Mmkay. Tiffany can go to Warped for sure. That's good, since for some reason, I had this really awful feeling she wouldn't be able to go this morning.

...uh. O_o

Loveline Call:
Girl: Wait, that's my other question. Are you still a virgin if you have anal sex?
Adam Not!Lazarra: ...no.
Girl: ...what? No, you're joking.
Adam Not!Lazarra: ...no, I'm not.
Girl: OMG! [starts crying] Really?!
Adam Not!Lazarra: ...really.
Girl: OMG I'm so upset now! [still crying]
Adam Not!Lazarra: Ok, this is bogus.
Girl: What?! No! I'm really upset!
Adam Not!Lazarra: Just admit it.
Girl: [stops crying] Yeah, it's bogus.

Heh. It was more amusing before she admitted that, though. She was all like... wondering if she could get pregnant from anal because she was late, and then they said no and she was all "But I've never had intercourse!" and so they were all "...you had anal before normal sex?" and she was all "I'm very religious!" and then went onto that other thing about being a virgin with anal. It was really amusing when she "found out" about the whole not-a-virgin thing and started crying :)

Mmkay. Yeah. That was important.

I still need to figure out how to get Tina's ticket to her. Bah x_x

Eh. Haven't been on AIM like... all day, even though I was online for most of the day. I just... haven't really felt like talking to people for some reason.

Blah. Spiderman 2 out today. I wanted to see it this week, but Annie can't until like... next week or something. x_x

Warped Wednesday with Blink 182. Uh. I don't agree with their music choices quite as much as I did with Taking Back Sunday's. WTF Eminem? Black-eyed Peas?! Cypress Hill?! Gah. I didn't like a lot of it. But I did get to see "Grand Theft Autumn (Where is Your Boy)" by Fall Out Boy. And they said really good stuff about Taking Back Sunday [one of them was wearing a TBS sweatshirt!] and... uh. Rancid, I know. But who else? I don't know. Maybe it was Rancid I wanted to mention. But... yeah. Some was good, but... I preferred when TBS hosted. I wonder who's hosting next week.

Uhhh. Warped on Friday. Nice.

Hee. This really amuses me :D

Uh. Yeah. Ok. That's all.

Oh, you know what bugs me? I found out who's hosting Warped Wednesday tomorrow morning.

Blink-182

I'm not pissed off because I don't like them [well... I don't really like them that much, but that's not the point]. I'm pissed because, dude. They're not even on Warped this year. They weren't on Warped last year either! They haven't been on since summer of 2002! Jeez, there's what? Like, 50 bands? At least 50 freaking bands this year, and even 50 freaking bands last year, and they couldn't manage to get just one that was on the tour before 2002? Really? Not one other band than TBS [and whoever hosted the week before, because I think it started the week before last] could do it? Jeez, even Good Charlotte or Simple Plan would be better. At least they're on part of the tour. Good lord, Lillix would freaking be better. Even if I don't like them, at least they're on the tour this year. Agh. And dude. Seriously. They could've found someone. There are loads of small bands that would kill for the oppurtunity. What awesome exposure that would be, you know? I guess the point is for people to actually watch, so they want big bands like TBS [a;lkf they're not even that huge!] and Blink-182 to host, but really!

Seriously. That just seems stupid to me. I mean, I'm watching anyways, since they play loads of awesome videos, but... still. That's just really annoying.

Live Simple Plan concert was cool :) It was the one in Anaheim! Ooh, so close. Yeah, the one on the tour with Sugarcult and MXPX and MCS and such. Slashy moments! During I'd Do Anything, David threw down his bass and... basically didn't play it for half the song. But in the second verse, he and Pierre were right next to each other, singing the verse to each other. So fucking cute. Then at the end... well it wasn't incredibly slashy [but it was cute], but they were advertising the CD version of the live show, and Pierre was all "What do you think David?" and kept asking him like "Do you like this part? What about this? Do you like it?" and it was cute. Aw he always singles David out. <3

Mmkay. So that was cool.

Uh, is it just me, or does Catwoman look really, really crappy? I don't know, maybe I'm wrong, but the previews... don't exactly do it any favors. Eh.

Geez. It's not a good thing if I feel like crying everytime I leave my private lessons. The ironic thing is, everytime he does something that makes me want to cry, I think he's trying to make me laugh.

But I decided. For sure. Once marching band starts, or at least once school starts, I'm telling my mom no more lessons. No tenor, no clarinet. If I still suck on tenor, I'm getting a new teacher. That's it. I just cannot handle anymore of him. I'd rather have Bentley for a private teacher than him. I'd rather have any of my previous music teachers than him, and dude, that's saying something. al;skdjf god he pisses me off. And yes, he did manage to work in a piano reference during the lesson. Two, actually. :) a;lskfj

I tongue a note. He keeps telling me I'm not tonguing, that I'm doing the "fwah" thing where I breathe the note instead of tonguing it. But I AM tonguing. Geez. a;lkdfj And you know whenever I tell him something, he thinks I'm lying. Like, he'll ask me if I'm ticklish, and I'll be all "No" and then he'll be all "Oh, sure, right." Why bother asking if you're just going to assume I'm lying?! God!

Whatever. At least that's over. A full week until the next bout of torture :) I'd rather be in summer school right now than go to lessons.

Ah but at 4! The hour of live Simple Plan ness! Yay :) And Friday! Friday! Friday! Eee :D Warped! Woo.

Hm.

Dream last night. It was... I think the second to last day of finals. So, it was like snack, and I went to the vending machine, except that area looked a lot like Rancho. And later I found that the school I was at was seriously just like... half Uni, half Rancho. O_o What's with all the school amalgams in my dreams lately? Anyways, but the drink machine only had this orange juice type drink so I just left and went to the 300's. But when I got there, no one was there, and I got pissed because we were all supposed to be there, and besides, I didn't know what finals I had that day and needed to find out [...even though if it was snack, I would've already taken a final, and known which I'd have next]. But anyways. Oh and I remember before snack, I suppose I had English? And for English... for some reason we went outside and played baseball instead of taking the final.

OH! That was the first part of my dream, I forgot. Yeah, and I remember I was on 3rd base, except it was really 2nd base in the like... layout of the field, but they called it 3rd base. And then there was this part where I guess... as long as I had the ball and was touching the base, the guy running would be out. Like... yeah. Anyways. He couldn't go back to 2nd [or 1st?] base anymore. And so like... practically the entire team was pressed up against me for some reason, trying to catch the ball. It was really, really weird. Then this one kid got the ball and everyone was like "Pass this to Michelle!" and so I got the ball, but then the guy to the right of me grabbed it out of my hands and passed it on, and I was all "Dude! I'm Michelle! I'm supposed to have the ball!" but he just kind of looked at me stupidly. But then I got the ball back and touched the base and everyone was happy because we won somehow, even though we'd only spent one turn at the field and hadn't even gone to bat yet, and... we can't exatly win if we haven't gone to bat. But anyways. We won. Then the rest of this whole thing.

So, I started walking around, looking for some of my friends. But somehow... I like... went the wrong way, and got lost. It's not my fault, it wasn't UNI x_x It was like... Uni and Rancho combined and then there were also some farming fields in the back and another place that looked like the theater but was actually a church. So I kind of got lost, but then I saw the PE courts [...the PE area at Rancho, really] and went through this opening through the fence with a bunch of other people that were lost. And so we went over to the front of the school but it didn't work and I kept walking with this girl and somehow ended back at the... back of the school again. Except it was kind of the middle since there was the church and the farming fields behind me, but whatever. So there were only two options, to go back to the front of the school the way we had before, or to go through one of the classrooms. But we couldn't go through a classroom, because dude, where would that take us? So we went back to the front and then... ok it was really confusing at this point. At this point, the school kind of became like a tourist attraction. And someone from our group that was trying to get back in went up and they said that they weren't opening the gates until like... 10 and then they had possibly found some other way? But I went off in the direction of the gates and they were all "You're stupid! Don't do that!" Oh, but before that... I remember I asked the girl I had been walking around with what finals we had today, and she was all "Well, I had..." and I was all "No, I just need to know the numbers" [I mean the numbers of the periods we had] and she was all "I'm not going to give you the numbers!" and I was all "No I mean the periods we have! I think I have my math final next, but I'm not sure!" and she was all "I'm not going to help you cheat!" and I was like "What?! That's not cheating! I just want to make sure I end up at the right final!" but she was all "CHEATER! CHEATER!" and kept going like that when I was walking away.

So then I was at the gates, and there were a bunch of groups of people and then like tour guides and then the gates opened and I had stolen one of the tour guide's floating jelly-like seats and I floated over to a corner and the girl I had stolen it from was all "OMG you took my shit, give it back to me!" or something and I had no idea she was talking to me but then she said it twice so I rolled off the thing. And so I was kind of at the front of the school, but kind of not? Yeah. Weird.

Then I woke up, and I was on the couch, I guess watching TV? And I was worried, because even though the dream wasn't real, I really did need to know the finals I had or else I wouldn't go to the right one, and I remember stressing over the math final since I needed to do well so I could keep my A- and I remembered worrying about doing well on something before to keep my grade, but I thought that was just the last chapter test in the class, so I was freaking out about that, and then I was all "At least I won't have to worry for global or science, since we're going to have parties those periods" like we had had in English. I don't know, it was a house type thing. But then I suddenly remembered having an English final BEFORE the baseball game [in my dream I didn't, but I remembered the real life final] and I was panicking about doing well on both of those finals. And then there was this guy suddenly and he was like leering in the doorway to my family room and he had 5 one dollar bills and I was freaked out because I wasn't sure if my parents were home, and I supposed he could be working on the kitchen, but then he wasn't, so I closed my eyes and pretended I was asleep so he couldn't hurt me or anything because who bothers in killing someone asleep? Except that wouldn't work because he had been watching me and knew I was awake. Then he moved through the family room and around back to where the birds usually are and I was freaking out and then... I woke up.

Yeah. So I woke up and then for a second worried about finals, but then remembered that those had both been dreams and it was summer and finals were over. And then I remembered I have a lesson today. Gah. I'd rather have finals x_X

Is it strange that I'm subconsciously [sp?] worrying about finals two weeks after finals ended?

