Wheee Tiffany's back! Yay!

Hm, I'm bored. I should be doing my project for French that's due on the 11th x.x Gah that's ok though. I think I should also be reading a Tale of Two Cities. Whatever. x.x I do not want to ever write an essay on a Tale of Two Cities. Gah.

I did absolutely nothing today. I'm proud.

Hm. Ok, spectrum next weekend because I want to buy the newest AP because GC's on the cover and because there are bands I want to see if their CD's are out and I still want to buy some new shirts/pants. So, yes.

...this is very pointless. I really have nothing to say. Bah.

Hm. I'm feeling like taking some surveys. Ionno why. I just do.

This is the Friday Five, even though... it's Sunday.
1. Do you like to shop? Why or why not?
Um, it depends. I like shopping for CD's and stuff at Hot Topic and magazines. Other than that, no.
2. What was the last thing you purchased?
Hm. I think it was the Sugarcult CD and the Three Days Grace CD.
3. Do you prefer shopping online or at an actual store? Why?
Well online is nice because you don't have to move or get up if you don't feel like it, you can just sit at home. But when I got shopping at stores, it's with my friends, so... I'd say at the actual store.
4. Did you get an allowance as a child? How much was it?
No. I tried to convince my mom to give me an allowance back when I was like... 7 because all my other friends got allowances. I got 50 cents a week. Four weeks and $2 later, I completely forgot about the allowance. So... no.
5. What was the last thing you regret purchasing?
Hm. Uh... ionno. I don't remember. Maybe one of the magazines I have that I still haven't put up pictures from.

Everyone go read Sluggy. Best webcomics ever. Best comics ever, even. I'm just plugging this now because I'm trying to catch up and I decided just to start from the beginning again. I just finished the Fire and Rain chapter and damn is that fucking great. Really great storyline, awesome art. Gah. That's always been my favorite chapter. Sigh. Gave me the chills. Really sad. Sigh. But go read sluggy because it's freaking awesome.

Ok, adding stuff about the concert:

Before or during The Day That I Died, Benji was all "Everyone thinks this is a sad song, but it's a happy song" and they went on to say basically what Tiffany and I have have always said about the song. And then Joel was all "You know, I don't care if I die tonight because this has been such a fucking awesome show" and I laughed cuz... that's what I do. :)

At this one point with the guys in thongs, one stuck like... some sort of rectangular food (like a twinkie or something) up the other's ass and ate from the side sticking out and the guy who had it in his ass took it out and bit off from the side that had been in his ass. Then he threw it in the pit, like 1 person in front of me. It was really funny and really gross.

You know what I found out? I'm 1/4 Canadian! Cuz my dad's mom is 1/2 canadian and his dad's dad is 1/2 canadian, so he's 1/2 canadian, which makes me 1/4 canadian. How awesome. :)

Wheeeeeeeee concert was awesome! :D:D:D I wasn't expecting that much from it but it was awesome. I don't know if it was the best or not as good as the other 3 I've been to since they're all different and awesome in their own ways. I can honestly say, though, it is one of the 4 best concerts I've been too ;)

Tiffany called right before I left to go to the concert. *waves* Tiffany needs to call me again so I can tell her all about the concert. Anyways.

So we got there at about... 5:00. The gates open at 6:00, so we had some time. We stood in line for awhile, Annie made some "friends" behind us. Well, it wasn't Annie, it was really Camille, but whatever. Then we found out that we had to go to another line to get wristbands so we could be in the mosh pit so we went over there and came back to our spot because hte people behind us saved our spots. Gah but I hated them! When we were in line, I heard them talking and they were all "Oh, you know, Benji has like, lost a lot of weight recently!" "OMG yeah, I noticed! He's definitely thinner!" "But Joel's gained some weight." "Yeah, he's definitely gained." It's all... wtf, WHO FUCKING CARES HOW MUCH WEIGHT THEY LOST OR GAINED?! HOW WOULD YOU LIKE PEOPLE WATCHING YOU TRYING TO FIGURE OUT HOW MUCH WEIGHT YOU'VE LOST/GAINED? God stupid freaking people. Anyways.

Um so the line started moving at about 6:05. We got in there really really quickly, by like... 6:20 I'd say. Waaaay faster than the line for Civic Tour. And we were pretty much in the same part of line. So we got in, got to the mosh pitt, and then Annie had to go pee so we went to the bathroom upstairs even though there was one downstairs we didn't see and then went back to the floor. We waited for about an hour before finally Eve 6 came on.

The only songs I recognized from them were "Here's To The Night" [I think that's the title, maybe Here's to tonight?] and "Inside Out". They were pretty good. Not as good as Goldfinger and GC, but still pretty good. I got... close-ish during that. I was on the right side and probably about half way to the center. I wasn't that far back, about as far back as I was during Warped, maybe a little closer. The people in front of me were fucking assholes though. When they started playing HTTN, they flipped them off through the entire song and through Inside Out. They also yelled that they sucked. That's seriously just fucking rude and uncalled for. You came only for Goldfinger/GC? THEN DON'T BE IN THE FUCKING PIT WHILE EVE 6 IS ON. YOU DON'T HAVE TO BE LISTENING TO THIS. If you wanted to be in the pitt now to make sure you could be in the front during Goldfinger/GC? THEN DON'T COMPLAIN. IT'S YOUR FUCKING CHOICE THAT YOU'RE IN THE PIT LISTENING TO THIS, YOU DON'T HAVE TO BE, SO STOP BEING SO FUCKING DISRESPECTFUL AND SHUT THE FUCK UP! ASSHOLES.

After that Goldfinger came on. They were definitely better than Eve 6. They played really well and were very entertaining. Unfortunately I don't know any of their songs, but it was still good. I need to check them out :) Not much mroe to say about them since I don't know anything. I got closer to the center durign this time though.

Finally it was GC. Ok before anything, the songs they played. They played a fucking ton of songs. 19 songs. I've never seen them play so many songs live. They played every single song off TYATH, 4 off of GC, and a new one that might be on their next CD. So, that means: A New Beginning, The Anthem, Festival Song, Wondering, Riot Girl, Girls and Boys, song that might be on their 3rd CD, Bloody Valentine, Hold On, I Heard You, SoCal [Waldorf] Worldwide, Moving On, Emotionless [acoustic, whee!!!], Say Anything, Story of My Old Man, The Day that I Died, Little Things, The Young and The Hopeless, Lifestyles. Wow, that's a lot of songs. That's basically the order. I'm not very sure about the exact placing of Girls and Boys, I heard You, SoCal Worldwide, or Story of My Old Man, but that's the gist of it. I think it's pretty accurate. They played for like... an 1 1/2+ straight. Awesome. When they played Moving On, they were all "Oh, this is gonna be our last song" but then they were all "Well, since is the last show of the tour and the last tour before we start recording our new album (oh did I not mention that? Yes we were the lucky place to be the last show on the tour! Whee! :)) we'll play 2 or 3 more songs, some acoustic." So they played Emotionless acoustic which was freaking awesome and the best part of the show since I love that song and have never seen/heard it live, and after that they played Say Anthing and I thought they'd stop there, but they kept on playing. They went on to play about... 7 songs after they said they'd stop playing. Freaking awesome, man :)

On to the pit. I got kicked in the nose twice by crowd surfers. The entire time I was in the pit, there were always girls surrounding me screaming louder than anyone else there and shouting "I LOVE YOU JOEL!!!!!" "I LOVE YOU BENJI!!!" "BENJI IS SO SEXY!!!!" And some had a sign that was all "I love you Benji" or something but they were behind me so I didn't kill them. God it was annoying. I fell down! Onto the floor, completely, and there were three people on top of me and my shoe came off. All the others were helped up and this girl kept trying to make me come up but I wa sall frantic "MY SHOE MY SHOE!" and finally I picked it up and stood up and then put my shoe on and she was all "Oh, that's why she wouldn't come up". But yeah. It was actually kind of fun. Everyone around me was all "Are you ok are you ok!?!??" 'cause... I had like 3 people on top of me. One of them was like a grown man. But I was all good. I have a lot of bruises. It gets really hard to breathe in there. But that's ok! It was fun anyways.

OH!!! During the Goldfinger set, John Feldman (lead singer, guitarist? or does he play bass? ionno) was all "I'm proud to be an American!!!" And I so knew what he was gonna say afterwards, and he did: "But I'm not proud to have that fucking asshole as president!!!" or something. And everyone screamed. He was then all "If you're over 18, vote that fucking asshole OUT OF OFFICE!" and everyone screamed again. I was cracking up. He was then all "Ok, we're gonna play an anti-war song now" which went "I don't know why, the innocent die" which I liked but I think I've heard before. And then during part of it, Joel came on the stage and sang. It was awesome. Oh, and Chris watched the entire Eve 6 and Goldfinger sets.

Dude, I think that Joel like goes online and sees all the things about his crotch-grabbing, because during one song he like stood on those high thingies and like bent back so his waist was sticking out and then he like... grabbed it! Purposely! It was so funny. It was kind of jokingly, but it was awesome. I laughed so much.

What else, what else?! I'm trying to think. After they played their new song Benji was all "I don't like that song... but I do like this song!" and then they played Bloody Valentine. Ionno. I found that amusing.

People from Goldfinger came on during the GC set in thongs and.. thrusted and then they put silly string all over GC. It was funny.

Joel's mohawk/faux-hawk got limp! His sweat made it go flat but then sometime during the set he fixed it somehow because by the end, it was sticking up again. It made me laugh too.

You know what sucks? My mom forgot to buy me a disposable camera for the show. And the thing is, they ALLOWED cameras in there! Oh well. Sorry Tiffany, I know I said I'd have pictures, but I don't.

I'll edit if I think of anything else, but that's the gist of it. The best part was definitely Emotionless acoustic. All the songs after that were really awesome too because people had calmed down more so I stopped getting elbowed in the side.

I don't like Thanksgiving. I don't like my family very much. Sigh. My aunt's friend/roommate/boyfriend/whatever he is is really annoying. He acts like everything he says is right and nobody else's opinions count. Plus, he laughs really weirdly. Not in a good way. Gah.

After they went away, my dad and I went to this person's house to feed their dog because they were out of town. The dog was cool. It was watching TV when we got there. :) Anyways.

CONCERT TODAY! I need to call Annie. Hm. I should find out her phone number...

