling like crap before for various reasons. One of them being I had just gotten back from the orthodontist. Bah! Actually, they didn't yell at me, which was a nice change. And I got the nice orthodontist at the beginning. But then I got one of the non like... main ones, one of the like... agh I can't explain, but there these two main ones and there's always one of them there (this time there was both) and then there are others who do a lot of the stuff but not the major stuff. So one of the non-main ones changed the bands on my braces, and the bottom teeth really hurt from wearing the elastic bands I'm supposed to wear all the time but don't, and she yanked really hard on them to put on the rubber bands and it hurt really badly and I was wincing... bigly but she didn't notice. Ah but after that the other orthodontist, the less nice one checked on me but she didn't yell at me so it was ok. Ah but they make me wait forever! Like, it would be a 15 min appointment, but it takes an hour. And the lady at the counter didn't fucking know what "No appointments during the week of Jan. 20 because it's finals week!" meant. Like, I said that first, and we had to schedule 3 appointments and 2 had to be within a week of each other, and after I was all "No week of Jan 20" she was all "Ok... so how about the 21st?" I was all "(blink) That's... during the week of Jan. 20. I have finals." And she was all "...oh. Ok, well how about Jan 26?" And I was all "fine" even though it was at like... 1:30 and right after lunch ended and I'd have to miss French. Then we had to make the second appointment a week before, because for some reason we were making the second appointment before the first, and she was all "So ok, Jan. 20 at 3:45?" And I was all "(slap forehead) NOTHING DURING THE WEEK OF THE 20TH!" and she was all "But it's after school." Then I was all "If I want to do well on my finals, I have to fucking (ok I didn't say that, because my mom was standing right next to me) study for them. That involves spending every moment after school studying, because otherwise I won't do well." She was all "(blink)" and my mom was all "That would be a no" and so then she scheduled that appointment for the 26th and then the next for the week after. Ah, but she was such an idiot. Really annoying.

Anyways. I was pissed and then got more pissed when I got home for various reasons. Then I watched the series finale and so it was all good :) I watched it with commentary. It was awesome, because in the last scene, where we find out that Joey chooses Pacey (bwah, Dawson is alone! Which is how it should be. Always), he has this tear rolling down his cheek cuz they watched the season finale of Dawson's show (this is set 5 years in the future, btw. Oh, and the show is called "The Creek". How original. Except not.) and it was like apparantely moving or something. But then listening to the commentary, they said it was because that was the absolute final shoot of the series and it was like the wrap party and he was crying because of that. That made me go all "awwwww". Ah, Joshua Jackson is awesome :) Anyways. The commentary was very interesting. And I felt all nice and good again when I returned to my computer. Then I read some P/J fanfiction (I've been getting back into them again for some reason. Ionno why. It's odd. Like, I was semi-obsessed this summer, and then I kinda got off them and more to Seth/Summer and... well lately Pierre/David, but then just the past week I've been all P/J obsessed again. That's ok though) and I felt even betterly. I'm still kinda... moodyish (I have no idea why... not PMSing or anything, I'm just... feeling weird) so if I'm all... grrr to you just... yell at me or something :)

Hm. Christmas Eve tomorrow. Yay, I get to go to a party with my parents to this guy that my parents know from AA meetings! Woohoo! Oh, and if you don't know what sarcasm is, look it up. It applies to that statement.

Ah I had two dreams that I remember last night.

The first was like... really really really weird. At first, there were these like holes around this place in the ground and they were filled with something... like lego's or something O.o And then we [Ionno who we were, just like... a bunch of people, I didn't know everyone there] were supposed to fill buckets with the legos. And then afterwards there was this pool party (ah what's with all the dreams and pools?!) and then there was this thingy where you'd climb up metal bars or something and Jackie was up there and then there was a clown like right next to her and a clown on the ground in front of us and a clown somewhere else and I laughed and told Jackie but Dream!Jackie is apparantely very afraid of clowns, so she freaked out but we were high on this metal thing that was slippery and she couldn't exactly jump down and there was a clown down there anyways. It was funny. Although I don't know why it was Jackie, Tiffany would've made more sense, obviously O.o It was odd though.

That's all I remember about that dream, although I know there was more.

Then my other dream I remember better. Tiffany and I went... somewhere, ionno where, and then there was this like thing where you could go on TRL and like GC was there and was co-hosting and shit but then there was also a GC concert you go to like right next door and I chose to go to the GC concert but then Tiffany went to TRL and then Joel came over but all that happened was that they played the Anthem (not them... like recorded version) and he held up a poster of Benji, Chris, Billy, and Paul while talking on a cell-phone. That was odd O.o Then me and Justin (yes, Justin was suddenly there, even though he's not a GC fan) went into the TRL room (except it wasn't like TRL how you'd think, it was like this giant stage with a screen (where they'd play the videos) and then a big mosh pitt for people to watch the videos. So then like we went away cuz we couldnt' stay in there and when we went back to the concert, like almost everyone was gone. But then this official dude told the few remaining people to follow him and we went through this like hallway to get to TRL I guess, and then Benji, Paul, and Chris were sitting on the floor. I woke up before I had a chance to talk to them, though.

So yeah, those were my dreams. How odd.

I saw the Hold On video twice this morning. Ah, the joys of winter break.

Spectrum was fun. They played Perfect and I thought it was but I wasn't sure and then it was all "Hey dad" and I shouted that it was Perfect really loudly. I can only imagine what people around us thought of our conversation... especially cuz we talked about Pierre/David a lot. That's ok though.

Then Tiffany and I went to my house and worked on Annie's present (damn I still need to wrap the... other thing) while watching the GC DVD. Very amusing. Then we watched parts of the SP DVD. You know, it's funny enough by myself, but with Tiffany there everything got funnier. We were like laughing and coughing a lot, and then my mom came in the room and was all "What's so funny? Or can you even explain it?" and I was all "We're watching the SP DVD" and then she stayed in the room for several minutes and chose to watch it. Ah, the entire time I was all "Please don't say anything about sperm, do anything slashy, comment on the female anatomy, make a reference to your penis, or say fuck a lot" in my head and they didn't and she went away. Then she walked by and stopped and watched more again. Agh. Really annoying. Snort, and she always is all "Oh, don't change the channel [or whatever], I'm not watching it!" when she's just like standing there, staring at the TV. I'm afraid that one day I'll go to school and she'll decided to see what we laugh about when watching the SP DVD and she'll watch it all. Ah, that would not be good.