New layouts make me happy :D

You know how I said at the last lesson I told my teacher my reed wasn't working and so I changed it and that allowed me to not have to play any clarinet that day? Yeah, well, I changed the reed, and... it's still not... working. It just sounds stuffy, and the notes are hard to get out. And the high register squeaks majorly. More than usual [for me, at least]. I even tried a size of reed down, a 3 instead of a 3 1/2, just to make sure it wasn't me, and... still hard to get out notes. So, yeah. :) Don't need to practice, or play in the lesson tomorrow, since my clarinet's broken! Woo. The downside would be... well we're taking it to Jim's on the way to the lesson, and if they can spot the problem quickly AND fix it immediately, then I might be able to just take it then and go on my way to the lesson. This would be bad, since I wouldn't really have an excuse then. I mean, what would I say? "Oh, yeah, my clarinet? It had this problem, but it was super easy to fix, and so the second I took it in, they fixed it. Oh, but I didn't practice, since I didn't notice this till Monday night since... I left practicing all to Monday night and haven't been practicing all week even though I do have the time to, so I wasn't able to practice my exercises or pieces at all. :)" Yeah. That... wouldn't fly very well with him.

Earlier conversation with my mom:
Me: I guess I'll practice clarinet now. Since, you know, I'm taking both tenor and clarinet at once.
Mom: [not catching hint] All right.
Me: You know, I didn't want to take both tenor AND clarinet. I don't need clarinet lessons, and not since I'm such a fabulous player, but since I'm not playing clarinet anymore! And it won't benefit either my tenor sax playing or bass clarinet playing! I just wanted to play tenor so I would be prepared for marching band.
Mom: ...ok.
Me: Geez, how is it even going to work? It already takes the entire lesson to play my clarinet assignments, how am I going to fit both clarinet AND tenor into a thirty minute lesson?!
Mom: We'll worry about that problem when we come to it.
Me: We have come to it! The problem's right here! Clarinet and tenor in the same lesson won't work!
Mom: [tuning me out] Mm-hm.
Me: [giving up, starts walking away] And piano too! Ha! He wants to incorporate piano into the mix?! Into a thirty minute lesson already taken up completely by clarinet?!
Mom: Mm-hm
Me: Especially when he talks for 15 minutes of the lesson anyways!
Mom: [snorts]

Heh. I don't know why I included that. Just... I guess to show my complaints! Because it's not as if I haven't ranted about this enough already. :) Gah. I need to be more... non-subtle with her. "I don't want to take clarinet lessons anymore. I'm going to just take tenor from him until marching season and then, [provided that I've mastered it well enough], I want to quit taking lessons from him. And you get to tell him." What? It's only fair. I freaking told her that I wanted just tenor lessons, plain and clear, and she merely tells him that I'm going to be on tenor during marching band! Gah! Do you know how fucking hard it was to explain to him I wanted to take tenor? Geez. And he was surprised when I walked into the room with both a tenor and a clarinet. Hm, I wonder how we could've avoided that? Oh, I know! If she had told him when I told her too! God. Besides, I have to suffer enough being his student. All she has to do is freaking pay him and... well, ok, listen to him, which is a bit of suffering, but not so much as it is when it's directed at you x_x Gah.

Ok. Done. Geez. a;lskfj And I wonder why I'm never incredibly eager to take private lessons. Gee.

New layout! ...all right, it may have taken a bit longer than I had hoped for. Shut up. But I'll practice from 8:40 to 9:40, an hour, which is what I had planned for earlier, than do the bird cages [doesn't take any longer than 15 minutes, usually more like 10 really], and then I can take a shower at 10 and my mom can brush through my hair at 10:15ish. It'll work out fine. You'll see :)

al;ksdjf I really hate my private teacher, though! :)

...I could make a new layout in... 24 minutes, couldn't I? This is of course not so I end up spending several hours on a layout and thereby become unable to practice clarinet before my lesson. Right. That doesn't sound like something I would do.

Since my kitchen's being remodeled and all [I mentioned thatbefore, didn't I?], we can't really... cook. So my mom went to this place and bought this thing where it has like... salad in one part, and then uh... these like... breadish things that look like... quesadillas [sp?] but... it's just bread, and then... chicken-ka-bob-y things and then these two dressings. And then... for the chicken-ka-bob, I dipped it in this one sauce. I believe it was for the salad, though, because it tasted like that... vinegar-y salad dressing type of... dressing. But... I don't like salad, and... it didn't taste too awful, so it ended up all right :)

...wow, I'm not quite sure why I typed all that. I... doubt anyone really cares about... me... dipping chicken into salad dressing. Erm.

Right. Layout time. ...uh... 21 minutes now. Right. I can make a layout in 21 minutes. Especially with my quite cooperative PSP. Right. Because... my PSP never fucks up right when I want to use it. :)

...20 minutes.

Today was pretty good :) Watched videos all morning and saw several really good ones. Then at 12:30, I went to Nathan's house and played saxophone with Nathan and Emma. Well, first he made us food and we listened to some saxophone...ing on CDs. Then played saxophone. Eh. I really really need to improve :) I was proud of myself for being able to like... follow along even when I couldn't play a part and I think I almost always ended up playing the last note at the right time, which is a bit of an accomplishment! Then we walked around the Woodbridge lake area and saw ducks and such and then... ah I bought a Pepsi at a vending machine and then... I was sipping some and laughed at something. Er. Pepsi up the nose is not a fun experience :) I need to take a shower tonight, since I got some in my hair x_x Whatever, I was planning on showering anyways. Er, then went back to his house and played video games. I actually won some, which was cool, since I usually really suck at video games and never win.

So yeah. Nice day. Tomorrow I have a stupid lesson with my [reTARTed] teacher x_x Gah. My mom didn't buy the tenor book he wanted me to buy either, so that means I'll probably end up having to play clarinet the whole time x_x Bah humbug. I'm planning on actually practicing clarinet tonight.

Geez, I'd really love to quit lessons x_x But... well I need it for tenor. a;lsdkfj I so want to quit after marching band, or even after this summer is over, though. God. I really hate my teacher. See, this is why I don't like getting private teachers. They make me resent my instruments, and then playing's not fun anymore, and then I get grouchy, and they get mad because I suck because I'm not playing my instruments and I'm not playing because I resent them because I'm taking lessons, and it's all just a circle of unhappiness. Sigh. There's only like... one private teacher I've had that I hadn't resented, which was my first clarinet teacher, simply because he'd assign me something, then I wouldn't practice it and next lesson, I'd play some old one we had already played and not mention the ones he assigned, and he totally wouldn't remember at all. It was amusing, though sort of sad. Yeah.

lakjfd god if he brings up piano again, I'm going to pick up the piano in the room and smack him with it. Because... I have that sort of strength. Er. Right.

Yeah, so, tonight. Clarinetting from 7-...8ish. Then bird cages. Then... Roughly at 8:30, showering and my mom can brush my hair.

Warped on Friday! Wooo. :D So freaking looking forward to that.

I realized that during the summer.. I like... I always have a terrible time getting to bed. Like, last night I went to bed around... 12:30, but then I'm sure I didn't fall asleep until at least 2. I couldn't figure it out but then I realized... During the school year, I wake up at 6:20 4 days a week, 7:20 one day, and 8:00 another. The only day I sleep in is Sunday, and Saturday nights I stay up late. Now, compare with summer, in which I sleep in until 11:00 pretty much everyday, and go to sleep at like midnightish usually. That's still 11 hours of sleep, when I'm used to closer to 7 1/2. Geez. I should really start staying up more.

Which is what I'm doing tonight. Mostly... well, because of that reason. I mean, Saturdays are always the night to stay up, but god, I'll wake up at like 8 if I go to sleep now. And I always have to go pee really badly in the morning and then it'll just get worse and worse and I won't be able to go pee until 11 when my mom wakes me up. ...of course, there is always the solution that I could get up and go pee, and then go back to sleep. But I have this weird thing where I can't go pee until my mom wakes me up. I have no fucking clue why. I think because when I was a kid on Sunday mornings, I'd want to sleep in, but then I'd go pee and my mom would see I was up and make me... stay up and not go to sleep. So I'm afraid if I go pee, she'll make me stay up, when I want to sleep in. Or. Something.

I don't know. Don't look at me. I'm weird. You already know this.

New layout incredibly possible tonight :) Even though the other one... didn't last too long. Domaindlx sucks ass.

Ah. I really like Felicity, especially the first few seasons. Though, it does start out a little too serious. Not as... self-aware. Good, though. Watched 6 episodes. 16 left, plus the first and last with audio commentary on, so... 18, really. That's probably all I'll be doing tomorrow. Nice.

Dude. Those liquid ice things last long. I mean, the minty afterness, not the actual.. thing. I burped at like... 9? And it was minty! And I had only eaten like.. 3? And it had been before 5! Dude!

Dude, is it just me, or does children's television really suck these days? I mean, really. I remember when I was a kid, there was such great stuff. I mean, I'd even like it now. It had little bits for adults, and they were sometimes.. self-mocking and sarcastic and crap. Rugrats, for one. Geez. Invader Zim [actually that wasn't till I was... more 10-12ish], Angry Beavers, Rocko's Modern Life [life, right? I always want to say world.], Are You Afraid of the Dark, geez, even crap like Hey Arnold wasn't bad at all. Way better than stuff these days. Like, they're all good shows for kids, but then I can still appreciate some of the humor from those shows these days. I really wish stuff like Rocko's Modern Life was on. That was good. I didn't quite get it now, but looking back... that was good. Are You Afraid of the Dark was also really good, at least at first. Then when they started replacing the core group, people like Gary, and introduced the new circle with Gary's little brother at the helm... eh it took a downturn. It was good the first several seasons, though. Rugrats... ah I used to love that show. My parents loved that show. Now what do they have? Like... All Grown Up? The Rugrats all... pre-teen?! Dude! That totally defeats the entire purpose of the show! The whole point is the innocence and the... childness! What's the point of making them grown up? They're just not them anymore. Sigh. Invader Zim. Dude. No words, man. That's just awesome. I will buy the DVDs someday. It's on my very long list. Geez even Hey Arnold... it didn't talk down to kids, you know? It wasn't incredibly intelligent, but.. it didn't make you feel like a kid, you know?