Survey from Jackie :)

1.)what did your clever parents name you? Michelle
2.)if you had any say whatsoever in what you would be named, what would you have named yourself? Uh... ionno... I like my name...
3.)-for meat eaters-when at bbq's, what do you prefer on your hot dog? Ketchup. But I don't really like hotdogs.
4.)what is your overall opinion of veggie burgers? Ew, veggie burgers! [I channeled Summer there :)]
5.)how do you like to dance at dance clubs or school dances? I bounce up and down with my friends to good songs :) Which are few and far between.
6.)is the purpose of going to a dance to sit down the entire time talking to your friends OR searching around for a cute dance partner and having a damn good time? The first one, but it also includes jumping up as soon as there's a good song and running away when there's a bad song.
7.)where do you see yourself in 10 years? Uh... I'll be 24, yes? Hopefully... somewhere nice with a good job.
8.)what kind of relationship are you looking for or currently in? ...there are different types of relationships? Huh? I don't really get this... and I'm not really looking for a relationship anyways.
9.)are you really really really sexy? I'm Annie's sexy lovebeast. ;)
10.) and is sugar ray only really sexy? ...No. Just no.
11.) let's say that two days from now the world were to end...what would you spend your last hours doing? I'd go to a GC concert [wheee today today!] and tomorrow I'd try to hang out with as many friends as possible.
12.)if you could change a character flaw, which would you change and why? Uh... ionno. I'd change my lack to decide anything.
13.)how do you consider your place within society? I... don't consider it...
TYPE THE FIRST THING THAT COMES TO YOUR MIND WHEN YOU SEE THESE WORDS:
14.)trance: sounds like band
15.)yellow: jackie's blog
16.)paneling: ...panels?
17.)pebble: rocks
18.)portal: latest episode of Charmed
19.)crochet: cricket
20.)cocoa: yum
YOUR NICHE/KARASS:
21.)"best friend" has become a superficial term over the years, so how would you describe your closest friends and how much they mean to you? My closest friends make me feel really lukcy to know them. They make me laugh and feel good. They're just... awesome. They mean everything.
22.)what annoys you about people in general? teenies, racists, egotistic assholes that sit next to me in science [Oh hey Jackie, I forgot to tell you; Pranav quit band. Again.], airheads, ignorant people, etc.
23.)are you sterotyped? ...no? I'm just... a person.
24.)what do you enjoy doing best with friends on a friday night? Friday night? No. Who goes out on a Friday night? Friday nights are for fanfic writing and graphics-making! Saturday afternoons, however, are good. Um, we usually go to spectrum. It's fun.
25.) do you prefer short talk or deep conversations? don't care
26.)who can you spill your feelings to and feel completely relieved afterwards? I don't spill my feelings O_o Um... ionno... I guess to my blog sometimes and other times... to my birds :)
27.)how would you describe yourself in relation to others? Uh... I'm here... and they're there.
28.)do you like double dares and flash light tag? ...no.
29.)if your friends were transformed into animals, what would they be? describe each of your closest friends in terms of animals.
Hm... this is very hard...
Tiffany: Monkey
Jackie: Duck! Heh I just said that cuz I remembered the flapping during cranium :)
Annie: Platypus, cuz platypus's are awesome.
That's hard... I'm too lazy to think of any else.
30.)what's a quote that means a lot to you or represents you or your outlook on life? ...no thanks.

People are idiots.

I was searching for some SP slash fanfics on google and I came up with this messageboard that was all "SP or GC" and then there was this one person who was saying how they were so not punk and that this was coming from a "real punk-rocker" [snort, yeah, sure] and like, hello and duh, tell me something I don't know. SIMPLE PLAN IS NOT PUNK. GOOD CHARLOTTE IS NOT PUNK. GC AND SP FANS (well those with brains) KNOW THIS. YOU DON'T NEED TO TELL US THAT. IT'S OK.

Anyways. That wasn't what pissed me off. She was all "Oh, and I've read all these articles and songs by them and so I have stuff to back me up they're assholes and idiots" and such and then said the following:

"What makes you different from other "Punk" bands?"
"Ehehe we don't have a number in our name hahahahaha"
Ya THAT sure is punk

What the hell? Ok, the question wasn't what made them different from other punk bands, it was "What makes you different from bands like Blink-182, Sum 41 [and I think GC might've also been in there]?" And so that's when they said, semi-joking, although it's true, "We don't have a number in our name." They also said that they have 5 members while those all have 3 or 4 (well GC now has returned to 5, but I believe this interview was before that, and I'm not even sure if GC was included in the question, but I presume they were.) And what the hell does being punk have to do with that? They asked a question, SP gave a response. It's true. They don't have a number in their name. Why the hell does that have to be punk? Does everything they say have to be punk? THEY'RE NOT PUNK. GAH.

Sorry. That just reeeeally pissed me off because this girl is an idiot and is twisting the facts to make them fit what she thinks. When I quote, at least I get the quotes right. Such as Hilary Duff, who said on something like Access Hollywood "I hope people are inspired by my clothing." Now that's a real quote. Don't twist quotes to fit your beliefs. Gah. Idiot.

They're REALLY cocky and write pointless lyrics, or should I say the MUSIC industry writes their crappy lyrics. I don't respect them I don't like them, and they are definatley not punk.

WHY THE HELL DO YOU HAVE TO SAY EVERY 5 SECONDS THAT THEY'RE NOT PUNK?! LIKE, REALLY, I HADN'T NOTICED! GAH! IDIOTS! How the hell are they cocky?! By thanking their fans and parents and everything every chance they get? God. And JL;AIUERT;IAU;ILWUERI THEY WRITE THEIR LYRICS NOT THE MUSIC INDUSTRY YOU FUCKING IDIOT MY FUCKING GOD THEY RIGHT THEIR OWN LYRICS AND IF YOU KNEW ANYTHING ABOUT THEM, AS YOU CLAIM, YOU'D KNOW THAT YOU FUCKING AO;IWEURLIUA SERIOUSLY. AND POINTLESS LYRICS? SO... SONGS ABOUT HOLDING ON IF YOU FEEL LIKE COMMITTING SUICIDE BECAUSE LIFE WILL GET BETTER ARE POINTLESS? REALLY? THOSE PEOPLE SHOULD ALL JUST DIE?! IDIOT.

I decided to See Simple Plan at the Warped Tour this year since noone good was playing during thier time and Rancid was playing right after them so I had to get good view of Rancid.

What I saw noone should ever see, they cussed constantly trying to look punk, not to mention did a cover of "American Jesus". Which I am sure Bad Religion took as an insult. And I saw PARENTS IN THE CROWD. :D lmao, Yes I said Parents accompaning thier little teenage daughters. But it was worth getting a good View of Rancid.

They didn't cuss constantly, idiot. O_o They cussed several times, but how the hell is that any different from most of the other bands there? It's not like they were the only ones, and they weren't doing it to look punk, they were doing it just because that's how they talk. If I cuss when I'm talking with my friends, it's not to be "punk", it's because... well usually when I'm angry, 'cuz otherwise I don't really cuss. Out loud. Gah. They always do a cover of American Jesus. They've been doing it for years. How would Bad Religion take that as an INSULT? Because a band likes their music a lot? And plugs them everytime they do the song? Everytime they play they say "Hey, if you haven't heard Bad Religion you definitely should, this band changed my life in high school". I'm sorry, I didn't know that was INSULTING. God. And WHAT THE HELL SO WHAT IF THERE ARE PARENTS IN THE CROWD?!?!?! THERE ARE PARENTS AT BUNCHES OF SHOWS. THOSE SAME PARENTS WERE STILL THERE FOR RANCID. HOW DOES THAT MAKE SIMPLE PLAN LESS CREDIBLE?! GOD! THEY CAN'T CONTROL WHO LIKES THEM! AND WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH TEENAGE GIRLS LIKING THEM?! MANY ARE TEENIES, BUT NOT ALL OF THEM ARE MINDLESS IDIOTS WHO ONLY LIKE THEM FOR THEIR LOOKS. SOME ACTUALLY [GASP] LIKE THEIR MUSIC AND HAVE A BRAIN! WOW! IMAGINE THAT!

Ok, I'm done. Gah. I hate people who... well are basically mindless idiots. God.

Hold On again on KROQ. =D

This afternoon was fun. Lulu came over to "stalk" me and we hung out for like... a little while and then we walked down to the elementary school and swung on the swings and I threw the tetherball around a lot. It was fun. We talked a lot about like elementary and middle school, old teachers, old stuff, etc. Ionno. It was fun. :)

Um, hm. What else? Ionno. Today felt really short and really long all at once. Ionno. Odd.

I HATE THIS STUPID COLD.

Concert Friday concert Friday!!!

I have the urge to write. Hm.

YSE! THEY'RE FINALLY PLAYING HOLD ON ON KROQ WHEEEE! :)

Concert Friday!

Um, I have more to say, but not know cuz I don't feel like it :) But I did want to say that.

It's Tiffany again! Sorry I wasn't on, I was watching a movie on TV. Wheee come on at a time that I'm actually on! But yay for your computer-having ness. I have a lot of stuff to tell you when you get back, dude. I just said dude. Differently than normal. Huh.

Anyways. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH ok last time GC was on loveline Adam and Dr. Drew were all "oh come back anytime" and then they took it literally and came back the next day and then like... last week when they announced GC would be on loveline adam said all jokingly "don't tell them they can come back anytime or else they'll be back the next day." Guess what? They're gonna be on loveline again tmorrow night. Hahahahhahaha they're awesome, man :)

Whee mininum day tomorrow shit I need to tell my mom that. We get out at 11:57! :)

Uh, nothing else, I think. That's all I had to say.

IT'S TIFFANY LOOK LOOK LOOK!!! I think you need to call me again cuz there's a lot of stuff I have to tell you..

Hee we're watching the slashiest movie EVER in global. Ok, so it's in French but there's subtitles and a bunch of global classes at once watch it in the theater. SLASHY. At the very very beginning there was a naked guy. I wrote about that part before. But then also there were these two older guys and then one put his head down like... bloe whte other guy's stomach and then... it panned up and you couldn't see what was going on down there but you could guess heh. And today there was a lot of hugging and... touching going on. And a guy's butt. :) And there was a topless girl int he background. Too much nudity, man.

Um, anyways. HA GC ON LOVELINE LAST NIGHT WAS SO FUNNY WHEEEEEE I wrote down some stuff i wanted to tell Tiffany about it later. It was so amusing wheeee and concert this Friday! Wheeee!