Anyways. Amusing afternoon. Agh, but I have an orthodontist appointment tomorrow x.x Bah, it better not be the one orthodontist cuz she'll like yell at me for not wearing my rubberbands... ever. The other one'll be all "Oh, that's all right, as long as you wear them... sometimes..." or something. Ionno. She's more understanding. The first one gets really mad at me and is all "DUDE WEAR THE FUCKING RUBBERBANDS!!!!!!!!!!!" ...well ok, not like that. But still. Agh. And they always are all "Oh, you're not flossing well. Do you need me to show you how to floss?" and then I'm all "...no." And they're all "Ok!" and proceed to show me how to floss. AGH it's not that I don't know how, it's just that it's fucking annoying to floss with braces! It's really hard, and I don't want to bother. Stupid annoying dentist people x.x

Holy shit, they are soooo fucking cute! Ah, the spinning!

...that's really all I have to say. But omfg, holy fucking cuteness! They're so together.

Hm. I had a really odd dream last night.

I dreamt that I was like at this pool party or something. Some stuff happened that I forgot. What I do remember, is that it was like ending so I had to go find my shoes, and they were next to these other shoes and somehow I got these other shoes and walked off. I then realized they were not my shoes, so I returned to find that my shoes were gone. I spent awhile wandering around, looking for my shoes, and I was carrying the shoes I had accidentally taken, and then I ran into another girl who was all "Hey! Those are my shoes!" and so I gave her the shoes I had and she gave me the shoes she had taken, but they weren't my shoes. I forget what happened then, but somehow I was home, without my shoes. Then I decided to go look for them (it was like... 11 PM by now) outside (even though I had lost them at the pool) and I began to exit when my dad stopped me and was all "Where the hell do you think you're going?" And I don't think I told him, I just kept walking out the door. He asked me again and was all "There's no way you're leaving the house at this time of night!" and then finally I said, "But I lost my shoes!" For some reason, this he understood, and he was all "Oooh" and let me leave. So I was standing in front of my house, when this car drove by with some teenage girls. Somehow I recognized my shoes and I yelled at them "Hey! Those are my shoes!" Then after a little arguing, the girl was all "Yeah, here's one of them" and gave it to me and the others snickered and she finally told me that the other was in the tree in front of my house. I was imagining it was like high up, but when I turned around, it was like... very bottom of the tree, and I grabbed it quickly. They were all "Awwwww, she got it quickly!" but they left. Then I realized those weren't my shoes after all.

So that was my dream. Oh, but I remembered another dream!

It was odd. I think we went to the pool (ah what's with all the poolness in dreams?) and then like... Annie and... it was someone else I was with, I think it was Tiffany but it might've been Jackie, they left I think. So I was walking out and waiting for my mom. I called her and I was all "Yeah, they left, can you pick me up?" and she said something that I didn't really hear but I thought it was all "Sure" so the I said "Ok" and hung up. I walked arund a little and there was a playground thing that I played on, and then there was this creepy guy around and I was afraid he was secretly stalking me or trying to kill me. My mom didn't come so I called again and she was all "Oh, I asked if you were having fun and you said ok, so... I thought you wanted to stay" and then I was all "No! I've been waiting for you to pick me up for the past half hour!" and she was all "Wlel ok, I'll come now" and then the guy was still there and I hid behind this thing and I remember him saying something to this other person, but I forgot what it was. I think it was something about me, though. It was creepy. I think my mom came then.

...I have odd dreams. I remember the shoe one better. I have no idea why I was so obsessed with getting my shoes back, though. O.o It was quite odd.

Hm. So, I got into the spirit from seing LOTR and decided to finally read the LOTR books. But then I decided it'd be a better idea to read The Hobbit first, even though I've read it twice already.

The Hobbit's a really good book. I'm surprised, because I'm actually enjoying. The first time I read it was like... 4th or 5th (maybe 6th) for that Accelerated Reader (agh anyone who was in my class 4-6 knows about that... AR sucked so badly x.x Thank god none of that now) thing, and I didn't really understand it because I was like... between 9 and 11. Then I read it again last year in 8th grade for that book project diorama thing. I still didn't like it because it was basically a forced reading, and I also had to finish it very quickly. I left it to the last minute. But now... I'm choosing to do the reading. That really makes the difference, IMO. When I have the time to read it, when I'm not forced to a deadline, when I want to do it. Then books are a lot more interesting. I'd probably have liked ATOTC a lot more if I didn't have to read six chapters a night and understand them fully, and if I wasn't worrying about writing an essay on it or taking a quote test.

So yeah, anyways. Enjoying that.

Ok, so I made the tripod site I was talking about, with analyzing of DC and shit. It's over here, if you care. I have part of Anti-Prom up, but it's not finished yet. I do, however, have an analyzation of Joey (character on DC)'s transformation from an awesome, snarky character to a somewhat annoying, spineless character. So.. yes. Anyways. I'm not sure if anyone actually reads them. Annie says she does, so... I might have one person actually reading it. But... yes. Go over there if you care :)

Ah ok, so new layout! Tell me what you think in my tag-board :)

See, originally I was all "Ok, it's either going to be Pacey/Joey or David/Pierre." So I decided it was going to be Ben/Felicity (from Felicity). Don't ask my how my logic works. I'm not quite sure. But anyways, it was to be B/F.

Then I couldn't fucking find the specific pictures I wanted to use for the B/F layout. And plus, my computer was being an ass, so... yeah. I ended up deciding on these P/J pics. I rewatched Anti-Prom last week sometime so I was in the mood for it. Ah awesome episode, one of the best Dawson's Creek episodes (though that's not saying much). Dawson is an ass (but what episode is he not an ass?), but it has just such an awesome P/J moment. Here's the scence (because I'm sure you care ;)):

Joey: I've been meaning to ask you something all night, Pacey. (Pacey turns to look at her) Would you like to dance with me? (she takes his hand. Pacey looks at her hand in his for a moment.)
Pacey: Yes. (they move out to the dance floor and begin to dance) How come this feels do right?
Joey: It was those dance lessons. (they both smile. Andie walks back into the room and notices them dancing together.)
Pacey: (slightly caressing her ear as he pretends to touch her earrings. Joey looks up at him, obviously feeling something by his touch. He looks at the earring) Where did you get those? They're not you.
Joey: (as Pacey pulls his hand away from her ear, he gently pulls on a wisp of hair that's loose from her French twist) Why, because I'm just a poor tom boy, or…? Dawson gave them to me.
Pacey: Nah-uh… (raising her hand with the bracelet on it and caressing it softly) See this? This is you. (he moves the bracelet around on her wrist, rubbing her hand) It's not showy or gawdy. It's simple. Elegant. (taking her hand in his) Beautiful.
Joey: (a little taken aback) It's my mom's bracelet.
Pacey: I know.
Joey: (pulling her head back to look at him, a little surprised) How do you know?
Pacey: Well, because you told me. Six months ago. (caressing her arm) You were wearing that blue sweater with the snowflakes that you have. You were walking down the hallway at school. I was annoying you as per usual. (rubbing her wrist where the bracelet is) You said, 'Look, Pacey, I just found my mother's bracelet this morning, so why don't you cut me some slack?'
Joey: (laughing slightly) You remember that?
Pacey: (after a pause, whispering) I remember everything.