That's what I find to be the major problem these days in children's television. They talk down to the kids. I know I hated that when I was a kid. Geez, I still do. And I remember when I was 3... dude, I totally felt like I talked like an adult, you know? Like, I'm sure I made absolute no sense at times and my parents didn't understand me half as well as I understood myself [ah, some things never change ;)] but... I always felt like... well, I wasn't a kid. I've never felt... like I've really... evolved in mindstate. I'm sure I have, of course, but it's so gradual that when you're that age... from your POV, you're just the same as you are now, you know? But TV shows these days... they just don't show that. They overexplain, they talk down to kids, and it just doesn't make for entertaining television. I like childrens shows that I can appreciate no matter what my age is. That's just not an accurate description of TV these days. Like yeah, ok, when you're 5, you won't understand things as well as when you're say 20. But it shouldn't feel like that. And... 5 year olds aren't idiots. Their minds just haven't matured yet. You can still be all... subtle and not drag things out forever just trying to explain things, you know? I just.. ugh. I hate when I feel my intelligence is being insulted, and I really do feel like it is [or at least, if I was that age] when watching those shows. Geez, that's one of the reasons I hated Hefferpuffer so much the first few days. I mean, I didn't like her from the very start. And it was solely [at that point, this was before I witnessed her idioticness] because she talked to us like we were 7 year olds.

Seriously, what is there these days? Lizzie McGuire? Woohoo, a show that teaches you that appearances are everything, everyone should strive to be cheerleaders and be as popular as you can, you should never listen to your parents ever because they're idiots and have no idea what they're doing, and you should always lust after the "hottest" [ETHAN CRAFT IS FUCKING UGLY AHHHH WTF IS WRONG WITH THEM! At least freaking cast a hot guy that's actually HOT], popular...est guy in school, and not the cute, adorable nerd who clearly likes you. Good lord. Have you seen... That's so Raven? [I think that's it] God, that's a stupid show. Horrible acting, ridiculous plots, just stupid. And these are like... pre-teenish shows! God, they act like this when you're a fucking pre-teen, imagine the quality of the childrens' shows! They should just show reruns of Rugrats, Rocko's Modern Life, Invader Zim, Angry Beavers, Are You Afraid of the Dark, and shows like them. I mean, they rerun all their shows all the time anyways. Might as well keep showing them, because eventually, they'll grow out of those shows and then the next generation of kids can start watching them. Gah.

Sorry. This has been bugging me lately, though :)

..I like how.. I get a pop-up that's like "Stop pop-ups now!" and also causes like 10 more pop-ups to... pop up. Er, yeah. Not entirely convincing, you know?

All right. That's it. Don't expect to see me until... 10-11ish tomorrow night, if at all. :)

Spectrumming! That was fun. Got Felicity Season 1 on DVD [one among many DVD's I want. Sigh. So expensive! I need to go to Costco to buy them, they're so much freaking cheaper. $60 opposed to $36. Gah. Need to go to Costco], some new Khaki shorts, and... The Killers' CD! Yes! They had it! Woohoo! :D:D:D

Anyways. Don't really expect to see me online this weekend, since I'll be watching DVDs. If you have something urgent, you can always call me. Um, tomorrow my parents are going to be gone like... all day long, so... if you decide to call, leave a message. I'll be listening to the message machine, but I won't pick up, because I hate taking messages for my parents and it's easier if the machine picks up. But, yeah. You want to talk to me, leave a message.

Good day :) Warped in 6 days! Woo!

Duuude. Interesting dreams last night. Only 2 I really remember well.

Ok, the first. I was assigned this project in some class where I had to like... turn in a tape of a song I had recorded? I was assigned... uh I forget. Something by Green Day, though. I think Brain Stew. Anyways, so... during lunch I went home for some reason to do the project, or at least prepare for it. It was odd O_o My mom was going to play guitar and I was going to drum and sing it. I found a tape and stuff but then the bell rang [...I could apparently hear it from my house? O_o] and... suddenly Hillary [not Duff, the one who's going to join pit and is kind of incredibly annoying] was there and talking about the project. Which was..weird. Then she shoved a sweatshirt at me and I think I was supposed to give it to someone. It took me like... several minutes to put everything in my backpack because there was apparently a lot of stuff. Then like... Hillary kept talking on and on about stuff. Finally I managed to escape and I ran from my house down to the school. Uh. Somehow I went to Turtle Rock instead of Uni? I guess because it was closer and I didn't want to go all the way to Uni? Errr... Yeah then... I saw my 6th grade teacher, Dr. Pommer, standing out front and I ran over to Rotem and she was all "My thing won!" and was holding up this thing and I was all "Good job" and then Dr. Pommer came over and asked whom she could thank for something and the bell had rung a long time ago and... I had to go to math [...somehow after lunch? O_o] so I just said hi and then ran to class. At... Turtle Rock. Right. I managed to open the door quietly and sneak in a seat in the back and no one noticed. Oooh. Skills. Then for some reason... people from the other two first period Geometry classes started sneaking into the room and after awhile they stopped sneaking in and they just flat out opened the doors and piled it. It was amusing.

Um, then second dream. It was Warped! Or I wasn't at Warped really, but it was like.. day of Warped. And... Adam Lazarra [of Taking Back Sunday!] was doing something. Er. i don't know. That part kind of flew by. Then I went into this... place? I guess it was a restaurant. And we were celebrating someone's birthday. Uh, someone in a band. I don't think I ever knew who it was, but there were a lot of people there. There were pictures on the wall of Benji and Tony [well and other people but then] Tiffany came over and was all "Aw how cute" and I was all "I know! Oh, but have you seen those pics of David and Benji? They had like their arms around each other. It was cute! They're from awhile ago, though, because david still had his faux-hawk" and she hadn't seen them and was all "Aw!" even though they were posted on slashypunkboys so she probably did see them in real life, and then uh... Then we looked out the window and Pierre and David were walking by and Pierre had his arm around David and it was soo fucking cute. And me and Tiffany were all "Awwww" yeah and then they came into the party too. Damn I wish my mom hadn't woken me up shortly after, because the way my mind works, they would've started making out x_x Then... I was still talking to Tiffany and I was all "Ah I hope we see Jesseee Laayyysseeee and Adam laZArra [dude I still don't nkow how to spell his last name] and she was all "I don't think they were invited" and I was all "Aw. But today was Warped! Adam should be still in town!" and then she was all "No, wouldn't he be in Detroit by now?" because... Detroit would be after a show in Fullerton apparently. Anyways. Oh and there was this part where I saw this picture on the wall of Chuck and Seb and it was cute and I wanted to make an icon of it but I couldn't crop it right. Ok, that's it.

Yeah. Nice dreams :)

whoooaaa. a;dflkj I knew there was a video for Everybody's Fool [by Evanescence]. I didn't really... try to see it at all. It's been out for a little while now. Never saw it on Fuse, MTV, etc. But like... eh I was watching the video for... what was it? Right. "Give it Up" [new Midtown! New CD comes out next Tuesday! wheeee!] on Launch and then... it came up right after that. And... it's like... reeeeally good. Best video they've done, hands down. Gains power [at the bridge? The talking part] and then after... awwww. Yeah. It made me really sad at the end. The only thing that bugs me is like... it only shows Amy Lee. None of the rest of the band. And I know this is the case for most lead singers [for example, Brand New; Sic Transit Gloria, anyone? Quiet Things had some of the band, but it mostly was Jesse] but... eh. Like, My Immortal had a little of the band, Bring Me to Life had a little of the band, Going Under... I forget, but it focused on Amy again. Whatever. I've chosen not to care, since the video is really good.

a;slfkdj crap there's a bunch of CDs I want x_x And DVDs! But I need money for Warped and crap. aaagh. At least I paid off my concert ticket debt. Finally. Now I can actually earn money from the bird cages. Whoo. $4 a night. Niiice. $28 a week. More than I'd gain from lunch money every week. a;kf ack but some much stuff I want to buy. Sigh. I suppose I can wait.

Oh. Warped. 8 days! Tell me if you're going [uh you know who you are, too lazy to list even though this is becoming longer than listing would be :) I'm cool like that] because otherwise... I have 8 days to find someone to sell the ticket too. Otherwise I'd have to pay for it myself. It's like... $25? Ish? Closer to $30 probably. Which means I'd have to wait ANOTHER week to pay off my debt x_x Gah.

So yeah. Can't wait till Warped. Hopefully we'll do it right this time! :)

Oh, right. I forgot. Report cards came yesterday. Got all A's except an A- in geometry. Thank god. I had like... a 91.1. Must've done well enough on the final to keep it an A-. Ack but x_x I think my mom's becoming one of those parents who expects all A's. Stupid me. I should've gotten a bunch of B's last year and in 7th grade so she would be happily surprised by A's this year. Gah. I don't see me doing quite as well next year x_x

Uh. My mom woke me up at 7:45 this morning because she thought the Warped Wednesday thing was everyday. Even though... I told her it was called Warped Wednesday. Er. O_o She was all "Get up, it's almost 8" and I was all "...why'd you wake me up?!" and she was all "I thought you wanted to watch that thing!" and I was all "x_x It's only Wednesday's!" and she was all "...oh. Fine. Go back to sleep, then." I was all [sigh].

Uhhh today's going to be boring! And tomorrow! And... everyday until Friday, excepting Tuesday a little, since I have clarinet/tenor. Do you think I could just... not bring my clarinet? x_x Gaaahhh. I can't even practice now anyways, since my bottom teeth hurt like shit and playing instruments with freaking reeds doesn't exactly make them any better. They should be... all right by like... Sundayish. Sigh. So I get to... what? Play clarinet Sunday, tenor Monday, or something? Eh. al;ksjf I really hate my teacher. At first he was all right, then he got annoying, and now he's just grrrrrrr.

Hee. My orthodontist is a fucking idiot. She like came over and told me to bite down like usual, and then she was all "Aw, your bite is still open" and I was reading for her to chastise me about wearing my rubberbands but THEN she was all "You poor thing!" and I was all "What? Uh. Ok!" Bwah. I just... need to actually start wearing my rubberbands, since if my bite doesn't close up by next time, they have to take more x-rays and "reevaluate" and I'm afraid they might make me have surgery on my jaw, because that was an option before I got my braces on [for the second time]. So. Yeah.

Uh. That's it. Dreading that appointment, but it didn't turn out too bad. Well, except for the part where my mom went to the store during the time, so when I exited she wasn't there and I had to wait for about 20 minutes for her to come get me x_x Gah.

alkdfj uhhh. 9 days! Warped! Whoo! I need to be sure of who's coming. So, if you haven't asked, you... might... want to do that sometime soon.

mmkay. I am done for now.