I pre-ordered the SP DVD yesterday night! Wheee so ionno when it'll come, but prolly next week and Tiffany will be back then so yay! =)

What else?: I need to go spectrum desperately. I really want this CD, and I want new shirts, and I want new pants. I just hope I have enough money to get everything I want.

Hm. Ionno. I should do some homework, I think. That'd be good.

No wait, there was something I really wanted to say that I forgot damnit x.x Lemme think... I think it had something to do with being annoyed about something. Not a surprise. Whatever. If I remember later I'll blog abou tit.

Wheee this has to be short but GC is on loveline tonight but they came earliesh so they're on KROQ now yay!

It sucks so much Tiffany has to miss this =(

I need to copmlain about something really quickly that happened last week that I forgot to mention.

Last week I was listening to my headphones at lunch, which I've been doing recently (although not today) and then Clare came over and she asked what it was. I told her it was Three Days Grace and she wasa ll "Ah, good." And I was all "..ok" and she was all "None of that crappy Good Charlotte music. [smile]"

DUDE WHAT THE HELL?! I HATE ALL THESE PEOPLE THAT COME UP TO ME AND TELL ME GOOD CHARLOTTE SUCKS. DO YOU THINK THAT'S GOING TO CHANGE MY MINDABOTU THEM IN ANY WAY? IT DOESN'T. IT JUST CHANGES MY MIND ABOUT THE PEOPLE WHO TELL ME THAT. I FUCKING HATE ALL THESE PEOPLE THAT FEEL THE NEED, WHEN THEY SEE THAT I LIKE GOOD CHARLOTTE, TO TELL ME HOW MUCH GC SUCKS.

And no, I'm not being hypocritical here (at least I don't think I am). You know, I remember a little while back when Tiffany and I were talking to Amber and she mentioned she loved GC and was talking about how hot Benji and Joel are. We didn't automatically say that she sucked or was an idiot or a teenie, even though we might be thinking that. We exchanged a glance but kept our mouhts shut. I usually do that. Unless they're absolutely flaunting it around, saying how someone like Hilary Duff is the best musician in the world and what a positive message she is, then I don't go up to them and start talking about how much the musicians they like suck. I wasn't flaunting my liking of GC. I was just sitting there, listening to a CD that wasn't GC. I had my GC sweatshirt, but it was around my waist and I was wearing an Evanescence shirt. It really hurt that Clare would say that becuase I didn't thinks he would ever be like that. I know that Tiffany and Annie (well ok, but they like GC) would never say that. Jackie would never say that, I think. I mean, she used to say that SP and GC sucked but... I think that was mostly because Tiffany and Annie would scream it at the top of their lungs very off-key. It'd be hard to like the bands at all after that. She doesn't do it anymore. It just really sucks. I don't care if you fucking tell me that they suck. They don't suck. You can tell me that you hate the band, I'm fine with that, even though that still annoys me because, hello, didn't ask you and I don't fucking care. But hey, you're entitled to your opinion. But don't tell me they jsut flat-out suck. Even if that's just an opinion (which it is, and also is mine when I think that they don't suck), that makes it sound like it's a fact, and I hate that. God, I got really pissed off at Clare when she said that. I dind't really know what to say to her so I was just like [fake small smile] and went back to my music. Agh, but it pissed me off so much.

Ok. So now I have to do ch 3-6 of book one and ch 1-16 of book 2 and their quotes of a tale of 2 cities and a newspaper front and back of my outside reading book which I barely understand and geometry and study for my unit test in science. All tomorrow. Damnit x.x

There were too many naked French movies today. In global we're watching this movie in French (it has subtitles) and there was this kid about 7 or 8 in the beginning and he was naked. Fully. STanding up. You could see everything. And then in French we watched this move, andthere was this girl who decided to dance around, fully naked. Again, you could see everything. And the worse part was that she wasn't a kid, she was 18. Gah. Too much nakedness. And the global movie was very slashy. This one dude put his head below the stomach of the other dude and then the camera panned up and you couldn't see what was happening but... it seemed as if he was... doing stuff to the guy down there. Very slashy. Too bad Tiffany missed it.

Ok, so anyways. Homework now. Bah.

I think I'm going to end up failing English at the end of the semester. i don't fucking understand A Tale of Two Cities. I don't care if it's a classic. I don't want to read a book that takes a week to read [that might not seem like long, but most books take me a day to read. I read the entire Harry Potter books 1-5 in two days. A week is a long time, especially for a 367 page book for me] a book just because it takes forever to freaking figure out what they're saying. I just odn't understand it. I don't think I should be in honors English. Gah. I'm going to fail the quiz tomorrow, unless the questions are like "Who wrote the book?" and "Complete the quote: 'it was the ___ of times, it was the ___ of times'". Jackie says I'm expecting too much if I expect that. Sigh. I hate this fucking book.

You know what really sucks? In english the seats are moved so the 2 rows I'm in are now facing the front, so instead of sitting in front of Pranav, I now have to fucking sit NEXT to him. I ALREADY HAVE TO SUFFER THROUGH SCIENCE WITH HIM. AND YOU KNOW WHAT ON OFFICE HOURS DAYS THIS WILL BE LIKE?! 1 1/2 HOURS OF SITTING NEXT TO PRANAV IN ENGLISH. THEN OFFICE HOURS, SNACK, AND 1 1/2 HOURS OF SITTING NEXT TO PRANAV IN SCIENCE. I DO NOT WANT TO FUCKING SIT NEXT TO PRANAV AGAIN. I MIGHT ACTUALLY ENJOY SCIENCE A BIT MORE IF I DIDN'T HAVE TO SIT NEXT TO HIM. WHEN THE HELL ARE WE CHANGING SEATS?!?!?! GOD I HATE THIS I HATE HIM SO MUCH HE'S SUCH AN ASSHOLE. Did I ever blog about the conversation we had the Friday after Disneyland? I don't think i ever did. If I did, then sorry, but this can be repeated anyways. Ok, this is our conversation:
Pranav: [asks question about something on a worksheet we're supposed to be doing]
Me: [shrug, partially because I'm not sure and partially because I don't want to help him because it was just 3 days ago that he made us wait a fucking hour on the bus at Disneyland until 9 PM when some people still had homework and such o do]
Him: Well sorry. [said rudely]
Me: [snort] You should be.
Him: What'd you say?
Me: [snort]
Him: [sarcastically] No, I heard that part.
Me: Like you're one to talk about being rude. [He didn't hear that part because I muttered it. Then, I added,] By the way, have I thanked you yet for making us wait a fucking hour at Disneyland?
Him: No problem, anytime.
[Here I kind of forget what I said, but I think I said something like asshole and he didn't hear or... ionno I said something and then he said...]
Him: Hey, if you ever need to get laid, just let me know.

OK WHAT THE HELL?!?!?! THAT WAS COMPLETELY AND TOTALLY OUT OF THE BLUE!!! I HATE HIM I WANT HIM DEAD I SERIOUSLY WANT TO PUNCH HIM EVERY SINGLE DAY I HATE HIM HE RUINS SCIENCE FOR ME AND HE'S GOING TO RUIN ENGLISH I HATE HIM GOD THIS HAD NOTHING TO DO WITH ANYTHING WE WERE TALKING ABOUT AT ALL AND I WANT TO SERIOUSLY HURT HIM BECAUSE THIS JUST PROVES THAT HE IS A FREAKING EGOTISTIC, SOMEWHAT SEXIST ASSHOLE ;GAIUWLEIRULIUAWER.

So of course, I had to reply,
Me: Well if you ever need me to kick your ass, just let me know.
Heh. Tiffany said she can't picture me saying that.
Him: Yeah right.
I could take him. He's weak. I'm strongerish.

I remember vagueling blogging about this, but I checked the archives quickly and I didn't see anything about it. So, I think that I blogged but blogger was evil and deleted that. That, or I'm a retard and I blogged abou tit and you're hearing about it for the second time. So sorry if that's the case.

SO anyways. I HATE HIM. DIE.

:) Annie is going to the GC concert with me, btw. That should be awesome.

Hm, what else? I'm gonna fail English. We have a unit test in science. I'll probably fail that too. Wheee, how fun. Sigh.

I can't wait til this weekend. Concert and 4 days off from school. In fact, I can't wait til winter break. Sigh.

I need to pre=order the SP DVD soon. It comes out Tuesday.

Heh Tiffany called about an hour ago from Taiwan. She said she was bored. It's Sunday morning there. It was amusing cuz when my mom told me that the phone was for me, for some reason I briefly wondered if it was Tiffany and then... it was. She said she liked Yellowcard a lot. Yaaaay. Yellowcard's awesome, people :)

Hm. I started singing "Outsider" (Green Day) really randomly, and then it turned into "Inside Out" (Eve 6).

I love this layout. Gah. So very very blue.

Wheee I told you I'd have a new layout! I really love this one, I think it's one of my best. Except the colors are a bit off. Ionno. I don't really like the tag-board colors or the link colors. Or the text. I hate that cyan color. But the graphics, I love. I saved the Hold On blend before making it a layout, so I'm gonna put that up on my fanart site when I update. I'm planning on making a bunch of The O.C. blends soon, so I'll put it up when I add those. I also have a few awards to add. Wheeeeee I love making graphics :D Tell me what you think of the layout in my tag.

NO TIFFANY CAN'T GO TO THE CONCERT DAMNIT GAH NO I HATE TIFFANY'S GRANDMA SHE CHOSE A VERY BAD TIME TO DIE X.X

Ok, I'm sorry. That's kinda... insanely rude. But... seriously... I feel like crap right now... I'm getting sick or a cold or something and... everything feels bad and I was really looking forward the concert, it's nex week! And I doubt Annie will go, and I haven't even figured out who to give the extra ticket! Damnit! ;alwieur;ia I hate Tiffany's grandmother right now even though... it's not really like she wanted to die. I doubt Annie can go, because when I asked she seemed very... much like she wouldn't be able to go. I haven't even figured out who to give the 4th ticket to. Damnit. x.x I aksed Tina and Lulu, but Lulu can never go anywhere, and I doubt Tina can go. I don't even think Tina likes them very much. Damnit. Annie you better be able to go, I'm begging you. Of course, I bet the way my luck's going, the game will be next Friday and we'll have to go. DAMNIT THIS ISN'T FAIR. x.x This was supposed to be a good concert, you know? During break! No school! No outside interferences! Marching band was supposed ot be over! Before today, Tiffany was pretty sure she could go, yes? GAH. Well I feel worse for Tiffany than I do for myself. I mean, at least I can still go... I'm pretty sure. Provided I don't have a football game that day. And even if I do, I'm getting the feeling that my mom might let me say that we were going on vacation or I was sick or something. She keeps saying whenever I bring it up "They can't expect you to go to a football game in the middle of Thanksgiving break! They cannot make you go!" and stuff. I hate this, it's not fair x.x

Um, other than that. Oh, some more bad news. I'm 2nd chair. Andrew beat me. Of course, he's bass clarinet, so it doesn't really change anything, other than when she says "1st chairs only", I won't be playing. Damn him x.x I was getting really dizzy and lightheaded when I was playing, too. When I was playing the scale, I messed up the last 2 notes repeatedly and then told her I felt lightheaded and dizzy and she said she'd come back to me and I kind of fell back into the chair. I was like, gripping onto it for support. Gah. I'm second chair. I don't like being second chair. I want to be first. Damn Andrew.