Hm. Remember back in like September how I analyzed scenes from DC episodes I had just watched and said I would do the same for Anti-Prom and True Love but never did? Well I got inspired to do AP and TL when I watched both episodes earlier this week. I think I'm going to soon, and I'll either put them up on some freesite, like tripod, or I'll post them here. So... yes. Expect them soon. :)

Hm. I should make Jackie's layout soon.

Wheeee, saw Annie yesterday. That was fun. We saw LOTR 3, even though I haven't seen the second yet. It didn't matter, though.

Ok, before seeing LOTR 3, I didn't see how so many people could be all "Frodo is so homosexual!" or like... all these couples between the hobbits and shit.

I do now.

Frodo and Sam? Are so in love with each other. So are Mary (Mari? Mareeeeee? Ionno how to spell it) and Pippen (Pippin? Stupid evil hobbit names). There was also some love going on between Aragorn and Legolas, especially at the end. Of course, then he had to go and kiss that woman who I don't even remember's name. Oh shuddap. I'm LOTR illiterate. x.x Gandalf and Pippen a bit too. Ah so sweet. I got mad at Sam in the end for marrying that.. whoever she was. But I could see the sadness and jealousy in Frodo's eyes, so it was all right. Dude at the end, there was seriously this part where I swore that Sam and Frodo were about to makeout.

Heh, if you see me, remind me to show you Annie's and my theory. It's awesome :) 'Cause you see, Frodo waits for Sam and it's slow but then gets passionate, while Mary and Pippen are just an explosion :) Dont ask. We were high. It's a good thing I didn't' care about what was going on during it, or I would've killed Annie :) Wheeeee.

Um... yes. I feel like making new layouts for my blog and for my fanart site (and actually updating my fanart site *gasp*) but... I'm uninspired. Ionno. Maybe a new blog layout later today and a new fanart layout sometime next week. Oh, and I have to make a layout for Jackie for her Christmas present. Whee, but I have time, because it's winter break! Yay!

Ah I don't feel good. Not sick, feeling not good, but like... ionno. Something in the pit of my stomach.. I just feel... off. Or something. I can't explain.

English: Bah. Don't feel as good about essay as before I wrote it. Still, it's not too bad. Somewhat redundant, but whatever. At least I didn't do the theme of resurrection like everyone else in class (except Emma)! So I'll probably get 200 points (...out of 100...) for having a different theme :) English wasn't bad, though, I guess. I don't like essays.

Offfice Hours: Band room. Finished science hw. Then stood around. Rather boring. Why do you all go to the band room, again? It's not that fun...

Science: Lab. Boring. 1/2 hour left after lab, though. I started writing a P/D fic (sequel to another I wrote).

Lunch: Band room. Watched the beginning of The Grinch Who Stole Christmas. Yes, again. Shuddap x.x

French: Watched movie. Finished French packet. Finished sequel. Really short, but that's ok!

Yeah, rather boring day. Everything's so monotonous these days. Oh well. Looking forward to tomorrow, seeing Annie, yay!

On the subject of Annie... dude, Annie, don't change yourself. I love you exactly how you are, and so do all your other friends. If someone (namely, your sister) can't accept you for who you are, then... well she's an idiot :) And even if you do try to change yourself, just remember that we all love you, ok? Ok. :)

Hm. Ok I need to make Annie's card, and then either Adri's present or card. I have to study for my science "mega" quiz. Aaaand... c'est tout? Je crois que c'est tout. :) French power, yo! Of course, it's probably wrong. Blah, don't burst my bubble.

Geometry: So boring x.x I finished my geometry hw in class, though, so yay. I realize now that it would've been smarter to be studying for my history test during that time. Oh well. I've never said I was smart x.x

Office Hours: I learned Tiffany went home during first period. Feel better, Tiffany. Hm... I followed Justin to the band room and basically sat outside (agh it was fucking COLD) the entire time, studying for the history test. Bah, I failed at studying.

Global: History test! Yay! Except not. Um, yeah. So, it actually went better than I thought. I had some trouble with the like... mutiple choice and true and false and shit. However, the essay questions went absolutely fine. I did half a page for each of them :) And I wasn't BSing at all! I feel proud. But the rest... blah. There were actually a lot that I was sure I got right, but there were enough that I didn't feel so good about. Bah, oh well. I should do well on the essay questions though, which is good, cuz they're 10 points each.

Lunch: Went to band room to watch the beginning of The Grinch Who Stole Christmas (the Jim Carrey one).

Band: Watched the rest of the Grinch Who Stole Christmas. Amusing movie. The end is incredibly cheesy, but it's supposed to be, so whatever. Galaxy and Soan were really amsugin during it. They were lying down in front of me, and like anytime something happened... like if something sweet (corny!) or good happened, they'd be all "AWWWWWWWW!!!" and if something bad was gonna happen they'd be all "NOOOO" and... yeah. They like.. cuddled closely and stuff. It was really really funny :) Oh and we got to eat the cookies left over from the concert last night! Bwah, see this is why concert band is better than wind ensemble!

And... yes. That's pretty much it. Not a bad day, I'd say. We have to write our A Tale of Two Cities essay in class tomorrow x.x I was seriously fearing it and dreading it and shit, but... well she gave us this like outline of it and like... I wrote down shit and before I knew it I had like... filled out all the stuff. So my essays like... almost done really. The basic shit is there. I just have to type it up tomorrow in class, flesh it out a bit, and it'll be done. It's not bad, I think :) Wheee proud of myself. Ah I hope I do well on it. It should be ok, though, I think :) So yay on that.

...and wow, I finished my hw! Except, not science. But that doesn't count, ebcause I forgot to bring home my science book, so I can't do that hw anyways. I'll do it tomorrow during office hours. It's not that hard, I should be able to finish it in time. And if not, I can BS it quickly. She never checks. So... yes.