Ah. Warped Wednesday. ;lkajdfk <3 Have I ever mentioned how much Taking Back Sunday rocks?

Yeah. I mentioned this before, right? From 8-12, Taking Back Sunday hosted videos on Fuse and chose them out and all and talked some about Warped. Crazy awesome. Loooads of awesome videos. To name a... lot..., "You're so Last Summer" and "Cute without the E" by Taking Back Sunday, "Somebody Told Me" by the Killers, "A Favor House Atlantic" by Coheed and Cambria, "Welcome to Paradise" by Green Day, "Time is Running Out" by Muse, "Give it Up" by Midtown [the new one! Off their album that comes out... either yesterday or next week!], "Los Angeles is Burning" by Bad Religion, "Understatement" by New Found Glory, "She's Gonna Break Soon" by Less Than Jake alksdfj god so many! "Buried Myself Alive" by The Used, "The Quiet Things That No One Ever Knows" by Brand New alksdjf I can't... so many! Those are some of the really good ones.

Ooh and then there were ads for this thing next Tuesday, 7 pm [eastern, 4 pm here] on Fuse which is like an hour long concert with Simple Plan! How crazy awesome! Soooo seeing that :)

Bah I asked my mom and she said the Warped tickets came already. No compilation with them x_x Guess I have to buy it myself, then. Sigh. Yeah, it's cheep, but I'm getting low on cash, I need money for Warped, and all of a sudden I've found a lot of bands to check out, many of which I'll probably want their CDs. x_x Gaahhh. I need to find a way to make some money.

Mmkay that's it. It needs to be like... 6, so my orthodontist appointment is over. Gah. They're going to be so pissed at me x_x

So. Clarinet/tenor lesson.

god I hate my teacher.

I brought both just in case. So then, I told him I wanted to take tenor lessons. He... agreed. After reminding me again how much more beneficial piano would be. And then proceeded to waste 15 minutes [of a 30 minute lesson] on why I had quit piano in the first place. I told him because I'd played it for like... nearly 10 years, and I just didn't enjoy it anymore, and I didn't see any point in continuing if I didn't enjoy it. And after I told him this, he continued to stare at me as if there was something more, so I was just all "...yeah. That's... all" and then he proceeded to ask more questions about why I had quit.

Then spent 10 minutes on tenor. He had me go chromatic down from the lowest G slowly. I'm actually getting more low notes out than before. He had no tenor books with him, I'm getting one on like... Thursday? Or something. He then proceeded to tell me to put away the tenor and get out my clarinet.

The color probably drained from my face at that point, considering I didn't practice any of the assignments he gave me in the... uh... 4 weeks I didn't have lessons x_x So I'm a bit of a procrastinator. Really, it wasn't my fault. Last week I had finals, the week before I had audition to worry about and practice for, week before I had projects/homework crap and uh... the past... since Wednesday x_x I've been... well... I practiced tenor several times x_x So there. So yeah. Put it together slowly. He again began to talk about piano and how beneficial it'd be for about... 5 minutes. He then told me to play my assignment. By the way, if you've been counting the minutes, no, you haven't counted them wrong. My lesson is 30 minutes, and 30 minutes had passed. I blew on my clarinet but... the note was all funky. So I told him I needed to change my reed. As I was changing my reed [and he launched into his spiel about how great piano would be for me], the lady who's lesson is after mine came in. So, by the time I put together my instrument and he finished his spiel, he told me to put away my clarinet. x_x Thank god. He assigned more crap. Greeeat. Sigh.

But. God. I DON'T WANT TO TAKE UP PIANO AGAIN! I already have clarinet, bass clarinet [ok I don't have it right now, but I will] and tenor to be practicing. I DON'T NEED PIANO TOO. My mom was so eating it up, too. Shouldn't surprise me, really, seeing as she never wanted me to quit in the first place, and the only reason she agreed was because I told her I'd continue with clarinet instead. God. He kept asking why I had quit, even though I told him numerous times it was because I just didn't enjoy it anymore. He was all hinting "Well you know, if you're not as good at something, then you probably wouldn't be as eager to continue it..." Actually, I was really good at piano and horrible when I switched to clarinet. I really only got better when I started practicing, which was at the beginning of this year. He heard me once on piano on my first lesson just because he wanted to hear me, and he told me that my clarinet playing is far above my piano playing. But that's because I hadn't fucking touched the instrument for over a year. Whereas, I played clarinet 5 days a week and practiced at night a lot. My mom instantly was all "Oh no, she was really good at piano." I don't think he believed her. Sigh. But I was. I just... I don't know why I quit. I just didn't like it. I was tired of practicing. I started up clarinet because all my friends were in band and I wanted to go to places like Disneyland with them too. Then I only continued because I hate PE and wanted to get PE credit without having to run over a mile 4 days a week.

He needs to fucking give it up! God! alskjdf and WTF he told me to take out my clarinet AND gave me more assignments?! THAT'S NOT WHAT I WANTED. I wanted TENOR lessons. Not TENOR/CLARINET lessons. It already takes the entire 30 minutes to play my assignments for clarinet. How the hell is he going to fit in tenor too? alksjdf I DON'T WANT TO TAKE CLARINET LESSONS ANYMORE. He keeps saying how piano and flute and all this would be so much more beneficial to my clarinet playing than instruments such as bass clarinet. But how says I want to be a professional clarinet player?! Why do I have to be a clarinetest? I don't get where it was decided that I needed to do everything possible to improve my clarinet playing. I'm not a clarinet player, or at least... I don't have to be. It's not like... I'm not alskdjflkj AGH! Why do I have to focus on clarinet? The only reason I got lessons for it anyways was because my band director yelled at me everytime she asked me if I had a private teacher and I didn't. Then, like a week later, she wa sall "Oh, let's put you on bass clarinet!" The private lessons were only for when I was taking it in class. I'm not anymore. There is no reason for me to be taking clarinet.

I'm not going to be able to take both clarinet AND tenor when school starts. AND piano, if he gets his way. Psh. My mom was all "How much practicing would that entail?" and he was all "Only like 30 minutse a day!" ;alksj wtf?! I barely have [ok, had. I'm discounting this whole summer thing right now]time to practice clarinet as it is, how would I have the time to practice clarinet, bass clarinet, tenor, AND piano?! ESPECIALLY next year?! They all say how much harder sophomore year is than freshman year. And plus, I'm not even going to have much time this summer! I'm just sort of relaxing these few weeks before summer school. July 12, summer school'll roll by, and I'll have 3 weeks of that. Then, I'll have 3 [I think it's 3, maybe 4] weeks to do the reading for AP US [and study it. We have a test like the first week on the first 6 chapters x_x] and English. I only have one of the outside reading books. And A Tree Grows in Brooklyn is long. AND my parents are considering taking a like... one week trip sometime between band camp and summer school. Only way I can avoid that is if I can find some friend to stay with while they're gone x_x Gah.

Yeah. I really hate my clarinet/tenor teacher. I hate my mom too, for not explaining to him what I wanted. I already told her I wanted to be on tenor so I'd be ready for marching band, and she did talk to him afterwards. But then I came to the lesson, with the sax, and he's all "That doesn't look like your clarinet." And then I had to freaking explain it to him. I didn't know what to say! I was all "...er... [looks to mom]," and then he chided me for looking at her, "I want to take tenor lessons for marching band." And then, AND THEN, I still have to take clarinet?! Ah! I told my mom to freaking tell him! She didn't! aslkdfj she should've fucking told him I just wanted to be on tenor. x_x I'm going to yell at her when she gets back. x_x

gr. Not a fun day.

AT THE MOMENT
1. name: Michelle
2. nicknames: uh... Michi is the only one anyone uses. Most just call me Michelle.
3. feet size: Uh... 8/9. Depends on the shoe.
4. do you have a crush?: P/D. Duh. Do you not know me?
5. boy/girlfriend?: no :)
6. age you act: ...it depends. Anywhere from like... 5... to... 30.
7. where do you live?: Stalker.
8. where do you want to live?: I like it here. Maybe San Francisco?
9. birthplace: you're a birthplace. But I've lived where I live now my entire life. If... that answers anything.
10. ever gone skinny dipping?: When I was like, 3? And didn't bring my bathing suit to my parents' friends house, but I wanted to go in the pool. But... I was still wearing underwear, actually. Not really.
11. favorite movie: ...I really don't have one...
12. favorite saying: Uh. Heh. Read the quotes in my profile x_x Toooo many. "Bite Pierre?" and "Jiggly jiggly like jello, except jello would break and manboobies don't break" and then... alksjf "Would you like to see my garbage disposal?" Best. Pickup Line. Ever.
13. favorite fast food: In'n'Out! You know, I hear that's what a hamburger's all about.
14. favorite ice cream: Ben and Jerry's Vanilla Ice Cream! Heee. No. Chocolate! Yay!
15. favorite alcoholic drink: x_x no.
16. when do you go to sleep?: ...it depends. 11 PM is when I "go to sleep" but ...it depends on how early I have to get up the next morning, if I'm doing anything interesting online, or how tired I am.
17. most embarrassing moment: You're an embarrassing moment. What now, bitch?
18. favorite holiday: uh. One's that give us breaks from school :)
19. favorite food: ...the... type that doesn't make me barf
20. favorite song: ...there are a lot. I like "Walk Away" and then "A Decade Under the Influence". Erm. Yeah.
21. favorite television show: The O.C., Buffy, Angel, Charmed, Gilmore Girls, Everwood
22. favorite junk food: uh. Those lollipops I buy in masses. Or the... stuff. That's sour and strawberry.
23. favorite sappy love song: uh. None, really?
24. listening to: "Brain Stew" by Green Day. It's on KROQ now.