I have to memorize a skit for French. I have to catch up on A Tale of 2 Cities. I'm either supposed to have read up to chapter 6 of Book 1 or up to chapter 4 of book 2. I can't figure out her stupid calendar. I think 1-4. She hinted that we'd be having pop quiz thingies on the days we were supposed to read chapters, but last week she said "Oh don't worry this week about it... you have time to catch up on it, you probably won't be tested til next week. Again, she said this last week. Damnit. I should read it. It's just so boring and hard to understand. I know that it's a classic and all, but it's not very interesting when I don't even understand what they're saying. I read to chapter 4 on Tuesday in class, but I was skimming and didn't understand a word I read. I have no idea what happened in it. I'll have to reread, gah.

The only good things about tonight is Simple Plan is on Hard Rock Live and The O.C. is new episode tonight.

GC was at #2. They're plotting against Tiffany, you know. Sigh.

You know, I didn't care on Friday when people had their homecoming mums/flowers and had them in 6th period showing people. Afterall, they got them that day, there was no one else to put them, and they'd want to show them off. However, I find it incredibly stupid and annoying for the people to bring them to school on Monday. I meant to say this MOnday, but forgot. Stephanie's in my French class and on Monday she had both Homecoming thingies she got Friday in class. And it wasn't that they were delivered late to her or something, she had them Friday too. And she was showing them off. Idiot.

Anyways. This sucks. =) All I can say is that Annie better be able to go.

Stealing Jackie's survey :)

name: Michelle
nicknames: Michi
age: 14
bday: 1/14/03
nationality: American
height currently: Uh... my mom says 5'4" I think she lies. But yes.
hair color: Blonde-ish blue-ish.
eye color: blue
family: Une mere et un pere. Blah, no accent keys. But yes.
location: somewhere in southern CA.
college: I want to go to Stanford. Don't ask me why. I'm not sure.
piercings: One in each ear. Want more in upper ear. Want lip piercing.
close friends: Many. This is a good thing.

red or blue? blue
spring or fall? Spring, because fall is when school starts, and spring is when spring break and the end of school is nearing are.
santa or rudolph? Rudolph
math or english? math, because I'm actually good at it. English, I just get lucky.
what are you going to do after you finish this survey? Practice clarinet until I nearly break it out of frustration and possibly write more of my fic.
what was the last food you ate? Uh... pasta for dinner.
high school or college? High school, because all my friends are there, because I havne't been to college yet, and because I'd imagine that college is more work. Plus, it brings me nearer to the real world, and I'd prefer to stay in my bubble.
last movie you saw? Scary Movie 3
last noise you heard? "Cute Without the E" by Taking Back Sunday. It's on the radio now, yay.
last time you went out of the state? Las Vegas, Nevada, Marching band whee!
things you like in a girl/guy? [shrug] There's a lot. I'm too lazy to list.
favorite board game? I love watching people play Cranium. Especially when it involves flapping.
favorite magazine? A.P. I'd say.
worst feeling in the world? loss
what is the first thing you think when you wake up in the morning? No, damnit, I just went to sleep you're lying no gr not again stupid freaking school gah go away no you lie let me sleeeeep.
future daughter's name: Willow, Holly, Paige, Elizabeth, Emily [shrug]
future son's name? Um... I have no idea. I like the name Joel... and Pierre. HAHAHAH PIERRE-D OMG ANNIE REMEMBER THAT?! You msut name your son Pierred if you ahve a son :)
chocolate or vanilla? chocolate!
do you sleep with a stuffed animal? No
if you could have any job you wanted, what would it be? Hm. Lawyer, psychologist/psychiatrist, or... ionno. Something relating to math.
what's under your bed? Another bed!
favorite sport to watch? gymnastics, swimming, diving, soccer, basketball
describe yourself? My nose is cold...

LAST...
song that was stuck in your head: Hmmm. I had... what the hell was it? Gah, it was something by this End Up stuck in my head 5 seconds ago. And I had "I Hate Everything About You" by Three Days Grace stuck in my head all day.
person you've called: ...wow. Hm. I don't think I've called someone since... ever. Well maybe when I was younger but seriously... I have no idea. I... really don't know. Wow.
person that called you: I think Jackie called me randomly this weekend. I didn't pick up. Um.. other than that... I DON'T KNOW PEOPLE DON'T CALL ME.
person you were thinking of: Uh... I was thinking about Jackie 2 seconds ago.. because... I just answered the question above... and... she was the answer so... mind->Jackie.

DO...
you have a bf or gf: nope
you wish you could live somewhere else: I love CA. Maybe San Francisco. Or France.
you believe in online dating: ...how the hell can I not BELIEVE in it? It's not something you can prove does not exist... it exists. Do I think it works or it's a good way to meet someone? No. The other person could be anybody and you'd have no idea.
you like cleaning: NO.
you like roller coasters: no.
cursive or print: my cursive looks scary... and I tend to leave out letters and words a lot when writing in cursive. So, printing.

AGAINST OR FOR....
long distance relationships: WHAT THE HELL? Dude ok you can't be like... AGAINST them... what, you wnt to make them illegal or something? Gah. Do I think they'd work or not? WOuld I personally be in them? No and no. Even if the people really cared about each other, there's always doubt. You'd get jealous all the time and needy and clingy and blah, it just wouldn't work. Unless you trusted the person completely and could wait, they don't work out.
using someone: What the hell?!?!?! Oh yes, I am so for using people! I just love when people use me! GAH WHAT'S WITH THESE STUPID QUESTIONS?!

FAVORITE...
food: I don't care about food!
candy: Eh. Crunch bars? Kit-Kat?
drink: PEPSI
song: Christmas By the Phone [GC], I Hate Everything About You [Three Days Grace]
color: Black
subject: math, french, and band
things to talk about: Ionno. I like talking about music, if you hadn't noticed.
movies: Uh... Fly Away Home. Shut up. Oh, and the Lion King is a very good movie. We watched it in Vegas, I forgot that it was that good.
holiday: Uh... I'm not very... celebratingful.
month: Hm. January.
season: Anything but fall.
cologne: Is there like, any good smelling cologne? Because I have never smelt a cologne that didn't make me want to puke.
perfume: It makes things smell worse.
city: San Francisco? Ionno. I like lotsa cities.
animal: Uh... ionno. STOP WITH THE QUESTIONS.
book: Harry Potter [SHUT. UP. x.x I've reawakened the obsession. Not obsession, just... I like them a lot. Go away.] Hithhiker's Guide to the Galaxy, Passage, Doomsday.

WHAT...
shampoo do you use: Like I remember.
cologne do you use: ...I don't use cologne...
shoes do you wear: sketchers i think

LAST PERSON WHO..
you shared a drink with: Ionno. Probably Tiffany, because I know that I end up giving it to her a lot at the end of lunch.
you went to the movies with: Jackie, Erica, Melody, Cindy, Nathan, and Andrew Ge
you went to the mall with: Jackie, Tiffany, Annie


HAVE YOU EVER..
said "i love you" and meant it? I've never said it... I don't even remember saying it to my parents... I might have when I was a kid. I mean I say it to my friends and mean it. Obviously not like that, but... yeah.
been to new york? Yes
been to florida? No.
california? Hm, I wonder. Damn, I can't remember. Let me think... I ONLY FREAKING LIVE HERE. :)
hawaii? Yes
mexico? Tiajuana count? If so, yes.
korea? No.
canada? Damn, I wish.
wish you were the opposite sex? yep, but only when I get my period :) Othertimes being a girl is better.
had an imaginary friend? ...not seriously. Except Bob. I love Bob. :)

STUFF
have you ever loved someone you had no chance with: I haven't been in love yet...
do you have a "type" of person you always go after: I don't go after people...
want somebody you don't have right now: I dno't want anyone...
are you lonely right now: [pout] I HAVE FRIENDS SHUT UP!
ever afraid you'll never get married: ...not really.
do you want to get married: Yeah
do you want kids: yeah

IN THE LAST 72 HOURS, HAVE YOU:
cried: yes... but it was over something really stupid... [mumbles]imighthavepossiblyhadtearsinmyeyeswhensiriusdiedinthe5thharrypotterbookshutupgoaway.
bought something: yes
gotten sick: i have a sore throat... does that count?
sang: yes
said i love you: yes
wanted to tell someone you loved them, but didn't: ...no...
met someone new: Uh.. [thinks] No.
talked to someone: ...yes
had a serious talk: not that I remember...
missed someone: yeah
hugged someone: yep

I have a very very sore throat. x.x Um yes. GC at #1. Yay them. I have the urge to write right now. I need to practice for my chair test tomorrow. Damnit, I need to be first chair. x.x

Stealing Jackie's survey

name: Michelle
nicknames: Michi
age: 14
bday: 1/14/03
nationality: American
height currently: Uh... my mom says 5'4" I think she lies. But yes.
hair color: Blonde-ish blue-ish.
eye color: blue
family: Une mere et un pere. Blah, no accent keys. But yes.
location: somewhere in southern CA.
college: I want to go to Stanford. Don't ask me why. I'm not sure.
piercings: One in each ear. Want more in upper ear. Want lip piercing.
close friends: Many. This is a good thing.

red or blue? blue
spring or fall? Spring, because fall is when school starts, and spring is when spring break and the end of school is nearing are.
santa or rudolph? Rudolph
math or english? math, because I'm actually good at it. English, I just get lucky.
what are you going to do after you finish this survey? Practice clarinet until I nearly break it out of frustration and possibly write more of my fic.
what was the last food you ate? Uh... pasta for dinner.
high school or college? High school, because all my friends are there, because I havne't been to college yet, and because I'd imagine that college is more work. Plus, it brings me nearer to the real world, and I'd prefer to stay in my bubble.
last movie you saw? Scary Movie 3
last noise you heard? "Cute Without the E" by Taking Back Sunday. It's on the radio now, yay.
last time you went out of the state? Las Vegas, Nevada, Marching band whee!
things you like in a girl/guy? [shrug] There's a lot. I'm too lazy to list.
favorite board game? I love watching people play Cranium. Especially when it involves flapping.
favorite magazine? A.P. I'd say.
worst feeling in the world? loss
what is the first thing you think when you wake up in the morning? No, damnit, I just went to sleep you're lying no gr not again stupid freaking school gah go away no you lie let me sleeeeep.
future daughter's name: Willow, Holly, Paige, Elizabeth, Emily [shrug]
future son's name? Um... I have no idea. I like the name Joel... and Pierre. HAHAHAH PIERRE-D OMG ANNIE REMEMBER THAT?! You msut name your son Pierred if you ahve a son :)
chocolate or vanilla? chocolate!
do you sleep with a stuffed animal? No
if you could have any job you wanted, what would it be? Hm. Lawyer, psychologist/psychiatrist, or... ionno. Something relating to math.
what's under your bed? Another bed!
favorite sport to watch? gymnastics, swimming, diving, soccer, basketball
describe yourself? My nose is cold...