Hm. Concert was fun. That later. Gah, I have such a bad headache, though.

Geometry: Um... rather boring. I... don't actually remember what we did O.o All I remember is sitting there.

English: Quote test. Better than I thought. I was freaking out cuz I only knew 3/7 quotes, but then like... after I did all the quote stuff for those, then I studied all the others and could figure it out. Except for one of them I think I might have accidentally switched the speaker with the... whatever the other thing is. Speaking to, I think. But yeah, so I did better than I thought I would, I think.

Global: Boring. What'd we do? I don't remember, stupid boring classes! I remember at the end we went through all the slides to review for the test tomorrow and he was all "This is Napoleon Bonaparte in a cute little outfit" and I laughed so much. He was like... jokingly for all the slides. It was somewhat amusing.

Assembly!: This was actually before global, but whatever. It was nice. I didn't care about the singers or dancers, really. The wind ensemble was very good. The jazz band I couldn't hear, cuz like... they were opposite side of the gym. Gah. But yes.

Science: Boring again. Such a boring day. Ah you know what really pisses me off about Pranav (besides everything else I've said about him)? He's so fucking condescending. Every single day there will be something said that he will respond to "But we're honors" or something. Like we'll complain we have too much homework, because we do, and he'll be all "But we're honors!" He always says something involving the fact that we're honors. It's always really condescending, and it pisses me off. Besides, I have friends who aren't in honors, and it's not like any of them are idiots. They're all really smart too. Agh I hate him x.x

Band: Yesterday I felt really bad in band cuz I was still kinda out of it and then I kept messing up and... yeah. I beat myself up inside a lot :) But today wasn't bad, I didn't make any mistakes (at least any major ones) so it was all good.

French: GOD I FUCKING HATE THE PEOPLE IN MY CLASS X.X And you know what? Agh it pisses me off when I like... ok, when we have French work to do and it's easy and I finish really quickly and then people around me are all "Dude, you finished already?!" and i'll be all "...yeah... it's not that hard..." and they'll be all "Pshaw, it's because you're French." ...WTF?! Dude, I'm like... 1/100000th French! I'm much more German and Austrian, but it's not like I speak those fluently! Yeah, I'm not taking either of those languages, but my friend tried to teach me some German when I visited her and I failed miserably at it. IT AHS NOTHING TO DO WITH ME BEING 1/100000000TH FRENCH, ALL RIGHT?1 STOP SAYING THAT GOD. YOU WANT TO KNOW WHY I DO IT QUICKLY?! BECAUSE IT'S NOT HARD! BECAUSE I ACTUALLY STUDY! BECAUSE I KNOW THIS CRAP! God x.x

Now concert!

Clarinet Ensemble: BLAH! It sucked, IMO. I came in like... a beat early on this one part. In another, the first clarinets were either a measure behind or before us for like... several measures. Blah... I don't remember, but I'm sure there were more mistakes. My parents were all "Oh, wonderful, great! No mistakes! Pretty sounds!" They LIE x.x

Concert Band: Agh, I hate such a headache during it. But thankfully I didn't mess up during the duet with Rosa. I ran out of air more quickly than usual, but it was fine. I was shaking after that, though. I think I need to practice in front of other people more x.x

Ah everyone else was great :) Well I didn't see like... anything else but Wind Ensemble and Jazz Band, but still.

...yeah, so that's it. i should study for my history test, but my headache is killing me. Whatever, I'll study during office horus tomorrow x.x

Spectrum was fun :) Tiffany got me the GC video DVD. Much better than I thought. I love the commentaries. Like, at spectrum we were kinda talking about GC and the whole... sellout thingy (mostly we were talking abtou Pierre/David, but we did take a few moments to talk about GC ;)) and like... some stuff they've done are a bit... sell-outy. I don't think they are sellouts at all, but it kinda... ionno, I wasn't feeling that great about Benji and Joel. But then I saw the DVD and... I don't know, they just seem really honest. After seeing them talk about their videos and how they've gotten to where they are, I just can't think that they're sellouts or that they're in this for the money. I don't know, they just seem like good guys.

You know what was the most amusing thing at the spectrum, I think?

Me: [sneeze]
Tiffany: Your sneeze reminds me of a fic!

That was really funny. Like a little before that, they played that song that's all "I'm coming out" and I was all "You know what that reminds me of? That's like... Pierre and Dahvid... cuz they're gay and are gonna come out and stuff" or... I don't know exactly what I said but it was SOMETHING like that and she said I was becoming more obsessed with P/D then her. But then... I sneeze and she's all "THAT REMINDS ME OF A FIC!" ...ok, she did have a reason for saying that... but still... it was really amusing :)

Hah it was also super amusing like... I think after we got out of Hot Topic this clown walked by and she was all "O_O" and we were going the direction he was so we like walked slowly behind him. Then later like when we were leaving we walked this way and I saw the clown and I was all "Tiffany!" and she was all "...what?" and then I realized if I told her she'd run away so I was all "I'll let you see for yourself" but she realized what it was and she was all O_O;;; again but she had no idea where it was so she was like... super paranoid and looking all around her and it was very amusing.

We saw Justin there!

...yeah. I think that's all. Oh, and we went in FYE twice in a row pretty much and the second time (cuz we bought stuff both times) the guy was all "Weren't you just here?" Heh. Amusing.

I got 2 CDs! Yay me :) Hoobastank and A Static Lullaby. Yayness :)

Hm. I miss Annie x.x I haven't seen her very recently. WE NEED TO SEE EACH OTHER SOON, OK?!?!? Ok. =)

I need to finish peoples' cards/presents.

Wheee I didn't faint! Or throw up! (proud) Uh, yeah. But then, it wasn't relaly worth it. All the bands sucked. Well the fist wasn't that bad, they would be better with like... more work and more time as a band, but... the rest were all just screaming and hitting their instruments, hoping it would sound good. The third band wasn't that bad either, not as good as the first, but when teh guy actually sang, it was good. If they had just sang, it would've been much better. But anyways. It was still fun, though, cuz Lulu, Tiffany, and... whatever the hell Lulu's friend's name was, and I all just sat around on this couch a lot. We'd check out like... 5 seconds of the band and then sit down. You know, there was a lot of very... guy/guy moments there. It was amusing.

Yeah, so I'm feeling much better now. I skipped the orientation. ...I really hope it wasn't mandatory, cuz if it was... fuck.

Damnit.

Ok, I am going to the thing tonight for sure.

But damn, I'm beginning to feel bad again. If I stand up for too long, I get dizzy. I'm really tired, and I'm also getting a headache.