HAVE YOU EVER...
1. done drugs: Other than like Advil? No. No illegal drugs.
2. run away far from home: no
3. hit a boy: Why not?
4. broken a bone: nope
5. gotten drunk: nope
6. let a friend cry on ur shoulder: Uh... I don't think anyone's cried on my shoulder. I think. I would if they needed to! I let people sleep on my shoulder before, does that count?
7. fell asleep in the shower or bath: No. I just... closed my eyes. And then... when I opened them, 30 minutes had passed. Uh. That was totally on purpose x_x
8. gone to church: I've been in churches and went to that... thing. At Jackie's church. Pre-toys night? Yeah. That's what it's called, right? Yeah. Otherwise, no.
9. never slept during the night: yeah
10. ever been on a motorcycle: nope. Except those... ones. At Boomers and such. But... I've heard those aren't actually real.
11. been to a camp: Yeah! And not band camp! Oooh. Sea World Camp! I was in 3rd grade? Or something.
12. broken something valuable: uh.. probably. But none that I can think of.
13. thought you were in love: nope
14. screamed at someone for no reason: I had my reasons. They were just... bad reasons.
15. been hurt by a guy or girl u loved: I... haven't actually loved a guy yet. So... there are none to hurt me. And you deserve to be shot for spelling "you" like that. Dude. You can type up an entire survey for people to waste their time on, but you can't freaking spell out "you"?
16. stayed up on the phone til 4: AIM! Not the phone.
17. pulled a prank: probably


WHICH IS BETTER
1. coke or pepsi: Um. Do you not know me? Pepsi.
3. deaf or blind: Uh. Blind equals... no PSP-ing. Deaf equals no music. Er. I've lived without making graphics before. No music would do me in. So... blind.
4. pools or hot tubs: Uh. Pools. I like doing laps of freestyle.
6. apples or oranges: apples because I hate oranges
7. strawberries or blueberries: strawberries
8. gold or silver: silver
9. vanilla or chocolate: chocolate
10. movies or music: music
11. park or beach: beach party!
12. hot or cold weather?: cold
13. sunrise or sunset: sunset. I don't like being up early x_x

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU...
1. took a shower: uh... last night?
2. cried: ...Saturday? Or Friday? I think. I think I cried out of happiness last night. When reading a fic. x_x I'm pathetic.
3. gotten/given a hug: I gave Annie semi-hugs today.
4. been to the movies: Today! Dodgeball!
5. danced: ...the dance of DEATH! Except not. Um. Like. Does moshing count? x_x Otherwise, bouncing up and down at the 8th grade promotion dance.


WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT...
1. bill clinton: He was actually a really good president. Did good stuff to economy and crap that Bush has ruined. Go to emogame.com and play the bush game. It'll give you a lot of info on that. Sigh.
2. love at first sight: Don't believe in it
3. abortion: I'm pro-choice, though I don't support it as a means for birth control. Like women who use no protection just because they think if they get pregnant, they can simply have an abortion.
4. smoking: ew.
5. death: um. o_O
6. marilyn manson: Didn't he date Rose McGowan for a long time? Yeah.
7. suicide: er. It's bad if you're a cool person. It's fine if you're Hilary Duff x_x


INFORMATION
1. full birth name: You're a full birth name. Psh.
2. hair color: blonde
3. eye color: blue
4. current height: uh... 5'3"? Ish? My mom claims I'm 5'4" but I don't believe her.
5. birthdate: 01/14/89
6. religion: ...atheism's not technically a religion but... yeah. I'm an atheist.
7. current age: 15. And a half, in... less than a month!
8. siblings: 0
9. siblings age: You don't pay attention well
10. location: In front of my computer.
11. college plans: to hopefully get accepted to one
12. any piercings: both ears

SOCIAL
1. best guy/girl friend: uh... I have a lot of close friends. No real best friends.
2. current crush: You're a crush.
3. boyfriend/girlfriend: no! geez.
4. are you center of attention or wallflower: It depends on the group of people. If it's my close friends, then... well we're actually pretty much equal there. If it's with a bunch of people that I don't know very well, then... I tend to back off a lot. People drain me.
5. what automobile do you drive:? ...I don't.
6. do you like being around people?: depends on the people


FAVORITES
1. room in house: my room is nice
2. type of music: the type that I listen to
4. memory: ...there are a lot... x_x Todya was good! Let's go with that.
5. color: black
6. month: you're a month
7. season: ...uh... I... don't know. winter or summer

Went to movies with Annie, Justin, and Andrew. That was fun. :) We saw Dodgeball! Heh, that was a really amusing movie. Sure, it was predictable, but they like... went a step beyond the predictable? Or they made it more amusing? I don't know. It just... eh. It was really good :D Then afterwards we wandered around Albertsons some and then walked to Annie's house [oh, we were at the Westpark theater, the one right by her house] and played Uno for almost 2 hours. Heh. We really failed at that :) But it was fun. Then... home. Yeah. :)

Bah. Tomorrow I have clarinet/tenor lesson. Not sure which. She mentioned the idea of tenor lessons to him apparently, but didn't like... say for sure, I guess x_x Gah. So I might want to practice clarinet tomorrow morning. Heh. That'd be an idea :) al;kdsfjlkja fuck I have an orthodontist appointment on Wednesday. They're so going to murder me. I haven't been wearing my rubber bands at all. I probably won't put them on until after my lesson tomorrow, which is at 1. So... from 2 pm... to... Wednesday at around 2? That's like... 24 hours x_x Gah. They're going to smack me. Whatever. It's like... 1 minute of being chastised. Then I can go on my way and forget to wear them for another 6 weeks :)

...why do people think that I'm taking first session driver's ed and second session health? wtf? At least two people have thought that so far. How would that make any sense? 6 total weeks instead of 3? Uh. No thank you. And why would I care when second session started if I was taking first as well? Then I'd know when it started, because as soon as first session ended then... second would start O_o I know when it starts now, though. July 12. Three weeks from today.

Spiderman 2 comes out a week from this Wednesday. We need to see it. The following Friday is Warped. How spiffy. :)

So far summer hasn't been too bad, I guess. Everyday, something's come up. Thursday I got the tenor and went out for lunch with my mom. Friday was Ruby's. Saturday was spectrum. Sunday I went out with my parents. Today movie and Annie's house. Tomorrow tenor/clarinet lesson. I think stuff needs to happen everyday :) Except... eh. Well when summer school starts, then... I will have stuff everyday. Hm.

...yeah, ok.

Like whoa. o_o David's new hair. It... grew. Almost reminds me of Adam Lazarra's. Hm. It was odd at first, but... I'm kind of... more... eh. Used to it now. It's not bad.

Yes, this was an important post.

Hm. I had this dream last night, and like... there were these two pools. And then... I odn't know. People were swimming and all and there was this guy. And... there were judges? For some reason? And the guy was getting all these people to help him do something? But it was bad? But it was for the judging thing? I.. don't really... remember. Or I don't think I understood it then, either. Anyways. So, uh, yeah. And then... like he tried to get me to help but I was all no, so he started... clawing at me? And I had scratches on my legs, a large one on my right thigh, from him and then I was all "I'll tell the judges what you're doing!" and then all of a sudden I was all... wait... I should do that! so I was all to him "In fact, I think I'll do that now!" and he was all "No!" but I did, and the judges were all "...I see." Hm. Then there was this other part that... I stayed afterschool at UNI for some reason, but then... the incoming 9th graders from Rancho were all coming for.. orientation? Kind of? But I was still in the room, and so was someone else I know but I don't remember who, but then they called us incoming 9th graders and we were all "No! We're going into 10th grade! We're not new here!" and... it was odd. Then I had to call my mom to pick me up but she was in the room too so I don't see why I needed to call her.

..yeah. My dreams don't make much sense to me either.

I was lying on the couch this morning while I was waiting for my waffles to finish toasting and my mom was all "Did you stay up late last night? You look dead-er than usual." And i was all "O_O;;;;" internally because I did actually stay up till 12:30 but I was all "No!" offendedly and she was all "Oh, all right. But it's ok, you're allowed." Or something. And I was all "I am?" to myself but...didn't say anything. I think she might know that I stay up later than I'm supposed to o_o but then it's all right? What? Ah! Or perhaps I really did look dead-er. And perhaps she just meant that like... since I looked like that.. did I have a tough time getting to sleep last night or something? And if so, then I probably sounded more... defensive than I should've. Oh well. I was freaked out, though. My mom knows too much x_x

Watched music videos this morning. Ah. So nice. It's like a Monday morning ritual. Good videos I saw... uh... "The Anthem", "Float On" by Modest Mouse at least 3 times, "Take Me Out" by Franz Ferdinand like 3 times, "Memory" by Sugarcult, "Vindicated" by Dashboard Confessional, uhhh.. yeah. And then on Fuse they were showing reruns of Celebrity Tastemaker, and they reran the one with Simple Plan! Yay! Heee the spinning! The almost kiss! Awwww. Plus, like... all their videos except DWTAY. Nice. It was cool. Got me all... Simple Plan-y. I really want their new CD to be out now x_x

During the commercials on Fuse, they advertised for on Wednedsay morning, like... Warped Tour day! And and and in the morning? TAKING BACK SUNDAY! ee :) It starts at 11, but that's eastern, so... I'm going to bug my mom to wake me up at 8 on Wednesday so I can see it :D Ah I really love not having school right now. And being in second session summer school :) Awww no one's online, everyone's either sleeping or at summer school. That's ok. I'll have it in... 3 weeks. Then they can all laugh at me as they have nothing and I have school. Eh, I'd rather have a three week break anyways. Then three weeks of school, then 3-4 weeks off, then band camp. It's kind of... better. In my opinion, at least. I just... need to find out when summer school actually starts.

Hm. What else? I'll probably just spend the rest of the morning reading Sluggy and fics [...x_x found a new pairing I reeeally love, but there's not much of it]. My lessons are now going to be on Tuesdays at 1 pm, and I believe they'll officially be on tenor instead of clarinet. Good. That means I don't have to practice whatever he assigned for clarinet back... 3-4 weeks ago. :)

I really want to see Spiderman 2. It's coming out... a week from Wednesday. Need to see it with people :) I don't know if we'll be going to spectrum the following Saturday, so... yeah. Because that Friday is Warped. And yeah. Er. :)

Today wasn't too bad of a day.

Finished Speaker for the Dead last night, the sequel to Ender's Game. Really good book. I was wary of it at first, simply because... I really loved Ender's Game, and it didn't seem anything like it. And it isn't. It's an entirely separate book. Still, it's a great book on its own. Plus, like... before, the end of Ender's Game didn't make much sense to me, and when rereading, I usually just... don't read the end. But now it makes a world more sense. It completely sets up where Ender is in his life at the beginning of Speaker for the Dead.