LAST...
song that was stuck in your head: Hmmm. I had... what the hell was it? Gah, it was something by this End Up stuck in my head 5 seconds ago. And I had "I Hate Everything About You" by Three Days Grace stuck in my head all day.
person you've called: ...wow. Hm. I don't think I've called someone since... ever. Well maybe when I was younger but seriously... I have no idea. I... really don't know. Wow.
person that called you: I think Jackie called me randomly this weekend. I didn't pick up. Um.. other than that... I DON'T KNOW PEOPLE DON'T CALL ME.
person you were thinking of: Uh... I was thinking about Jackie 2 seconds ago.. because... I just answered the question above... and... she was the answer so... mind->Jackie.

DO...
you have a bf or gf: nope
you wish you could live somewhere else: I love CA. Maybe San Francisco. Or France.
you believe in online dating: ...how the hell can I not BELIEVE in it? It's not something you can prove does not exist... it exists. Do I think it works or it's a good way to meet someone? No. The other person could be anybody and you'd have no idea.
you like cleaning: NO.
you like roller coasters: no.
cursive or print: my cursive looks scary... and I tend to leave out letters and words a lot when writing in cursive. So, printing.

AGAINST OR FOR....
long distance relationships: WHAT THE HELL? Dude ok you can't be like... AGAINST them... what, you wnt to make them illegal or something? Gah. Do I think they'd work or not? WOuld I personally be in them? No and no. Even if the people really cared about each other, there's always doubt. You'd get jealous all the time and needy and clingy and blah, it just wouldn't work. Unless you trusted the person completely and could wait, they don't work out.
using someone: What the hell?!?!?! Oh yes, I am so for using people! I just love when people use me! GAH WHAT'S WITH THESE STUPID QUESTIONS?!

FAVORITE...
food: I don't care about food!
candy: Eh. Crunch bars? Kit-Kat?
drink: PEPSI
song: Christmas By the Phone [GC], I Hate Everything About You [Three Days Grace]
color: Black
subject: math, french, and band
things to talk about: Ionno. I like talking about music, if you hadn't noticed.
movies: Uh... Fly Away Home. Shut up. Oh, and the Lion King is a very good movie. We watched it in Vegas, I forgot that it was that good.
holiday: Uh... I'm not very... celebratingful.
month: Hm. January.
season: Anything but fall.
cologne: Is there like, any good smelling cologne? Because I have never smelt a cologne that didn't make me want to puke.
perfume: It makes things smell worse.
city: San Francisco? Ionno. I like lotsa cities.
animal: Uh... ionno. STOP WITH THE QUESTIONS.
book: Harry Potter [SHUT. UP. x.x I've reawakened the obsession. Not obsession, just... I like them a lot. Go away.] Hithhiker's Guide to the Galaxy, Passage, Doomsday.

WHAT...
shampoo do you use: Like I remember.
cologne do you use: ...I don't use cologne...
shoes do you wear: sketchers i think

LAST PERSON WHO..
you shared a drink with: Ionno. Probably Tiffany, because I know that I end up giving it to her a lot at the end of lunch.
you went to the movies with: Jackie, Erica, Melody, Cindy, Nathan, and Andrew Ge
you went to the mall with: Jackie, Tiffany, Annie


HAVE YOU EVER..
said "i love you" and meant it? I've never said it... I don't even remember saying it to my parents... I might have when I was a kid. I mean I say it to my friends and mean it. Obviously not like that, but... yeah.
been to new york? Yes
been to florida? No.
california? Hm, I wonder. Damn, I can't remember. Let me think... I ONLY FREAKING LIVE HERE. :)
hawaii? Yes
mexico? Tiajuana count? If so, yes.
korea? No.
canada? Damn, I wish.
wish you were the opposite sex? yep, but only when I get my period :) Othertimes being a girl is better.
had an imaginary friend? ...not seriously. Except Bob. I love Bob. :)

STUFF
have you ever loved someone you had no chance with: I haven't been in love yet...
do you have a "type" of person you always go after: I don't go after people...
want somebody you don't have right now: I dno't want anyone...
are you lonely right now: [pout] I HAVE FRIENDS SHUT UP!
ever afraid you'll never get married: ...not really.
do you want to get married: Yeah
do you want kids: yeah

IN THE LAST 72 HOURS, HAVE YOU:
cried: yes... but it was over something really stupid... [mumbles]imighthavepossiblyhadtearsinmyeyeswhensiriusdiedinthe5thharrypotterbookshutupgoaway.
bought something: yes
gotten sick: i have a sore throat... does that count?
sang: yes
said i love you: yes
wanted to tell someone you loved them, but didn't: ...no...
met someone new: Uh.. [thinks] No.
talked to someone: ...yes
had a serious talk: not that I remember...
missed someone: yeah
hugged someone: yep

Chair Test Wednesday. Neeed to stay 1st chair. Otherwise, me no play 1st clarinet for Winter Rhapsody. Then it won't matter if Rosa gets that solo or not. I definitely won't have it. Gah. Will practice tonight. And all day tomorrow. THe only homework tomorrow night I'll have is geometry because I did my global earlier today. Lack of homework this week. Not complaining. Just odd.

New layout didn't come this weekend. I finally bought the 5th Harry Potter book. Oh shut up. I wanted to find out how things hapened. Everyone I heard say it sucked, but I liked it. The only thing that sucks is that they killed off Sirius Black. He was my absolute favorite character. I'd rather she kill off anyone else. Sigh. Well I already knew who died because I read someone's blog who read it and they just blurted it out, no spoiler warnings or anything when it hadn't been out long and I remember that kind of annoyed me, but it was good because I was prepared against it. Except everytime he'd be in a part I'd be all "But it's all futile because he's going to diiiieeee." It sucked that for a lot of the book he was very left out and lonely. Sigh. Fictional Character. Shut up, I know this. Anyways, I think it's 3rd best, after the 3rd and 4th books, respectively. I don't think I need to explain why the 3rd is my favorite, given the piece of information above.

My nose is cold. My room is never a good temperature. Sigh.

Um, Charmed yesterday did not suck, for once, so yay for that.

Hold On at #1. Yay. =) Except now it takes the entire show to see it, which sucks. I'd almost rather have it at #10 for that reason alone.

I had other stuff to say. I forget. My nose is still cold. And I'm feeling insanely random right now.

I think people on the MTV boards need to stop being "OMG LYK THE HOLD ON VIDEO IS LYYYK THE BESTESTESTEST VIDEEEO EVERRRRRR OMG IT LYYY, SO SAVED MY LIFE CUZ LIKE THIS GRRL LYYYK SHE DIDNT LYYK MAI SHADE OF NALEPOLISH AND LYK I WUZ ABOUT 2 KILL MYSELF BUT THEN I HERD HOLD ON AND LYK I DIDNT WANT TOKILLLLL MYSELF NEMORE LYK OMG!!!!!!!!!!111111" Gah. Tiffany's right in saying that suicide and depressiveness is kind of becoming a trend. Everyone's all "OH LOOK AT ME I ALMOST WANTED TO KILL MYSELF IN THE 2ND GRADE LOOK HOW SPECIAL I AM LUV ME NOW GIVE ME ATTENTION I'M COOL TOO OMG!" And such. I know a lot of teenagers get depressed, I've been depressed, although not extremely but I definitely was depressed in 5th and 6th grade. I never once wanted to actally kill myself, and I just find it incredibly hard to believe that all these 12 year olds (yes they are all--well not all, but the ones I'm talking about--12, I saw their profiles) wanted to kill themselves. I'd buy some, but not every single freaking person who heard the song wanted to kill themselves but Hold On saved them. I bet it has helped plenty of people. But I doubt everysingle one of them was planning on committing suicide but stopped. Like I said, I used to be way more depressed, but I never once wanted to kill myself. I'd want things to stop, I'd think "God I hate this, there's just too much, I want it all to stop" but by that I meant faking sick a day of school so I could just sleep all day long and forget about school and everyone for a day. I actrually did that a lot in elementary school and a few times at middle school. Not at all this year. I can't afford to miss any school. But point being, NOT ALL OF THESE PEOPLE WERE PLANNING ON KILLING THEMSELVES BUT THEN STOPPED BECAUSE OF THE VIDEO. IF YOU WANTED TO KILL YOURSELF, WHY WERE YOU WATCHING MTV INSTEAD OF JUMPING OFF THE ROOF OR AT LEAST SULKING IN YOUR ROOM? Although, I suppose watching MTV for that long could end up killing you... BESIDES THE POINT. ALL THESE PEOPLE ARE JUST... TRYING TO BE ALL TRENDY. LYK, OMG, I TRIED TO KILL MYSELF, LOOK HOW COOL I AM! Blech. It bugs me. x.x And if you did try to but were stopped, WHY THE HELL ARE YOU BRAGGING IT ON THE MTV BOARDS?! GO GET HELP! I MEAN IT! GO SEE A FUCKING PSYCHIATRIST! GO TO A CLINIC! JUST BECAUSE YOU SAW THE HOLD ON VIDEO AND YOU FELT BETTER FOR A LITTLE WHILE DOESN'T MEAN IT'S GOING TO LAST. I know the video is awesome, and the song might help you hold on a little longer, but I doubt that Benji and Joel's lyrical abilities are enough to make you do a complete 180 and be all "Oh well I wanted to kill myself but now seeing the video, I won't!" Seriously, if someone was like this, they'd still need to get help. They might be temporarily better, but it won't last. Watching a video can't make you suddenly fine again. Depression is a disease. Suicide can be a result from extreme depression. YOU NEED HELP. WATCHING A VIDEO IS NOT THE KIND OF HELP YOU NEED. OK?! OK.