But no, I'm going to be an idiot and go and get even more sick because I've been looking forward to this all week. Sigh. I'll probably faint. Or throw up. BUT NO I'M GOING I DON'T CARE x.x I'll try to sit down. A lot. That probably won't be possible. Sigh. At least there won't be like... a GC-concert type moshpit. High school bands=less people. Agh I really want to go, but there's this voice inside my head that's screaming what an idiot I am and that I'm going to end up the same way I was in science, all disoriented and feeling like I'm going to throw up. I didn't realize how sick/disoriented I was during science until I was resting, thinking about it. I relaly have no idea what people were talking about or what was going on around me. If she had asked me a questino or something (which would be likely, because she often asks me cuz she thinks I wno't get it right/am not paying attention but she always asks them weirdly so I never know what she's talking about and get the answer wrong even though I would know it if she worded them better) I probably would've answered like... "cheese" or... well,probably "David and Pierre are so together" because that's always on my mind these days. Still, ugh. I remember at the beginning of class, Rosa was acting weird as always and was al "Are you deaf?" and I was all "...yes." because I was having trouble concentrating on what she was saying and she was all "Can you hear me now?" and i was all "...yes.." and she did that again and I was all "...Rosa.. I'm really not feeling good... so could you just like..." and then she came over and kinda... gave me a huggish thing and told me to feel better, which was nice. I really had no idea what was going on, though, everything was so blurry and... yeah. I couldn't really hear what was going on.

Damn. That sounds like I was really sick. And I'm definitely not completely over it. I really shouldn't go, but I really really want to x.x Agh. Screw it, I'M GOING. I'll just stay in bed all day tomorrow. Sorry. Jackie, I probably won't go to the orientation tomorrow. So if I'm not there, don't be surprised. It dpeends on how I feel. And I really doubt I will be up for spectrumming, especially if I go to orientation. Maybe if I don't go to orientation and just sleep in I might want to go, but.. I'm doubting it at this point. I don't know. I'll see hwo I feel tomorrow morning. Sigh. I'm really an idiot. I think I'm going to piss my parents off because I'll end up getting sick during the thing and call them in the middle of this dinner theyr'e going to, which my mom specifically didn't want to happen and is the main reason she doesn't want me going. If she was just at home, it wouldn't be as big of a deal cuz she could just pick me up in like... 5 minutes. But whatever. I'll be an idiot, I'll faint at the thing, and... yeah. Sigh.

...I think I'm getting... really... weird.. This isn't good, damnit x.x NO I'M GOING AND YOU CAN'T STOP ME.

Well. Today was interesting.

Geometry: Individual tests! I think I got all of it right. Although the proof was really hard. I think I'll get like... 2 or 3 points off for that. The extra credit was impossible. But otherwise, I think I did all right.

English: Grammar. Watched A Tale of Two Cities. Nice and boring :) No thinking involved.

Global: Powerpoint. At the end, I began to feel a little sick, but I figured it was nothing, and I was just hungry or something.

Snack: Felt worse. Having bad cramps, and then I still felt like I was going to throw up, and I felt disoriented. Like... I was in my own bubble. I briefly thought about going to the nurse, but I figured it'd go away soon enough.

Science: Felt more sick, still having cramps, more disoriented, eyes kept unfocusing, and I was relaly clammy. I felt myself getting really hot, and then all of a sudden I was really really cold. I thought about asking the teacher if I could go to the nurse once she had put the video on, but she was talking about stuff beforehand. I couldn't handle it anymore, and I raised my hand when she asked a question and I asked if I could go to the nurse. Thankfully, I looked sick enough that she let me go. Several people commented that I looked really pale. Oh, I was also shaking at that point. Not majorly, but my hands and stuff were. A few people told me to get better. I don't remember who they were. I couldn't really tell. I think Michele did, but it could've been someone else. Rosa did too. Other people might've said stuff too. I don't know. Galaxy kind of... got mad and was all "What about the skit?!" for French. I wanted to yell at her and ask her if she wanted me to faint/throw up in the middle of the skit, but I didn't have the energy and I just said "I'm sorry, I really don't feel well". I think I said that. I was seriously out of it, I had no idea what was going on, really.

Nurse's Office: I went to the main office first, and ran into Mrs. Bentley. She could tell I was sick, cuz she asked if I was immediately. She then told me where the Health Offices were and she asked if my clarinet would be fixed soon and I said it already was and I had it. Yeah, so then I went to the health office, and I tried to call my mom but the line was busy because she was online. So I laid down on one of those little beds for about... 5 minutes. I felt a little better, but still shaky. I almost fell down. Not... from tripping, just from standing. That was before I laid down though. I tried my mom again consistently until she finally answered. Then the health office person told ehr to pick me up so she came really quickly (I love living 5 minutes from school). I was feeling better, but still not good enough to stay in school, so I went home.

Home: I slept for an hour. Made me feel better. I'm still a little light-headed, but I am sometimes after resting for awhile. I'll probably rest for like... a little while longer and then I'll be fine later. That way I can go to that battle of the bands thing tonight. My mom doesn't really want me to go, but she said that if I still feel fine later, I can go, so yay :)

So yeah. My day. And dude, Galaxy, I'm sorry I missed French and couldn't be in the skit with you. But... I couldn't stay in school a second longer. I was about to pass out, or barf, or something. I didn't really want to wait around and find out.

Gah I have a headache x.x *kills it*

English: Blah. Well it wasn't that blah, I suppose. It was all right. We took a quiz on book 2 that I didn't study for. Yet somehow, I managed to get a 95. How crazy. And... what else? Uh... hm. Not much I suppose. It was rather boring. We spend like... 45 minutes on grammar every single day O.o Grammar's supposed to be our warm-up.. not our... entire class. Whatever.

Office Hours: Amusing. I followed Tiffany, Tina, and Michelle (Lee) to the V's and then we saw Pearl, Lillian, and Adriana and Tina went to go do some project and then we all went to Jarett. Tiffany and I basically talked about slashy moments on the DVD between Pierre/Dahvid and about Pierre/Dahvid slash in general :) How amusing. I think it's really funny that in seventh grade when they acted kinda gayish, I was all "NOOOO THEYR'E NOT GAY YOU LIE SHUDDAP!!!" Not cuz I was homophobic or wished I was with them, just cuz... well, because I was an idiot! =) And now it's like... we search frantically for any moment that can be remotely made Pierre/Dahvid. And trust me, we can do it to almost everything. Heh, I like how on the Pierre/Dahvid community livejournal place, there's this picture of Pierre and Dahvid at the VMAs and Dahvid's just like... standing behind Pierre and looking off to the side, and people are all "Oh, look how they're trying to hide their love by not looking at each other!" It's so amusing. But anyways.