My mom was bugging me this morning. I don't remember why. The only thing was like... my SP signed poster, from Warped last year, the large one on my door? It fell to the ground because the tape stopped... being as sticky as it needs to hold it up. I haven't gotten around to finding the tape and sticking it up again. My mom was all "Why is that on the ground! You need to put it up! It's signed! You don't want it ruined!. The thing is... it's not the physical signature itself that I care about. I don't. Who cares? It's ink on poster-material. It's like... the memory the signature holds. The fact that I have that signature because I met Chuck at Warped last year and...kind of talked to him a little. And I'll still have that memory without the signature and without the poster. Besides, have you seen it? It's completely beat up [...posters and mosh pits don't mesh well]. Like being on the ground for a day is really going to put it in that much worse of a condition?

Saw the end of Pirates of the Caribbean finally. It was actually a lot better movie than I expected. Not bad at all. Sure, it was somewhat predictable. But... it was still good. And... you know. I've never found Orlando Bloom hot before. Never. But somehow, in this movie... he's... a lot hotter to me. Gah. x_x. But yeah. Pretty good movie. Only took a year since it's been out for me to see it in its entirety. Eh. I'm a procrastinator.

Went to dinner with my parents for Father's Day. Wasn't bad at all. Talked mostly about band and school. It's worse when they just talk themselves about crap that doesn't apply to me at all, like... the kitchen being remodeled, or my dad's latest case, or whatever. That's like... eh whatever. Oh, and I finally told my mom I wanted my hair straightened and cut before band camp and preferably after summer school ends. She agreed. So. Yeah. That's going to happen soon-ish. Well, ok, 1 1/2 months. But still. Oh, and I'm going to be taking tenor sax lessons from my clarinet teacher instead of clarinet lessons [er, he teaches numerous instruments, not just clarinet] so... that's good. It's not... incredibly easy x_x The low notes are really hard to get at first. Like, I kind of can but... I need more work. I've only practiced it... like... 3 or 4 times so far. I'll progress much more with a teacher. I... hope.

Mm. That's just about it. I'm going to continue to catch up on Sluggy as I was earlier today. :)

So, went spectrumming with Annie, Tiffany, Adri, and Tina. Uh. I was hoping it'd be really great. It... really wasn't as much fun as usual. One of the crappier times I've had at the spectrum, really :) Kind of felt like me and Annie could've left and they wouldn't have noticed. x_x Sigh. Whatever.

Got the new Bad Religion CD. They didn't have the new The Killers CD that I've been wanting for months. Sigh. Got some candy and a magazine too. That was it. I don't have that much money left.

Oh. Saw Galaxy there with some people. Uh... yeah.

I think I'm just going to read for the rest of the night or something x_x

So. Morning started off blah. My mom woke me at like... 7:30. After breakfast, I just crawled back into bed and slept until about 10:00 anyways, though. Then things picked up.

See, last night I entered one of my fics to this elite_writers community, where people who are good writers judge your fic, and if you get a good enough score [100/130 or above] then you're apart of the community and you judge peoples' fics too. So, I submitted one of my fics for the hell of it. Eh. It was an all right fic, but I don't think it's my best. It's just one of the ones I've read not as much as my others, so I'm not as sick of it. Anyways. Submitted.

Checked this morning, and 2 people have judged it so far [there are only like... 4 people accepted as of yet, since it's a pretty new community]. One person gave it 127/130. Another gave it 129/130.

That's like serious whoa. And not that many get that high of a score. *_* My score was the highest yet. Someone after me got a 128. But... whoa. Still. Major whoa-ing. That's a rather large confidence boost right there.

Mmkay. So that's my morning. Rather good so far, except I have a funny taste in my mouth from going back to sleep again. I think it's because I had milk for breakfast. Milk leaves a funny taste. I'd get some water, but my kitchen's being remodeled and I don't want to have to go past all that. So I'll just drink some stale water bottles from a day or so ago that are in my room :)

It's sad. At first, before summer started, I was all "Summer's going to suck. I'm going to sit in my room all day doing nothing and miss everyone until band camp and I'll have a terrible summer except for every other Saturday and July 2." And then... right after school ended, I was all "Hm. Maybe it won't be so bad," because I found a bunch of stuff for me to do and then there was the beach party and eh... I thought things would go ok.

Then today... things kind of... partially crashed for me. And it's really not that great of a summer for me. This... better not be an indication of what's to come.

Yeah. I really hope tomorrow's good.

Uh. Went to Ruby's with Soan and Jackie. That was kind of... sad. Because we expected Annie and Andrew to come since Jackie told Andrew to come bring Annie or something? I don't know. But like, something where Jackie thought Andrew was going to bring Annie. And we waited a little and they weren't there so we ordered and then... we finished. And we got candy and sat for awhile and then it'd been like 1 1/2 hours by then and wherever Annie had been before that [IVC?] it ended at like... 5. So we called Annie and then apparently somehow... "Bring Annie to Ruby's" to "Tag along to Sarah's pool party" to Andrew, and so Annie and Andrew were at Sarah's pool party. Which... I knew nothing about. Uh. x_x I didn't even know Annie and Sarah talked at all anymore outside of like.. seeing her when she comes to school sometimes or that one time at RUby's and then saying how much she misses her but never actually caring enough to try to make an effort and see her. Uh. Whatever. That was pretty disappointing. Especially since I had something to tell Annie. Which I've forgotten now. Mm. Then we also called Richard who was at spectrum with Galaxy and Soan told them to come by after for dinner if they wanted, and then we called after we called Annie and Soan asked if they were on a date and Richard said yes? I think? So uh, they didn't exactly want to come hang out with us. So we then went to Barnes and Noble and I read part of the next Miles Vorkosigan book I'm going to buy [but didn't, since I need to make sure I have enough money for the Bad Religion and The Killers CDs tomorrow] and Soan and Jackie read manga. Then... home-age. It wasn't bad, don't get me wrong, I did have fun. It's just... somewhat disappointing. It just... could've been better? Yeah.

Ah. And I feel bad. For telling Tiffany mo x_x But... I just... haven't seen her without any of them in awhile. Since like... 2 weeks ago. And then the next time I'd have a chance to see her without them would be another 2 weeks. And that would be like... a month? And that's too long. Eh. It's like... it's not that I don't want them there, that's not it at all. I just... miss seeing her. And it's different if it's not just... me, her, and Annie. Or at least, when it's not with people I'm really close friends with. I don't know, I don't feel I act as much myself when other people are there? I feel more withdrawn, too. It's just... eck. lkajsf;lkj x_x

Oh. My PSP started working again. I opened it like 5 times, [didn't open] restarted my computer several times, opened it a lot more, and then all of a sudden I tried again after restarting it once last time [actually the reason I restarted it was because my AIM was going wonky and Jackie IMed me but because of it I could see what the IM actually said, so I had to restart my computer, and then... I tried PSP and it worked] and... uh, yeah. It worked. Yay.

Uh. I thought today was going to get a lot better. But then... eh.

I still think we need to hang out more during the summer though. Ack. I can't accept it's summer, because it just doesn't look like summer, you know? I feel like... small break, and then in a week or two, we'll go back to having the same classes and the same teachers. Like, I accept we have a break, but then... I feel like when we return during fall, we'll have the exact same teachers/classes we have now. Like, I'll go back to school, and I'll still have Hefferpuffer. Um. Ew.

er. The antenna of my cellphone snapped while in my pocket today. Uh. Heh. That's not so great. It still seems to work fine for now, though, so [shrug]

Yeah. I agree with Jackie. We should go to the beach more. Beach parties are fun, man :)

That's it. This is rather random. I'm feeling... odd right now. Um. Yes.

All right. I'm about to either go suicidal or homocidal.

My PSP isn't working.

I think my computer decided that one virus wasn't enough, and it needed to acquire another, because... PSP isn't working, Windows Media Player has been all funky for the past week or so, and it continuously runs out of memory when I have like... nothing open except AIM and one window of @Home [...er better alternate to Internet Explorer, because IE kills my computer].

Goddamnit I NEED A NEW COMPUTER.

Oh, and of course, there are the matters that both my printer and Microsoft Word don't work.

...I want my PSP...

Got the tenor this morning. Ha. She almost forgot to come. She said at like... 10:20 she was sitting in her pyjamas watching something or doing something on the computer, and then was all "...hm, I have to be at the school in about 40 minutes." She was like.. 5 minutes late. But I got the tenor and I got a book. Then we stopped by at home for like 5 seconds and then my mom took me to Jim's to get some reeds and a swab. Then had lunch at Golden Spoons, which is across the street. And... that was it. Went home, it was... 12:40.

Now I'm bored! Yay! Psh, I shouldn't be bored, I have a bunch of crap that I could be doing. Eh. I'm going to practice tenor sax later, but right now I don't feel like going all the way out to the living room to get it. Heh.

Ah. I think we should do something tomorrow x_x Otherwise I'll be stuck actually doing like... work. Psh. It'd be foolish to actually try to accomplish some of my goals for this summer!

Oh, heh. Something that amused me.

Uh when Danny and Tiffany and all were there, Jackie and I went over to Danny to tell him he looked like a girl from far away. Then... he started like... getting in our faces so we'd back down or whatever, but I was all "Psh, I'm going to just stand here" and... uh.. we were like pushing against each other and he's obviously a lot stronger than I am because... uh, he is? And then all of a sudden Alex like ran at him and was all "You don't beat up bandos!" or whatever and it reeeeeally amused me.

Uh, what else can I remember about the beach party? Justin was voted cutest freshman guy! Aw. Lori was voted most likely to become an "exotic dancer" [coughakastrippercough]. uhhh I think... I'm not positive but I'm pretty sure that Jonathan Bonilla was voted one of the two for most asian. heeeeeeeeeee. errrr OH Pranav was voted worst marcher. Bwah. Considering he was constantly like... switching off from in band to out of band, it's not surprising. Plus, everyone hated him, except for like, Alvin. But Alvin doesn't count because dude, he's Alvin. Dude x_x Like... Monday? I think? Or last week? Er I was in the band room and Pranav came in x_x If he's joining band for some reason I'm going to like... gack and die. I hope he's not. I don't think he is. But it was like "wtf, Pranav?! Er, did someone just transport me to October or something?"