I think my point has been made. I was just thinking that while on the MTV boards and seeing the video. Anyways. =)

My nose is still cold. I'm going to go put on a sweater.

I LOVE JACKIE OMG JACKIE IS THE BEST PERSON EVER WHEEEEEEE

Ok you know how my computer was completely wiped? And I couldn't get PSP in any way? Well she registered the version she dled and they sent her a free upgrade thingy to 8.1 and since she didn't care about it she gave it to me and OMG IT WORKS AND WHEEEEE I LOVE HER I LOVE HER I HAVE MY GRAPHICS PROGRAM BACK I LOVE JACKIE SO MUCH OMG WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

Um, I'm excited, if you couldn't tell.

Eee I love you Jackie. Cuz... I haven't mentioned that yet! New layout for blog possibly tomorrow! Wheeeee! I already know what it'll look like and all.

Did I mention that I love Jackie? And that I'm esctatic? Stupid hw, or else I'd be using it right now.

JACKIE IS AWESOME.

Hee. I feel muchos-ly loved. Both Annie and Jackie are all "Michelle deserves the solo in that concert band piece!" Well, really, in terms of playing, Rosa deserves it. I know that Rosa's a better player than me, so nobody say that I am 'cuz we all know that's not true. Don't woryr, I'm going to do everything I can to change that by practicing 24/7 and getting all goodly and getting into wind ensemble and such next year. But at the moment, she's definitely the better player. However... otherwise... well... It's a concert band piece. She's in wind ensemble. I understand her pulling people from 6th to play parts that aren't emphasized enough because we have so few people. However, in terms of solo, if I can play it well enough (which I can already, it's not very hard or very long) then I think that I definitely deserve it. I'm in concert band, it's a concert band piece, almost everyone else in concert band is going to play the solo's themselves (except I think Paul's not going to play the french horn solo [I believe there's one], I think someone else will) then I deserve to. Maybe Rosa could play it better. Well, she should get her own fucking solo in her own fucking band. Ok? Ok. =)

Hold ON at #7 today. Yay. =) I love that video.

Shit. Study-age. And I think we're going to do badly on our mini-project seeing as everything's unorganized and I'm afraid Connie's gonna copy down the wrong info. Maybe she should've bought the candy and jackie should've done the posterboard... at least I talk to Jackie online and could ask her questions about what she was doing and stuff. Oh well.

Eeeeeeeeeeeee i love the O.C. And I really love the couple Seth/Summer.

I wasn't expecting much for the video for "Hold On" (premiered today) but it's really amazing. Just the whole feel, the quality, the message... almost made me cry watching it. It's just so sad, because it's all these real people who have lost people or tried to kill themselves. And the even sadder part is that this is just a small percentage of the people who have lost someone to suicide. But anyways.

Nothing more to say. Must study for big French test. Must not get another B+. Must manage through an hour and a half of science tomorrow. Gah. *hits stuff*

You know that solo thingy in the thing I was talking about? Well I'm almost positive Rosa's gonna play it, and she's not even freaking in concert band. And we're doign separate music too, it's not like we'll be combined. See, our band director said she might pull a few people from wind ensemble to play parts in our songs because we have such few people. Then today when I was asking her if the second chair clarinet should also get a 1st part she said "No, I'll probably have Rosa play 1st clarinet with you." Now let's think. Who would play a solo on the clarinet: me, or the fabulous Rosa? Gah I hate Rosa now even though it's not her fault. I'm still like 95% sure she'll play it. I really wanted to play it. Gah.

Whatever. The rest of the day was ok.

Disneyland freaking sucked. Ok, we have different call times where we're supposed to meet. Then at the end of the day we were supposed to meet at 8 PM and then go home. Well we were on the buses, waiting to go home, and they realized that Pranav (you know, annoying guy who sits next to me in science) hadn't checked in. Then the band director and all the chaperones had to search around for him throughout Disneyland at night while we sat in the bus for a freaking hour. Finally they found him. God. I don't know what his excuse was, but he wasn't hurt and no rides had stopped. He is such an asshole, and an idiot. He was alone too. You're supposed to be in groups of 3. He wasn't even in a group of 2. Idiot. I doubt there's anybody in band who doesn't want to beat him up right now. Except maybe Alvin and Gavin. But they dont' count. THey're idiots too.

Gah. Lately I've been feeling really... lonely/left out. I don't know. Usually I'm not depressed or anything. I mean I might not be a perky bundle of... perkiness, but I'm usually not depressed or really unhappy. It started last Monday, and ever since then I've felt really out of it and sad. Part of it was probably because Tuesday was just a really horrible day for me and I cried a lot during it. But... it's over. There's no reason for me to sad right now, but I freaking am. And today was a pretty good day! I found out I'm doing well in Geometry (and before the year started, I was really worried about it because of all the math areas, I am worst at geometry), I did waaaay better on my essay than I expected (and I'm sorry if anyone thinks I'm bragging because I'm really really not trying to, I'm just shocked and incredibly happy because I never do that well on essays and I deserve to be happy about it), I just... blah. That's how I feel, so blah. In concert band I found out I might get a solo at the winter concert. Science was supremely better than usual and I actually wasn't bored in it. It was a good good day! But I still feel so crappy.

I miss Annie so much. I doubt I'd be feeling this way if she went to UNI. I never felt unhappy around her. Gah. In my binder if I feel really frustrated or unhappy or whatever, I write like... a phrase repeatedly in one of the days in August. I did I HATE SCIENCE a few weeks ago. Last week I did I MISS ANNIE x.x

I don't want to go to Disneyland tomorrow, I really don't. I'm sick of people. I need a day to myself, where I can just relax and do whatever. And why does it have to be all freaking day? It sucks that we have to go for 12 freaking hours. I hate this. I can't wait til winter break.

And of course now Annie tells me that they're having practice for Rose Parade like every single day during Winter Break and that means that she can't go to Big Bear and learn to snowboard with me and I hate thi it's not fair because we've been planning on doing so since like... what? March? I remember back the first time we went together to ski we said we'd have to go back and snowboard and I said I'd hold her to it, we'd have to go and it was even... more so when I found out she was going to Woodbridge because it'd be like 3-4 full days of Annie-ness and I've been looking forward to it since last spring and now she probably can't because of freaking marching band and it's not fair I hate Woodbridge why can't she just be at UNI gah I hate this Annie come back to UNI, we need you.

I never wrote abotu band spectacular. Everyone else was all pretty happy about it, I think. I don't know. But for me it sucked. I mean, I loved seeing Annie. But then, it was horrible seeing Annie, simply because... I saw her with her Woodbridge friends and... she has a life there. I mean I know she didn't have friends there back the first day of school but she has them now. See, I todl you you'd make friends. And it's not that I'm jealous or unhappy about that, because I want Annie to be happy, but it just makes me sad because when she talks to all these people and says to hi to them it makes me realize that she's not at UNI with us and we can't see her every day. It's not like that when we go to the spectrum with her, it's just like.. a bubble for me. School and everything else doesn't matter. I didn't get before why everyone would always be like... hugging her the second they saw her when at spectrum and stuff becuase... I was in that bubble and during that time I didn't miss her because she was right there and I can't explain myself right now but I have to get this all out and I don't know how to say it but... it was different then but when I saw her at band spectacular she had all these friends and it just made it real. She's not at UNI. She's at Woodbridge. I don't see her everyday. I don't even see her every week. It was horrible seeing her at band spectacular just because it made me miss her so much more than I was missing her before.

Good job, Michelle! You just succeeded in making yourself feel even more depressed than before.

Vegas was all right. Some parts were really good, but most of the time I just felt left out, lonely, and completely invisible. There were some points where I could have sworn nobody could see me. Whatever. I can't handle being around that many teenagers for that much time.

Ok, so we got our Antigone essays back today. I was freaking out because before she passed them out she was saying "Oh I know a lot of you won't like your grades, there were very very few A's, etc." and since on the first draft of the last one everyone got A's and I got a low B, I was all "shit... I got an F, didn't I?" So she passed them all out and I saw my grade and... it was a 98. Out of 100. Eeeeeeeeeeee!!! And I can't write essays! I suck at them! Obviously I'm doing something right now. Wheee and essays are 50% of our grade! So basically an A on the last one (the revised draft I got an A) and a 98 are half my grade in English. ok, so maybe I won't fail English. This semester.

In science we got these personality profiles from this test we took a few weeks ago. It was really accurate for me. I'm so almost an NT. One point away. My mom said that she's an NF, like me, and my dad's an NT, so that makes sense. I also foudn that I'm incredibly introverted, but I already knew that. I'll post the stuff later. Basically it says I'm really aware of peoples' feelings around me and I can tell when people are unhappy, which I already noticed awhile back.

Um, what else? In band we started a piece for the winter concert. We're having separate bands, so our concert band is tiiiny. I'm the only one who plays first clarinet. And if I stay clarinet, I think I'm gonna have a solo. Well a solo in the clarinets, people in other sections play softly and stuff, but not the melody. I think like every single section has a solo. It's nice. I need to stay first chair, though, so that means I have to do well on the chair test next Wednesday. Blah, it's G concert (hee when I first wrote that it said GC concert which is this month, yay!, btw) and the scale patterns and thirds and... well pretty much everything except the scale itself is really hard on clarinet because you have to switch registers a lot and grrrrrr. I'm going to practice all the G concert stuff like... an hour every day until next Wednesday. I'm not letting go of my chair, damnit!