Science: I. Hate. Science. GAAAAAAAAAAH. =) That's all. PRANAV'S HEAD IS TOO LARGE DAMNIT I CAN'T SEE THE FUCKING BOARD X.X I wonder if our teacher would mind me cutting it off. After all, it's in the interest of learning! I can't take notes if I can't see the board, and I'll never be able to see the board if Pranav's abnormally large head is in the way! Really, it's just to better my education!

French: Gah. We had CPR projects due. We were supposed to have up to 30 points today. I did stuff that would've added up to 45, if I did it all perfectly (the extra 15 would carry over to next semester, so I'd only h ave to do 15 points next semester). I forgot to do my reflection, though, so I did a half-assed job at a mini-reflection, but she wanted way more than I did. And she told me that when you do a short biography on someone's work (French actor), you have to include a picture "or something". DO YOU KNOW WHAT THE FUCKING SHEET OF THINGS SAID?! HUH?1 NEXT TO "Research a French actor and write a short biography on his/her work"?! DID IT SAY "Include a picture or something or you won't get full credit"?! NO IT DID NOT! GAH SHE EXPECTS US TO DO WORK THAT SHE DOESN'T EVEN TELL US TO DO A;JA;WIEUR;ILAU At least the stuff I did meant I didn't have to present it. Still, out of 45 possible points, I got 35. Sigh. Still, that means I have to do 5 less points next semester, which is good. I'd rather do 15 less, though.

Sectional: Blah, I had the crappy school clarinet. So, I didn't play very well. That's ok, though. Rosa bitched a lot about getting put on third part. I don't see why she is, though. I mean, big whoop, Rosa. The only reason she moved you there was because our fucking third clarinets can't play anything. Sigh. But I got my clarinet back aftershcool and IT'S ALL FIXED! IT PLAYS AND EVERYTHING! WHEEEEE! It's awesome :)

Um, yeah. My day.

Hm. Haven't blogged recently. Haven't really been in the mood. SP DVD CAME! So much Pierre/Davidness. The DVD's fucking awesome :)

...I really don't have anything else to say, but I felt like blogging. How odd. I really need to do my French project. It's due tomorrow and I've done nothing for it yet. I'm not even sure exactly what I'm going to do. Damn. x.x

Um... yeah. I think my mom might be considering getting me a new clarinet! Wheee that'd be awesome :)

I need to start getting people's presents all wrapped and done and stuff. Oh, and I need to make everyones' cards. I'll do that sometime this weekend.

Spectrum was aaaaaaaaaawesome!!! I didn't get any CD's (they didn't have anything that I came to get) and I didn't buy any pants/shirts like I wanted, but I got 3 magazines! One of which has pictures of Adam Brody and Rachel Bilson! The other... AP! WITH GC ON THE COVER!! YESSSSS!!! AND IT HAS FULL-LENGTH PAGE ON SP! AND OTHER BANDS WITH CDS COMING OUT NEXT YEAR! INCLUDING GREEN DAY! *massive cheering*

Oh my god. It was so funny. There was a clown at the spectrum. Tiffany had to race past it 3 times. Then we sat down waiting for Tina and the guy she was with and we saw Sarah and Amber.

Me: Hey, you want to help us get Tiffany near the clown?
Sarah: ...there's a clown?
Me: Yep, he's over there.
Sarah: O_O [grabs on to nearest pole and clutches it]

Sooo funny. Um, what else? Ionno. It was awesome, though. I had lots of fun :)

Blah. Every day is just feeling blah. At the beginning, very beginning, of this school year, I liked school. In general, I'm a nerd: I love learning. So it was exciting. Plus, I got to see all my friends. By October, I was sick of the work and a lot of the classes, but... I got to see my friends every day. They always made things better. It always just felt... good around them. I looked forward to school for that reason alone. But these days... I'm at the point (I get like this every year) that I just need a break. I appreciate my friends, really, but right now... they're not enough. They make me feel temporarily better, but... most of the time I'm just so sick of everything and the monotony of it all. I got like this last year, I remember it really well. It got so bad, I got so sick of it that I ended up faking sick and skipping like... 2-3 days of school. Well no, I was sickish. I remember running a lot in PE and then afterwards feeling like barfing and feeling kinda... hot and stuff and calling home after PE. I skipped the enxt day and the day after that my mom made me go but I felt like crap after 2nd and she came to get me. I think what convinced her to come was that I was semi-crying. But I don't think I was sick, I think it was something psychological. I didn't want to go to school so much that I made myself get sick and weak. Once winter break comes, I'm fine again until spring break. I'll be fine for a month or two and then I'll need to take a break again. Well after spring break it doesn't get any better. Actually, it still sucks from spring break on, but at least summer is close. Sigh. I need a break from school. It's just so draining.

Geometry: Got quizzes back, 15/18. One of the better scores. But I made such fucking stupid mistakes. The first mistake was 1 point off, because the answer was 65pi and I knew that but forgot to include the pi. The second I don't even know how I fucked it up. I did it on my calculator, for the love of Oz [Hee, remember that Annie?]. Sigh. At least the proof was fine. But still. Blah. Geometry is so boring. It's one of my easier classes so I don't mind it much, but it's still just so boring.

English: Watched more of a Tale of Two Cities. Nice that I didn't ahve to do any actual work.

Global: Blah. I don't want to write an essay on the French Revolution x.x Sigh. And we have to do all our freaking body paragraphs this weekend x.x Sigh. It's all right though. I think he's probably my favorite teacher of all... maybe I like my French teacher a little more. Ionno. But he's a good teacher. He's kinda funny and nice and all, but he's not one of those annoying pushover teachers who doesn't do anything and lets everyone do whatever they want. He actually teaches and all.

Science: God, I hate science. I really really do. BLAH. PRANAV'S HEAD IS TOO BIG x.x Seriously, it's abnormally large. And it's kind of like an upside down triangle O_o I HATE HIM x.x Such an annoying ass.

Band: Hm. Rather uneventful. It was amusing though:
BD [band director]: 6th period's really jealous of your music. They don't like their music.
[everyone laughs/cheers]
Someone: What are they playing?
BD: In the Bleak--
Gavin: Yeah, that does sound really stup-- [about to say stupid]
BD: Gavin!
Andrew Ge: Stupendous!
Heh that amused me. She got mad at Gavin though. I don't think he really... thinks at all. Ionno. He's annoying, but not near the Pranav-annoyingness.