OH! Hee. Jackie drew an abstract exact likeness [...that's not a contradiction at all...] of Rosa with ketchup on a plate. Oh, and with relish. For boogers :D And we went around seeing if people could tell who it was. Most people guessed Rosa! All right, I suppose part of it was like "Oh, it's the disgusting thing over there with the white pants and pink shirt! It's a she! A disgusting, disgusting she. Standing to the right of [insert person here]. That thing. [point]" Heh. Galaxy got it with us just saying "It's a disgusting thing." Hee.

mmkay I believe that is it. Yeah. It was fun.

Mm. Band Beach party. Woosh.

That was fun. :) My feet feel so... ack. I took a nice, warm bath, and that made them feel better. They're still... ack. It was a lot of fun though :) Tiffany, Tina, Danny, Denny, and Colin showed up for awhile. Denny was kind of... an... idiot. Gavin reminds me a lot of him, actually. Hm. But, uh, yeah. Cool seeing them momentarily.

but gaaahhh I hate that summer's here now. I'm actually starting to get to know people in band [er, that I didn't already know from Rancho] and feeling all comfortable around band people. And then... oh hey, look, summer! Gah. x_x

Getting the tenor sax tomorrow at 11 :) Ah and she has a fingering book and stuff for me too, so I won't be like "er... [puts down fingers and blows] I think that was a... uh... Ab!" So, yes.

...nothing more to say.

Oh. Except. It was kind of sad... that Michele Wong was reading aloud all the results from the Vegas voting things and for Best [Potential] Couple, the people voted were Cindy and Nathan. Uh. Heh. I saw him hugging her a lot after that.

Mmkay. That actually is it.

Have a nice summer.

I like how... I click on the intro movie for a computer game online, and it tells me of all the stuff I have to do, all "Only you can save the special place that I've forgotten's name" and then 5 seconds later it tells me "However, it's completely impossible to save the place." Heh. I kept waiting it to add "...without the help of your magic dragon" or... you know... something. But... that was the end of it. O_o Heh.

[plays it anyways]

Summer Goal List Type Thing; in which I set numerous goals for this summer and accomplish none of them.

Practice bass clarinet and tenor sax scales enough so I have all the scales memorized and can play them well. If I practice enough, I should be able to fend off the 8th grader when chair tests roll around, and possibly even beat Andrew. Hey, that's another goal! But not for this summer. That'd be difficult.

Memorize the show. Huh. To do this, I should probably figure out how the last rhythm goes, because I've forgotten.

A.P. reading.

Summer Reading book reading. I need to finish the first book and buy the second two. Well, and read them too.

Read a lot. I plan to finish Bujold's Miles Naismith Vorkosigan series and possible the Ender's series.

Finally watch LOTR 2. Yes, the one I got for my birthday. Yes, the one I haven't watched at all.

Summer Schoolness x_x Uh. Yeah. Pass driver's ed and health.

Get learner's permit. 15 1/2, right? Ah. Less than a month, man.

Play guitar. It's been like... nearly a year x_x

Take everything off my walls and reorganize them completely.

Cut, straighten, and streak hair. After summer school, most likely.

Get a goddamn new computer.

Find more concerts to go to. All this summer so far is Warped. While it rocks, I want to go to more.

Ask mom if I can do bird cages everynight for money. See if she has any other stuff for me to do for money. Without my daily lunch money income, I'll have like.. nothing. And you can't buy CDs with no money, I've found.

Catch up on Sluggy Freelance.

Catch up on Wigu.

Um. I think that's enough. x_x Wow. Ok. So I might not be too bored this summer.

Geometry Final: Not too horrid, actually. It was rather easy. Nothing I didn't know. I made some stupid mistakes though, which I found when... the answer I got wasn't one of the choices. Heh. So I'm assuming I made stupid mistakes that I didn't catch. But I think I managed an A, or at least a high B, which is very good.

Snack: I thought I had my math book in my backpack. I didn't. I left it at home. So, after waiting outside Jackie's math so I could give her the money to give to the person selling me her A.P. books [$70 for the book and three studyguides. Not too bad. Still need the optional reading books, though.], I ran over to the band room. My mom wasn't home x_x I called her cell, and she had like... just left. So I begged for her to turn around and find my math book and give it to me, which she finally agreed in doing. She said later that she could barely find it in my room. Goddamn cleaning people x_x They put it under this stack of crap so I couldn't see it and be all "Oh look! My math book! I need to turn that in!" Bah. Then I returned the math book and Antigone [shut up]. They took Antigone easily, despite how beat up it was. But then... well a month or two ago, some idiots poured like maple syrup and koolaid down the top of the lockers around me, and so some koolaid got in my locker and onto my math book. Gah. The lady was all "[frown] I shouldn't take this" but I was all "But it really wasn't my fault!" and explaining things and all and I think I sounded desperate enough that she was all "All right, it's your lucky day. None of the words were smeared and you can still use it, though I wouldn't want to have this book, so I'll take it." Le sigh de relief. It really wasn't my fault, though. Gah. And it's in fine condition otherwise. Just... the top and bottom are a little... uh... pink. Galaxy bought me cookies [er, with my money] while I was waiting in line, and so I had some of the great cookies for the last time all summer. Awwwww. Can have them again next year, though!

Science Final: Uh? Some of the questions were... uh. Odd. I don't know. It was just... weird. Badly worded, I guess. Heh, the last question was what unit of science was our favorite this year. Mine was chemistry. I wonder how she'll grade that question; it is scantron, afterall.

Hm, so my mom couldn't pick me up until like... 12:30ish today 'cause she had a bunch of stuff she had to do, so I wasted time standing in line with Jackie for her summerschool schedule and then walked in basically a complete circle past the front of the theater, through the band room area, right to where the vending machine next to the bathrooms [the closer and crappier one] is, through up to the 300's, then to the right and down where cars come to pick people up. I sat there for like... 10 minutes and then she came.

So. Yeah. BEACH PARTY! From 4:00-9:00, whoo. Ah, I'd like to go earlier like... everyone is, but for some reason Galaxy can't take me till like... 4, or something. Eh. I should just go by myself, it's not like I actually need a ride. Whatever. x_x I'll still have like... 5 hours there. That should be enough.

Ah. So now I'm bored :) I think I'm going to watch Buffy DVD's of season 2 after my mom brings back food for lunch until 3:45, and then head down to the school. I think I might walk to school. It'll waste some time, and it's all downhill. Yeah. I may just do that.

Mmkay. Enjoy your... uh. Day? And good luck on finals to Annie tomorrow. Stupid Woodbridge with their finals on Thursday. Psh.

Hm. So. Tody wasn't too horrid.

Global Final: Wow. That was eeeasssy. Galaxy said that everyone got an A/A- when she checked the grades afterschool. I think I'll check the grades uh... x_x Before school. Yes. Because at snack I have to return my math book, Antigone [...shut up.], and buy cookies in the lunch line for the last time EVER. ...the lunch line's still open right? Good.

French Final: Ha, I was so distracted throughout French. I kept feeling naseous. We graded our finals, and Kim said I got a 90 on it. So yeah. That's good. Not like I was worried about French. Mm, big deal, I maintained my A. Woohoo.

So, that's it!

...oh, wait. I seem to recall something else. Hm. Oh yes! The Wind Ensemble auditions results. Right. That little thing that I totally and completely wasn't obsessing over all day!

Yeah. Jackie beat Alvin! She's first chair! Wooooo! Galaxy made it too! Yay!

Mm. And me. I made it.

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:D:D:D I'm second, too, after Andrew. The supergood 8th grader is 3rd. Either I beat him or she put all the eighth graders last. And I'm pretty sure that's what she did, since... uh... they were all last. And Galaxy said this one person she knows is like really good, and better than like how she knows some people in WE play, and she was still last. So. Uh. Yeah. There's a chance I didn't beat the 8th grader and he's better than me. That's ok. I'll just practice all summer long! :) Yay! I don't care what chair I'm in, as long as I made it to wind ensemble. Eeee.

Ah, after that, went to Cindy's house with Cindy and Galaxy. We studied Geometry and Science. I think I'm fully prepared for science! Yay! I'm going to study geometry a little more tonight. Otherwise... yeah!

oooh. Band DVD's! I'm so watching it after dinner :)

Mmkay, that's it. Pretty damn good day.

So. Uh. Graduation.

A little after I got there, Galaxy and I found that our English final scores had been posted all day, so we ran over to the class to find that our English teacher had just taken them down. Nice. But then we went in and she showed us. I got an 81 on the final. Uh. Heh. I thought I had actually done better than that. Oh well. It was a really crappy final, anyways x_x Besides, I still have a like... 94.9 in the class. So I'm satisfied. An A is an A, and it's not like I'll be able to tell the difference between a 94.9 and a 96 when I get my report card.

Mm. So the graduation bit. Yeah. Playing Pomp and Circumstance 20-some-odd times wasn't very fun. The time I was most sad during the ceremony was at the beginning, when the principal was announcing all the people at the head of the like... board of education and the superintendant and stuff. Uh. O_o;;; I think it wasn't really about that, I was just sad because... graduation was starting, and that meant all the seniors were leaving and etc. The beginning just happened to be during that time, so I was sad during that, but not because of that. Er, yeah. I love how like... whenever a band person was announced, the entire band cheered. Awww. alksfjd dude we need to play it every year and not every other year x_x I wanna say goodbye to the seniors next year, and besides, all we'll have is symphony people to cheer for us when we graduate. Ack. Such poo. I don't know any symphony people. Psh. And they don't seem all spirited, they seem like they'd just sit there and ignore us. Psh.

Um. Otherwise? Yeah. It was whatever. Felt kind of sad on the way home. In three years, that's going to be us. Crazy. You know... I thought I'd really hate high school. But... I don't think I want to leave it x_x You know, minus the work and crap. Psh, work is less in high school than college anyways. Sigh.

My mom was being a poo on the way home.
Mom: So, how was it?
Me: uh... graduate-y?
Mom: [sarcastically, but like... dramatically?] So, did you play Pomp and Circumstance?
Me: [looking as if I really am not in the best mood to talk] Um, yes? Were we not supposed to?
Mom: Right, what else would you play?
Me: Uh, Fanfare and Recessional?
Mom: [didn't hear, sarcastic and "emotional" again] So, did you cry?
Me: [ready to cry] Uh.
Mom: Were people crying? [same annoying stupid sarcastic emotional voice]
Me: I don't know! What do you want me to say?! It was a graduation!

Whatever. It was just... really bugging me, and I was feeling crappy already. Ah.