Wow, last week of marching band. I'ts so weird how things have turned out. I mean, after 6th grade I was pretty much planning on never playing clarinet for any band ever again. But then I wanted to join back in 8th grade because all my friends were. So I continued, but planned on quitting after 8th grade. Then I found out that marching band counts for PE credit, so I figured "Whatever, I'll just do it through high school for the PE credit". And through band camp and the first few weeks of marching band, that's basically what it was. PE credit. But now... I really like marching band. Not so much the marching, but even then I'm actually a lot better than I was at the beginning. Marching the show isn't as big of a deal now. I never thought I'd be able to march and play an entire show memorized but... well, here I am, able to. Well I can't play the entire show, but that's besides the point. The point is, I didn't expect to actually like marching band or really want to pursue clarinet. I always just played not because I really loved clarinet, but just because of friends or school or whatever. Now I really love it and I practice it almost everyday. It's kind of sad that marching band's ending, because I'll pretty much never see the seniors again. I don't usually see them during school, and those that are in wind ensemble... well I'm not in wind ensemble, so I won't be seeing them. I'm not really friends with any seniors, but... it's still sad. I like the group of people and many I won't be seeing pretty much at all after this week. I don't really like practicing our show or performing it but I'll really miss all the people and the atmosphere of it. So, yeah. My feelings on that.

Uh, what else? Ionno. I'm getting a 96.8 in Geometry, yay me. I don't want to know what I'm getting in science. I'm afraid to find out. Sigh.

Disneyland tomorrow. Ugh. I really don't want to go. i don't even really like Disneyland. Plus, we'll be walking and standing in line for 7 hours, and then we have to march. A lot. Marching just straight forward without any stops or changes hurts after awhile. Gah. And then after that several more hours of walking and standing in line. Blah.

I need PSP. I should download the trial sometime soon.

GC concert Nov. 28th. Tiffany you have to goooo. And you too Annie! I'm forcing you! =)

Jackie's... thing.

1. What do you hate being called? uh... ionno...
2. What ARE you called? Michelle. I think.
3. Do you like what you are called? I suppose
4. Did you answer yes for all three questions above this one? ...I hate being called yes, I am called yes? That... makes sense. Except in the sense that it doesn't.
5. Don't you just love my quiz making skills? ...no. =)
6. Ok, this is for real! ...yeah... sure....
7. When you are bored, do you find something to do or im people saying "im bored" until they get rid of you? Uh... sometime's I'll say I'm bored to someone... but usually I find fanfics and stuff.
8. Do you have all your body parts? No, I sold them on ebay.
9. Do you LIKE them? My body parts? I don't... not like them...
10. Are you going to Vegas? Yep!
11. Did you have anything surgically removed from your feet? and if you did, what did you remove? How about no?
12. Finish the phrase: Three _____ mice bald
13. HOw old do YOU think mr. Alms is? 189237981740
14. Would Mr. Alms throw a heavy object at you for your previous answer? Mr. Alms doesn't know me. But he probably would.
Enough about you, now about me!
1. What's MY NAME? (..if you don't know this..i have no idea why you are here): JACKIE!
2. What have i been obsessed about lately? (better be CAREFUL HOW YOU ANSWER!): Uh... Travis Fimmel?
3. For what have I've been saving up my money? CD's, yes?
4. Do i dress fobby? nope
5. How relatively short/long is my hair? More short than long... kinda like... shoulderish length?
6. For how long do i usually stay online? A very very long time.

Wow. Well today just got a little better. Keep in mind, it still sucked majorly, but I'm not feeling as depressed as I was.

You see, on GCOnline, the owner of it said that she was going to great this GCOnline blog for dicussing various GC topics. She would accept about 15-20 people and then those people would post regularly about Good Charlotte. Well, on a whim, I decided to try. I mean, what does it hurt? If I don't make it in, then I don't, right?

Yeah, well she e-mailed those chosen. I made it in.

Wheeeeeee this is going to be so cool =) Except that she sent us log-in and registration details and I already feel stupid because I registered but it won't let me log in and I feel like I did something wrong and I had to e-mail her asking her to help me and blah. It's not a big deal, I just feel stupid.

My ears are hot.

You know how yesterday pretty much sucked? Well today was like... 1000 times worse. I think this goes down as one of the worst days I've had in a loooong time x.x

Ok, so it's 6:50 AM, I'm about to walk to Lulu's house, and my mom asks "Hey, where's your clarinet?" I race around the house, trying to find it, before realizing that I left it at school. Outside.

Yes, you see, when I waited to see if Jackie would come tell me we weren't marching today so I wouldn't have to go to the office, I set the clarinet down. Then Tiffany came over, I talked to her, and then she started walking off in the direction she'd go to walk home. Well, I decided that hte office was on the way and Jackie wasn't going to come, so I sped off after her. Without my clarinet.

So then I walked to Lulu's house. The fear and worry just built up and my eyes got a little teary when I walked down. That sounds stupid, but I had no idea what had happened to it, if it was even there at all, if somebody had broken it, or what. I calmed myself down by the time I got to Lulu's, but still. When I got to the 300 buildings, where I left it, I looked around but couldn't find it anywhere. Jackie began to say something about not seeing Everwood, and I interrupted her to tell her about my clarinet, which was when my eyes got really teary and my voice got really wobbly. Bascially, I was on the verge of breaking down and full out crying. A few minutes later, Soan came over and asked me "Hey, did you happen to leave your clarinet here yesterday afternoon?" My eyes went O_______O and I said "Do you wknow what happened to it?!" She said that she and Emma found it and put it in the band room. I was so grateful for them right then. Gah, a huge burden had been lifted. So I went through first period happily.

It was during second period that I thanked Emma since I hadn't seen her earlier. Eric sits next to me in English and he asked "Wait... that was your clarinet?" And I said "...yes..." [suspicious look] He said that he found it after school and some other football players thought it'd be fun to play with it. Or something. He said, apparantely, they thought it was Gavin's. Gavin's instrument. You know what Gavin plays? A BARITONE!!! YOU KNOW WHAT I PLAY? A CLARINET! DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH THOSE TWO LOOK ALIKE? NOT AT ALL!!!! AW;ERLIUAWE;RLIUAW;ELIU STUPID DUMBASS ASSHOLE FUCKING FOOTBALL PLAYERS! AL;IWEURLAIWEUR; He said something like "If something... happened to it... it's [insert random name here that I didn't hear]'s fault." So, of course, I panicked. "WHAT HAPPENED TO IT?!?!?!?!" "Um... I'll tell you... when you don't need to use it anymore..." "I'LL NEED TO USE IT FOR AT LEAST ANOHTER YEAR IF NOT MORE, TELL ME WHAT HAPPENED TO IT!"

But no. Eric was an asshole and decided I was better off knowing. I was so imagining the worst here. I could picture my poor clarinet in broken pieces, laying there, dead. I kept almost crying in English but managed not to. On the way to Global, I told Jackie about it and that was when I did start tearing up. And all through Global. The entire time I was fighting back tears. Asshole football players. And that includes Eric in there. I also told Galaxy and she immediately demanded for Eric to tell me what happened to it. He still wouldn't. Finally, sometime through Global, he told Emma, and I heard Emma tell Galaxy that one of the football players thought it'd be funny if they licked my clarinet. WHAT THE HELL!?!??! WHAT KIND OF PERSON LOOKS AT AN INSTRUMENT AND DECIDES TO LICK IT?!?!?!!? I was a bit relieved, because if that was all, I could just wash it a bit. Besides, my spit is like, everywhere on that clarinet. Plus, the clarinet is on the ground every single day during stretches. So hey, if an idiot football player feels like licking the equivalent of my spit mixed in with the ground, then good for him. I still worried about it. I couldn't concentrate at all during the Unit test during science. I bet I flunked it.

Finally it was 5th period and I was able to check my clarinet. It was in one piece and fine. I wiped and kinda washed it off a bit. It still played the same, so it was ok. I'm still incredibly pissed at Eric and the people who played with it. God, I was near tears for... way too long. Even when I found out it was ok, I was still kinda... depressed. I've been feeling really... low and lonely and stuff recently. Meaning, yesterday and today. I kinda just sat down on the ground, pulled on my headphones, and ate my lunch quietly. I didn't really feel like talking. I still don't.

So that's the huge ordeal. I'm still just incredibly pissed though. I hate Eric for not telling me immediately when he foudn out it was my clarinet. Yeah, I think I might want to KNOW if somebody had fucking LICKED my clarinet! But apparantely he thought that wasn't important for me to know. GAH. I hate him right now... I know I don't know him very well, and I'm sorry if you're close friends with him, but I seriously hate him now. I also hate the fucking football team. Ok, if you saw an instrument lying on the ground, what would you do? Now see, I would either leave it there if I thought someone was coming back for it, or I'd take it to the BAND ROOM. DUH. al;iweur;aliuwer;liawuer I hate them. I hate teenagres. I hate football players. They're all such fucking idiots.

So yeah. I was pretty depressed all day. Thanks to these people for making me feel better for at least a moment: Soan and Emma for letting me know about my clarinet and finding it and putting it back, Jackie for... really being concerned about my clarinet and trying to find out from Eric what happened and... yeah... just being there, Tiffany just 'cause I remember feeling less depressed around her, Adri because the few times I saw her today she made me smile a lot and made me feel better for a moment, Galaxy for yelling at Eric the minute she found out what was going on to tell me what had happened to my clarinet and continuing doing so until she finally found out, and... no, that's it. Nah, I'll thank Annie for being Annie. I don't care that she doesn't go to the same school. I'm still thanking her!

Yeah, so that's it. If they weren't all bigger than me and could probably kill me, I'd beat up the football team right now. x.x

Parts of today were good. Most of it sucked. Let's go through the day, shall we?

I woke up at 6:25. That was a sucky thing of the day, but then that's a sucky thing of most days. Um, yes. Then normal routine. Meaning, racing to get everything all sorted and get dressed by 6:50 so I can walk to Lulu's house. Which I did, listening to the most recent Mest CD. I wanted to listen to my new Fall Out Boy CD, but no, it was in the CD player of my computer and to get it I'd have to turn on the computer, which I had no time for. So, Mest it was.

Got to her house at aroud 7:02. Proceded to watch about 2 seconds of Buffy and the Dashboard Confessional video on All Things Rock. This was a good part. This is usually one of the highlights of my day, just sitting at Lulu's house, watching Buffy/All Things Rock. We then walked to school. This is when it began to suck more. See, I got my hair restreaked, if you didn't see my today or don't know who I am and feel the need to know this info. So I have 4 streaks of blue in my hair. Now, apparantely, either I wasn't award my hair was being streaked at the time, or perhaps I just accidentally stuck my head in the toilet and parts of it got dyed blue and I didn't notice, or something like that, because most of my friends felt the need to let me know that I had gotten my hair restreaked and that it was, in fact, blue. I thank them for telling me this, because otherwise, I doubt I would've realized the sudden blue in my hair. But I'll rant about that more later.