French: Blah. I HATE THE PEOPLE I HATE THEM SO FUCKING MUCH A;LWEIJR;ALIWUER;UL IDIOTS. Aida seemed kinda... down at the beginning of class and she talks loudly and I heard her talking to her friends and I missed the first part but I heard "I slapped my mom and then she started crying and so my sister reported me to the police and I don't know what is going to happen." See, I'd feel sorry for her, but she fucking slapped her mom. I don't care what the circumstances are, you just do not do that. I did it once just jokingly and she knew I was joking and she grabbed my hand and said in a really mad voice "Don't you ever do that again, do you hear me?!" I was freaked out cuz I was joking and... she was so mad. I don't know the circumstances, but really. Maybe if her mom was abusive but... I doubt that. Damnit, I hate her. God, she's an idiot. She was fine later in class though. Then at the end the bell hadn't rung and we were supposed to be doing work and bunch of people put on their backpacks and went to look out the window. Some even left class. Then Stephanie knocked down this thingie that was hanging in the room that's metal and it was loud and the teacher kidna yelled at them and then Grace was going back to her seat and she was like "God, what an asshole. I mean, really, does she think that we're not gonna leave? Does she think that we're really gonna listen to her?" Um, yes, she does think you're not going to leaven before the freaking bell even RANG. And yes, I'd say she does think you're going to listen to her. You wanna know why? Because she is the fucking teacher, and you are the fucking student. You are 16. She is older. She is the adult. She is the teacher. She controls the class, not you, so shut the fuck up. You deserve it every fucking time she yells at you.

GOD I HATE THEM. All the sophomores are assholes/idiots in my class. Well not all, but most.

...another day that didn't seem so bad when I went through it but now, in reflection, it seems worse.

English: Blah. Boresome. We were in groups and had to like... present an assigned chapter. Jonathan and Rebecca worked on Latin, Sam Han just kinda stood there, confused, and Seher kind of worked on it with me. However, she had no idea what was going on, what the chapter was about, or anything at all. And it took me 10 tries to explain it, and she still didn't get it. Sigh. She's really nice and all, don't get me wrong, but she can be a bit aggravating. Plus, she talks so quietly I have no idea what she's saying. So we basically had nothing planned. When we went up Jonathan and Rebecca were suddenly part of our group again. Luckily, Jonathan at least knew that Mme. Defarge knitted in the chapter so he told me he'd do that, even though that's what I was planning on doing. Then I just whispered to Rebecca, Sam, and Seher to pretend like they were discussing something and I'd just summarize the chapter. I was a bit unsure of it, but I did all right, I guess. I'm not good in front of people. Gah, but then they all didn't even try to pretend like they were discussing something. They stood there, and whoever should've had their back to me actually turned around to look at me. Blah. That was such a failure. x.x

Office Hours: Followed Justin and Jackie around. Looked for Tiffany, who was watching Danton, but didn't find her. Mostly because we looked in the V-#'s and she was in the 500's. Hung around the band room. Put Justin's hair in pigtails again. Amusing. Rather boring but fine. Oh and at the beginning we went to see our grades in science. I have a 91.0! [proud] That's actually up from my quarter grade! Whatever that was.

Science: Eck. I. Hate. Science. l;aiwjerj But anyways. My new row is good because they do all the work in labs and don't care if I just sit there and do nothing. It's nice. Not much to say about that, really.

French: A bit boring. I really just hate the people in my class. There's this one girl, Jennifer, a sophomore, who sits in front of Mike and next to Galaxy, so diagonally from me. She's kinda nerdy, I guess. She's Asian, boycut hair, glasses, but she's all right. She's really smart. She can be annoying because she'll be reading a book or reading ahead in the French book during lessons, but most of the time I don't mind her. It was really awful today because these sophomores, Aida and Grace (whom I hate so much, they're just so... AGH) were talking about someone really loudly and like... criticizing whoever it was a lot and saying how geeky she was and they had like... JUST been making fun of Jennifer, so Jennifer thought it was about her and turned around and was all "Are you talking about me?" And they were all [blank looks] "No." Kinda implying "Why would we bother wasting time talking about you?" So Jennifer was just all "Good." But for some reason, this made them flip out. They were all "WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY?!?!?!?!" She was all "...nothing." And then they just completely started attacking her. Not literally, of course, but they were freaking rude and insulted her a lot. I remember Galaxy saying pretty loudly "Hey, just leave her alone, she didn't do anything to you," which made me really... ionno... respect/like her a lot but they didn't hear her, I don't think. Finally they gave up, but Jennifer kinda just continued looking back there. Finally, Grace was like "Um, hello, stop looking at me!" Yuko, who sits in front of Grace, behind Mike was all "Hey, just look at me, ok?" to kinda... get them to not go back into the verbal war again. But then Grace and Aida kept insulting her again. Jennifer's very intelligent and kinda... ionno... condescending sometimes, thinks she's better than them (which she is) and was insulting them back, and Stephanie kind of yelled "DUDE JUST CHILL OUT" to her which was really annoying, because she was not the person who needed to chill out, and... yeah. Basically, they just insulted her a lot for no reason. Then the bell rang. They're such asses, though. Jennifer can be annoying, yeah, but she didn't do anything to them. Gah, I really hate them.

Sectional: Clarinet fucked up, stopped working. It's done it before. It usually starts working again quickly. However, band director heard that it was fucked up so she told me to look for things wrong with it and stop playing. So I sat there for 30 minutes doing nothing. It's prolly fine now though. Whatever. I WANT A NEW CLARINET, DAMNIT x.x

Um, yeah, that's it. Kinda crappy day, I guess, looking back on it. Oh well.

Geometry: Booring :) I hate 1 1/2 hours of geometry. An hour I can handle, but it's just so boring, and it's clear he has no idea what he's doing. We took a quiz. Ionno how well I did. Blah. The proof was odd.

Office Hours: Heh, Tiffany's teacher forgot to get the Danton movie so she didn't watch it during office hours. I followed Tiffany and Michel(l?)e Lee around. Blah. You want to know why I don't want to go into the Latin room? Because everytime I've been there, there have been 2 people in there who I used to be friends with who have been completely asses to me in the past and dropped me rudely and that I hate. I am very uncomfortable being around them. That is why I don't like going there. Plus, it's pretty crowded usually. Ok? Ok. So don't ask me to go there or why I don't want to, because that is why. We sat around in the 200's and kinda talked about like... college and SAT's and such. Ionno why.