Psh. If I feel this sad this year, when I barely know any seniors, imagine how I'll feel junior year. Oh, god. x_x

I need to study for global. People keep saying it's easy, but Andrew told me and Jackie 2/3 of the choices for essay questions and... I don't know either answer. And I assume that the test will be a bit easier if I actually... know some of the stuff from this semester. Which I don't, at this point. Sigh.

Tomorrow. Global final. French going-over-the-final. Band finding out about wind ensemble results. Uh. I'm getting really nervous about that. x_x

OH! Anyone from Rancho band last year remember Cyrus? That clarinet player? I sat next to him pretty much all year. Uh. I'm almost positive he's doing marching band O__________O that's crazy. I didn't exactly... figure him for the marching band type. He doesn't seem like he even likes band. I would've figured he'd do sports O_o Odd. I heard he's doing more percussion now. Hm.

All right. That's it. I should be studying now, but I really don't want to.

From kabalarians.com

Your first name of Michelle has made you a hard worker with a meticulous sense of detail. You have a great deal of patience and independence, and you can be relied upon to complete your undertakings. You could be inventive along scientific or practical lines. You are stable, trustworthy, homeloving, and logical in practical matters, but rather unresponsive to suggestions from others. You resist change.

That... wasn't incredibly accurate, at least IMO. I'm not really a hardworker, but... eh, sometimes. No meticulous sense of detail, though O_o I have absolutely no patience whatsoever [psh, I get that from my dad]. Uh. Independent, I suppose? I.. wouldn't say I can be relied upon to complete my undertakings x_x I abandon things often. I'm.. not really inventive, either. Eh, not completely stable, but I guess. I'd like to believe I'm trustworthy. Er, homeloving? I believe I'm logical in practical matters... Eh. I can be unresponsive to suggestions from others, but I have been working on that this past... year. And... I resist change at times, but then other times.. change can be good.

So, yeah. That's not incredibly accurate :)

Ew no, dates of CDs are being pushed back too much x_x Simple Plan's new one was originally around September, and now it's Novemberish. Good Charlotte's was going to be early/mid September, and it's been pushed back to October 5 x_x Gah. Oh well. At least... new The Killers and Bad Religion and shit. I'm getting those this weekend :) And new Taking Back Sunday July 27. Ahhh can't wait for that. But still x_x Oh, and I want DCS3 and The O.C. S1. The first I think might be out already, or at least in the next week or so. The O.C. around... September, I believe. Sigh. I almost wish it were fall already, but with all the good that comes with fall, I also have school. And I'd rather not go to school. bah.

...yeah. All right then.

Hm.

English Final: Uh. I didn't realize knowing what award To Kill a Mockingbird had won was necessary for our English learning. Hm. The English final was stupid. Dude some of the questions, you could write essays on. It'd be like... "Hally's self-esteem was lower than Sam's." Dude. You could argue either side easily. We did not discuss this in class at all. And this is a true or false question! Sigh. There were loads like that, and they really pissed me off, because it's really just based on how you interpret it. You could really argue either side in most of them. It was just stupid. Whatever, I don't need that high of a grade to keep an A in class. She calculated Rosa's or something, and Rosa could get a 0 on the final and still have a like... 93 in the class. O_o Crazy. But, yeah.

Band was nice. We didn't practice graduation music, like I thought. We just watched Pirates of the Carribbean the entire time. Didn't finish it. Blah. I've never seen it before, and I wanted to see the end. Oh well. I may search for a bittorrent later.

...I think that's it? Going to Cindy's with Galaxy [and Justin too, I think] tomorrow afterschool to study for geometry and science. Got to be at UNI for graduation at 2:45. I'll study for global when I get back, around like... what? 7? Dude, that's plenty of time. I... hope... I'd bring stuff to study, like she said we could, but I have a feeling I wouldn't actually study them. I'd probably just watch everyone graduate.

Hm. Ok then.

Tomorrow: global and French finals. Need to go over answers to French final with Galaxy before 6th. Results posted after school for wind ensemble x_x Jackie said that something our band director said made her think that I'm in wind ensemble... but... I'm cynical by nature. So I'll just assume the worst and believe that I didn't make it :) Much less of a let-down.
Wednesday: geometry and science finals. Band beach party afterschool! Looking forward to that :)

Woosh. Wish it was Wednesday afternoon now.

People at LJ are pissing me off so much. This whole stolen icon war thing. Ah.

Ok. So this person is an idiot and can't take 5 seconds to credit someone when they make an icon for people. So. They make a community, whose purpose is solely to steal icons and then share them with everyone else and not give credit to whomever made the original icon.

What. The. Fuck. It takes longer to freaking steal the icons and post them to LJ and make a community at all then credit. And now they're all arguing in that post at LJ. It's here if you want to take a look.

God. These people piss me off.

You know. Some of my best sets of icons? They've taken me hours upon hours to complete. It takes me a lot of time to figure out how I want the icon to look, the text, what I think looks best, etc. A whole set takes... ages. And then these people... if they were to steal that set. It'd take what, less than 5 minutes? All this work I do, for what? So they can steal it? I spend hours and no one gives me any credit for it looking nice at all? What the hell is that? I don't find that fair at all, especially since it takes even less time to credit than steal. God. You just fucking upload the icon, and when you're done, there's a box you can type in keywords. All they'd have to do is type in "made by charmedwillow/woosh_icons". Tell me. Does that sound unreasonable at all? I don't think so. I've spent this long making an icon for you, you can freaking credit me for it.

Ah. And these people are arguing that "Well, you didn't take the picture, did you? You didn't pay for it, so it can't really be yours, and we can't really be stealing. And, anyways, you still have the original, and the definition of theft would mean you wouldn't have it at all anymore! So really, credit isn't necessary, and we're not stealing. In fact! You should really be crediting the people who take the pictures of the people you put in your icons!"

Wtf?! They spent how long taking the picture? 2 seconds? God, that is so besides the point anyways. The point is that we've spent time and energy making a nice icon for people who can't make icons, and they totally take it for granted. If nobody made icons for them, if we kept them for ourselves, then they wouldn't have any icons to steal or use. They'd have to learn how to make icons for themselves and crap.

SERIOUSLY. I don't get the fucking POINT of this all. Someone makes an icon. You want to use the icon. You give them credit. Is that that hard to do?! I really just don't understand. Plus, that's not the only reason for crediting. It's also good because if you see an icon you like, you can check the userinfo to find who made it and then ask for more icons from that person. You can't do that if the people don't credit. They're all "I don't care what you've done, how many affects you've added to it, it's not yours and you can't demand credit." Uh. The photographer really did no work at all. At least not in the photos I use. I mean, I use screencaps a lot. Some of them I even make myself. Am I supposed to credit the... music video I cap? Uh. No. You know, photographers take pictures of, let's say, actors. Should they credit the actors?

Besides. I always credit sites I use in layouts at the bottom of the sidebar anyways.

This is really pissing me off. They're just too lazy to spend 2 seconds putting "made by charmedwillow/woosh_icons/whatever" after they upload [THEY DON'T EVEN HAVE TO GO OUT OF THEIR WAY. THE BOX TO CREDIT IS RIGHT THERE] that they'd rather spend days, weeks, etc. arguing about it. In the time they've spent arguing their side, they could've credited for 1000 icons! God. And I doubt any of them can make icons. Or at least, good ones. They'd understand if they'd spent hours on an icon and then it was stolen.

Whatever. The icons being stolen are really crappy ones anyways. They can't even bother to find good ones to "share" with everyone.

Sigh. It really just infuriates me. Gah.

Ok. Hm. I should be studying for global, but I'll forget it before the final on Tuesday anyways. I'll have plenty of time to study tomorrow, and it's not as if I have to study for French as well. I'll be fine if I leave my studying for history to tomorrow. English final tomorrow. Eh. I think I'll be fine on it. I know most of the information.

Mmkay. :)

Oh, crap. I just realized. Wind Ensemble results posted Tuesday afterschool x_x aaackkk. I just suddenly remembered that and I started getting really nervous. I kind of... forgot about it this weekend. The whole... stress about the audition was over. But... now I have to stress about whether I got in or not. Ah crap. ;alskfj

Tuesday should be over so my global final can be over [eck, I've realized I know like, nothing] and so I can find out the results x_x aaaaack

You know, I realized, all I have to look forward to this summer is Warped on July 2. Then... a week or two later, I have 3 weeks of summer school. Then, 2-3 weeks later is band camp. Ack. It's going to be really... eh. I'm going to do a goals of summer list thing after school lets out. Right now I should really be focusing on finals.

Uh. Can someone calculate the lowest possible score I can get on the global final when I have a 96 in the class to make sure I don't drop down below like... well a 93 would be ideal, but I'll settle for a 90. So, yeah. Anyone want to do the math? x_x I was really worried about it since I don't have to do too extremely well to keep an A in the class, but then I remembered that... I really don't know anything, and if I took the final right now, I'd get, like, an F. And I probably would drop below an A if I got an F on it. Ack.

Yeah. Haven't made flashcards for it yet. I colored my maps though! Sigh. And highlighted the stuff on the sheet I know already [it's like... 4 things out of like... 50.] I'm going to make flashcards for it after I finish the English final tomorrow, before graduation [call time is at 2:45 ah that's so messed up], and then of course, after graduation.

Awwww. Graduation. I kind of wish now that we got to play graduation every year, just so we could see all the people we know graduate. Get to see Brandon graduate, and see him for the very last time ever. Awwww. Oh, shut up x_x

Ack. I'd like it to be Wednesday at 4, right now :)

Fuck x_x Somehow my Fall Out Boy CD got scratches, so whenever I play it, it skips during this one song. And I think it skips like... 2 or 3 entirely. Ack. I burnt it onto a blank CD since I burnt the songs onto my computer months ago, before the scratch, so at least I have all the songs all... ok and all. But still. I like having the original copy, you know? I don't know. Eck. Whatever. It just really pisses me off.

Finished French final. It's... eh. Two pages cut off before the like... question finishes, and the answer depends on the rest of it. So, I can't really... answer them. Eh.

All I have left, though, is to make global flashcards that I can study tomorrow. I don't think I'm going to make science flashcards because I have a lot of time Tuesday to make them and besides, I'm probably studying with people on Tuesday and won't need to. Reviewed English, and I know most of the crap, so I'm not really worried about that.

Hm. I think we should do something on Thursday. 'Cause... I said so, and I'm cool like that x_x