So then, when I got away from the people holding up my hair and pointing at it, I got to geometry. This was better, because at the very beginning, my teacher said that he had the tests graded and began to talk about the proof and said that one person's was really good and he wanted to show it to the class today or tomorrow. He then mentioned "Yeah, I'll put up Michelle's proof later. At first I thought he meant Michele Wong because he always means her, but he looked right at me, so... I assumed it was me. And it was. When we got our tests back, I had the only perfect score in class, 75/75. And I'm not bragging. I'm just really proud of this score. Of course, someone had to ruin my mood slightly. During geometry, a friend on the opposite side of the room hissed loudly "MICHELLE!!!" and I turned my head to her, and she held up some of her hair and pointed at it and then pointed to me, obviously indicating that I had gotten my hair streaked blue. Such helpful friends, letting me know when I get my hair streaked. Sigh.

So then it was on to English. We watched the DVD version of Antigone. That was freaking. Their solution for everything was to dance around and then lunge themselves at either the other person's chest or below the waist. It was amusing, nonetheless, and was actually an enjoyable part of the day. Of course, at the beginning of class, just about everyone had to inform me that my hair had gotten streaked. A few, actually, hadn't realized this, and had to ask me what had happened to my hair. I of course told them that I got my head stuck in a toilet and when I got it out, parts of it were blue. I mean, that is what happened, right? It's not like I went to the hairdresser on purpose and got my hair streaked knowingly, right? Right. Of course.

So then global. Blah. It was boring most of it. It was good, though, that at the end, he gave us papers back and I got a 50/50 on the Map test and 30/30 on the Ch. 16 quiz. So yay for me. The last tests I got B/B+'s on, so I'm very proud of these scores. So global really wasn't that bad.

Snack. There were about 2 people who hadn't seen my hair yet and again informed me that it had been streaked. Because the other 30 people who told me this already apparantely weren't enough to get the point across.

Science. My favorite class of the day! Except, you know, not. PRANAV NEEDS TO STOP EATING HIS FUCKING LUNCH IN CLASS BECAUSE HIS BREATH SMELLS BAD AND EVERYTHING AROUND HIM SMELLS BAD AND I WANT TO KILL HIM A LOT NAD I HATE HIM AND ALKUWER;LIAUWE;IRUAWELIRUAW;REU GOD WHEN ARE WE CHANGING SEATS!?!?!?!?!?!?!

But other than that, it was fun! Well, except for the boring part. Which was the entire class.

Band. We sat there while she talked about Vegas. A lot. Yet still, I'm looking forward to it. It'll be pretty cool. We'll suck, but it'llbe pretty cool.

Lunch. I got food. Too much sauce on the pizza, yech, so I gave like half of it to Tiffany. Um, yes. This was better. Nobody pointed out my hair to me. I suppose I was finally sufficiently notified of it.

French. I HATE THE PEOPLE IN MY CLASS. I love French, really, BUT I HATE STEPHANIE AND I HATE THAT OTHER ANNOYING SOPHMORE OAWIEUR;AIWUER;W. Ok there's this cool guy with pink shoelaces at our school and he dated this sophomore who was in my French, yes. Well, she like wasn't spending any time with him or something and so he dumped her and she was complaining throughout class about it. SHUT UP, WE DON'T GIVE A FUCK! GOD!!! We were learning like... reciprocal... thingies... or something and like it'd be Je t'aime, Tu m'aime, Nous nous aimons which means I love you, you love me, we love each other. She kept going "Nobody loves meeeee!" And I was all "I wonder why." and then later she was all "I WANT A BOYFRIEND!" and then stephanie was all "OMG, who doesn't?!" and I was all "*waves hand wildly*" Well ok, in my mind. Really, I don't care either way. You shouldn't have to depend on a boyfriend or like... have to have a boyfriend to feel good about yourself. I have a point here really, I just have a headache now so... no brainy-worky now. Gah. That class was actually really long today, and usually it seems shortest.

After school I had to go to the office so they wouldn't think I was ditching marching band because I have a dentist appointment. So I went into the main office and said "Uh, I have to miss marching band, 7th period, today cuz I have a dentist appointment and my band director told me to come here." and the woman at the office was all "Attendance." Now hearing this, what would you think? Well I assumed she meant "go to attendance at 7th period and then come back" because... what else could she mean? So I said "But... I already talked to my band director..." and she barked "ATTENDANCE!" and I was all *weak voice* "B-but..." and then she was all "ATTENDANCE OFFICE! GO!" and I said "Oh, see I thought--" but she interrupted and yelled "ATTENDANCE OFFICE! *points* GO NOW!" And I was all "...ok..." And went around the corner to the attendance office and signed out. Dude, if she just would've said "You have to sign out in the attendance office over there *points*" things would've been so much simpler. I got really pissed at her afterwards. Sigh.

Ok so home, and then dentist, which of course was a joyous occasion, and then home. My day. It might not sound too bad, but I felt really crappy most of the day.

Ok, so now the rant.

WHY THE HELL DOES EVERYONE FEEL THE NEED TO TELL ME I GOT MY HAIR STREAKED BLUE!?!??!?!?!?! I DON'T FUCKING GET IT!!!! YES, IT'S BLUE! DO YOU THINK THAT I DIDN'T NOTICE?!?!?!?! DO YOU THINK IT WAS ACCIDENT?!?!?!?! I MEAN SERIOUSLY, WHY THE HELL DO YOU HAVE TO INFORM ME THAT I GOT MY HAIR STREAKED?!?!?! I KNOW THIS!!! I'M NOT AN IDIOT! AND IN ENGLISH AL;IEWULIAUW MORE THAN ONE PERSON WAS ALL "WHAT HAPPENED TO YOUR HAIR?!" DUDE, WHAT ANSWER DO THEY EXCEPT? I really did answer "I got my head stuck in a toilet and when I came up it was blue" sarcastically. Gah. FUCKING IDIOTS. WHAT DO THEY EXPECT ME TO SAY? "WELL, FIRST THEY TOOK THIS STRAND OF HAIR AND PUT IT ON THE FOIL AND PUT THE BELACH ON IT AND THEN THEY DID IT TO 500 MORE STRANDS AND THEN I WENT INTO THE SUFFOCATION CHAMBER FOR 10 HOURS AND THEN THEY WASHED THE BLEACH OUT..." etc.?!!?!??!?! GOD! AND MANY PEOPLE FELT THE NEED TO PICK UP STRANDS OF MY HAIR AND PIONT TO IT! LIKE, THEY CAN'T JUST TELL ME THAT MY HAIR'S BLUE, THEY HAVE TO MAKE SURE THAT I KNOW EXACTLY WHAT THE HELL THEY'RE TALKING ABOUT! AOW;IERU;ALWIERUA;WLEIRU;AWEILRU;AWLIRUAWELRIUAWR;IUWAR GOD PEOPLE ARE STUPID OK I'M SORRY BUT THEY ARE!!!! IT PISSED ME OFF ALL DAY.

The only really good reactions were Tiffany, cuz she didn't say anything (well ok, she already knew because I had to tell her because of going to spectrum on sunday but stil), Jackie (I forget what she said, but she didn't tell me it was blue and I didn't feel the urge to hit her, so I assume it wasn't too annoying), Emma (who asked if she could poke it, but it wasn't annoying, it was like... jokingly), and Saher (who only said that it was really cool and then asked me where I got it done and stuff). GAH. You people need better reactions x.x Gah.

So yeah. My day. I'm a bundle of happiness right now, I'm sure you can tell. =)

And one more thing? THE ONLY PEOPLE THAT CAN PULL OFF PINK EYESHADOW ARE DAVEY FROM AFI, DAVID FROM SIMPLE PLAN, AND OF COURSE BILLY FROM GOOD CHARLOTTE! IF YOU'RE NOT ONE OF THOSE THREE, DON'T TRY IT! THIS MEANS YOU, AVRIL!

Wheeee. I miss Annie so much. Spectrum was fun. It was really funny in Mrs. Fields, cuz... well Tiffany was doing/saying something I forget what, but I threatened to poke her and then she like backed away but she had her magazines and stuff in between her legs cuz she was trying to get her money out of her pockets and all the stuff fell out from between her legs and Annie and I laughed a lot. Plus also when Annie sat on the table and it almost fell over. Oh and when she proposed me to me :D It was all fun. Gr Annie come to UNI WEEEE MISSS YOUUUUU. We're gonna sneak her to Los Vegas :) Cuz you know they wouldn't notice that or anything! :)

Fall Out Boy is a really good band.

You know what I realized is really stupid? Sying like... well ok, like if you're a parent and your kid starts wearing all black and piercings all over their face and stuff and you say "Well it's all right, it's just a phase." For one thing, it sounds really negative, like it's not who the person really is or wants to be, it's just something that you're trying for a little while. Like taking piano for a week and then dropping it. When they say that, they aren't accepting who you really are. And then in like 10 years, you've changed and you wear jeans and t-shirts and just ear piercings and they're all "Oh we're so proud, we knew you'd grow out of that phase." It's not growing out of a phase, it's just plain and simple changing. Everyone does it. That's the main reason why saying something's just a phase is stupid. Because who the hell does stay the same their entire life? I'm completely different than I was 4 years ago. Even 2 years ago. In 7th grade I was really into Asian stuff and cute stuff. Also, I was really into learning Korean. Now, I'm really into music and making computer graphics. It's not that either our phases, because I still would like to learn Korean someday, and I still like Asian stuff (pencils, erasers, and lead still bought at Morning Glory) it's just... not as much. It's way farther back on my mind. And in a few years, I might not be as into making graphics or music (well ok, I'll probably still be very into music). They're not phases, my interests are just shifting.

Yeah, I was thinking about that. Well not thinking about that. I was talking to my mom and somehow it went into religion and then my friends' religions and then like... ionno. It was odd. And then I said something to her about like "Well at least you don't think that I'm just going through a phase now, like Tiffany's parents think she is." And then I started talking about how everyone always changes and saying someone goes through a phase is really judgemental and stuff and... eyah., So that's where that came from. =)

That is all for now. :)