Global: O_O Global is the most messed up class I have. I laugh so much. At the very beginning, Galaxy was talking to Eleasa and she said Mike Nichols, this guy in band, and Jonathan, who sits in front of her, turned around and was all "I don't want to hear about your nipples!" And Galaxy was all "o.o Mike Nichols. It's a name." Heh that was so funny. Gah George is so stupid. "But people like parties!" "Buying a few dresses couldn't put you into debt..." "Why didn't they just revolt?!" Uh, hello? It's called the French REVOLUTION. THEY DID REVOLT. He keeps trying to argue and debate the past. Dude, it's history. It's not up for interpretation. What happened happened.

Lunch: Heeeee! Justin in pigtails! Damn, I should've had a camera.

Band: I feel so bad for Galaxy. We had chair tests today. Jannet challenged her. They played pretty equal, no mistakes, but Jannet was kind of airy. Galaxy just sounded better. However, Jannet used a load of vibrato, while Galaxy used a more balanced vibrato which sounded better. She gave it to Jannet for using more vibrato. She told Galaxy in sectional to use less vibrato because she sounded like a goat. She didn't give it to Galaxy now because she didn't use enough vibrato. Damn her. Seriously, that's fucked up. Galaxy just sounded better than Jannet! Jannet sounded really airy! Besides, she should have just gone on to like chromatic or something, like she did with me and Andrew. God. Galaxy should have won, but now she's third chair. I feel so bad for her. She was kinda crying after class. Teary-eyed and all. I'd prolly be like that too if Meng ever beat me.

Now to my challenge. I went against Andrew. We had to go to tiebreaker, the full range chromatic. I started shaking, seriously shaking, when I got to the top and I couldn't finger right and I messed up. Andrew didn't, so he's still first. Blah. It's not even fair, she didn't tell us that would be a tiebreaker. I would've practiced more if I knew. I can play it really quickly really well. But... I didn't practice it last night and I haven't practiced it in awhile and I was really lightheaded and shaking. I get that way when playing all alone. It really sucks. But anyways. Besides, Andrew's part is so much easier. Not fair. x.x

Gah. So today was... blah. I'm really sick of school. When's winter break?

Hm. Ok I feel like doing this thingy every school day going through each period telling what happened :) I usually do that when school first starts but then I stop. I did that when I first got this blog too but I stopped. First, however, I must rant. :)

So, we've been kinda changing seats in house classes. I sit diagonally in front of Pranav in English. In global, we've been moved so I sit diagonally behind Pranav. We finally changed seats in science. Want to know where I sit?

DIAGONALLY BEHIND PRANAV. AO;U;WIUER;U PLOTTING I HATE THIS GAH AND WE HAVE THESE SEATS UNTIL THE END OF THE SEMESTER, AT LEAST! ;AUWE;RLIU;A I HATE HIM SO MUCH I'VE NEVER HATED ANYONE IN ANY OF MY CLASSES AS MUCH AS I HATE HIM HE'S JUST SO A;LU;LIWUERLIAUW AGHHHHH. And the changing of seats in Science was so stupid! She was all "If you sit in the front 2 rows, you must sit in the back 2 rows now, and if you sit on the left, you must sit on the right now. Oh, and it must be boy, girl, boy, girl." WHAT THE HELL?1 THAT MEANS WE SIT WITH THE EXACT 8 PEOPLE AS BEFORE AND ;LIUA;WLIEUR IT SUCKS!!! Well at least I sit in such a way that if we work on labs with the tables, I'll never have to work with him. Unless things get all.. messed up. God. I would have strangled him or snapped his neck (a la Angelus) by now if I wasn't so disgusted by touching his neck x.x Blah, he repulses me. I really hate him. Such an egotistic, idiotic, pretentious ASSHOLE. And he eats in EVERY FUCKING CLASS! ;LUAWIEUR;AIWUER FUCKING PIG. x.x I HATE HIM. AND THE SCIENCE TEACHER DOESN'T CARE BECAUSE HE ALWAYS ANSWERS HER QUESTIONS RIGHT, HE'S HER FUCKING PET AW;IEUR;LIU AGH I HATE HIM!

Ok, so on to my day :)

Geometry: Blah. I felt really bad because he came around to check our constructions packets and mine wasn't done because I don't have a fucking compass. But then I felt better because I got 30/30 on my homework packet, and I was missing stuff in it :) All you have to do to get A+'s on hw packets in there is to make it look neat and organized. There could be like... 2 assignments out of 20 in there and he'd give it an A+ if it was organized. He's very odd.

English: Not so blah. I only understand a Tale of Two Cities when we read it aloud in class because it forces me to read slowly and grasp everything. We have to understand everything Ch. 6-10 book 2 by tomorrow because she'll pull sticks randomly and ask questions and stuff. Damn her x.x But we got our revised Antigone essays back. I got a 99. Wheeee. :)

Global: Fucking new seats x.x;;; At least I sit next to Galaxy, that's nice. Still. BLAH. Um... we didn't really do much, did we? I remember class going by really quickly.

Science: L;IUAWLEIUR;AWIEURAUWIER :) Changed seats! How fun! You know what I noticed? Pranav has an unusually large head. It blocks what she writes on the board. I sit in the very last row. Sigh. Jackie's kinda near, which is good, and I sit next to Rosa, Ryan, and Shawn (that how you spell it? There are different spellings) which isn't bad. Better than sitting next to Pranav. Gah. Still. Seriously, he has an abnormally large head.

Band: Hm. I think I might play the oboe solo (rewritten for clarinet) in the concert in addition to the normal clarinet solo. Band director said that Galaxy should like not play in the winter concert because she's very out of tune and needs more practice.

French: I FUCKING HATE HTE PEOPLE IN MY FRENCH CLASS GOOD LORD X.X GOD THEY'RE SO STUPID. There's this one girl, Grace, and my French teacher always gets mad at her because she never pays attention, she talks really really loudly, and she never does her work. But then after like... 30 minutes of her not paying attention, talking loudly in the middle of when we're doing work, and not doing anything, the teacher told her to stop and go back to her seat, since she wasn't even sitting in her seat, and get to work, and she was all "Like OMG she never yells at anyone else! It's always me! She hates me!" Um, you ever consider WHY you're the only she always yells [snort, she doesn't even yell!] at? Maybe there's, I don't know, A GOOD REASON?!

Gah. But anyways :) My day. Um,. yay, Tiffany's back! It was odd without her in school.

Gah ok I need to read and understand Ch 6-10 and I need to finish my Danton paper thing. ;auw;eiru; stupid school x.x