I'm all of a sudden really pissed off. I don't know why. IM me with happy stuff, people. x_x

omfg I NEED A GODDAMN NEW COMPUTER. Ok, back in March, I could manage with this piece of shit. Even back in June, I could still function. I CANNOT FUNCTION WITH THIS COMPUTER ANYMORE. I HAVE TO RESTART IT MULTIPLE TIMES A DAY. A LOT OF THE TIME, MULTIPLE TIMES EVERY HOUR. IT RUNS OUT OF MEMORY WITHIN 5 SECONDS OF ME BOOTING IT UP, MAKING IT IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME TO MAKE GRAPHICS AND, MORE IMPORTANTLY, TALK ON AIM WITH ANYONE. I CANNOT PRINT ANYTHING. I CANNOT USE MICROSOFT WORD. I CANNOT USE A VIRUS SCAN, BECAUSE IT FREEZES IN THE MIDDLE OF THE SCAN EVERY GODDAMN TIME. AD-AWARE NEVER CATCHES EVERYTHING. I'M GETTING "IExplorer error" MESSAGES EVERY 5 MINUTES THAT I HAVE TO CLICK OK ON AND WHICH COMPLETELY FUCKS UP MY COMPUTER. HALF THE TIME WHEN I RESTART, I'LL HAVE TO RESTART AGAIN BECAUSE IT'LL FREEZE BOOTING UP, OR IT WON'T BOOT UP AT ALL. I CAN'T SHUT MY COMPUTER DOWN BY START>SHUT DOWN BECAUSE IF I DO, IT'LL RANDOMLY BOOT UP 10 MINUETS LATER, SO I HAVE TO SHUT IT DOWN BY THE SOURCE, WHICH FUCKS IT UP EVEN MORE.

I CANNOT LIVE LIKE THIS.

Mm. Remind me to not have sugary substances 5 minutes after I have experienced an awful sugar crash. It doesn't help matters.

how am I supposed to know if someone read my fic if they don't freaking comment or mention it to me at all?! geez. x_x

my sugar high crash was.. bad x_x I had a lot of sugar today. I didn't realize it, but I did. But it's ok now! :)

;laksjdf;lakjsf CAN I QUIT LESSONS NOW?! PLEASE?! newteachernewteachernewteacher

I want my AP goddamnit x__________x;;;;;;;;;;;; I think the mailman is stealing it.

my room is hot. I wish my room wasn't so hot. Why does my mom have the air conditioning blasting at like 8 AM so I'm freezing all morning and then not have it on at all at like 8 PM, when it's the absolute hottest in my room/house? Gah.

I'm just a bundle full of complaints right now!

I wrote a fic. It's utter crap. I need to start writing better. I was writing fics for awhile that weren't too bad. Fics I'd actually... want to read. But... I don't want to read what I'm writing now. It's not good. I need better ideas. I need to write better. Sigh.

uhhhhhhhh yeah. Whatever. It's really really hot.

Sugar high go boom.

Michelle go die.


Excuse me while I pass out.

Went spectrumming with Annie and Tiffany :D That was muchos fun. I got 4 CDs! Amber Pacific "Fading Days" [omfg I couldn't believe they actually had it! eee], Alkaline Trio "Good Morning", Letter Kills "The Bridge", and The F-ups "The F-ups". Woo.

We saw a lot of people there! We saw Rotem and Lauren and Alex Vu and Sam Han and and... other... people... er...oh! We saw Cindy! ...ok, I think that's it. But that's a lot!

Then we started calling people.

Tiffany: [calls Denny] Hello? [pause] This is Tiffany! [pause] ...hello? ...Hello?!

Heeeee. People hung up on Tiffany a lot. That was amusing :D Oh and we insulted people a lot like Danny and Joe! Yay!

Oh, and we saw Ruben at Johnny Rockets and he gave Tiffany a free cherry coke and he served us which was cool 'cause he hasn't served us in a longgggg time and he rocks.

Oh, and Annie had told us she couldn't come, but then like at 1:30, she randomly showed up and we were like "WHOA! IT'S ANNIE! YAAAAAAAY!!!"

mmkay.

OH! Ok. My parents' friends' daughter works for KROQ, and then... her mom called to tell us that Striker, a DJ at KROQ, would be at South Coast Plaza tomorrow from 1-3 at some skate shop and that we should come. I think I'm going to. Anyone want to come with me? It'd be more fun if there was someone there with me who wasn't my mom.

mm what else? I'm going to get my permit on Tuesday! Yay! So that means I can get my license February 3. That's only... 20 days after I turn 16. Not too bad.

ok, I think that's it. It was a cool day.

"Shirts made with the thread of lies!" heee.

"Do you want to go [some... place I don't know]?" "No." "Ok." "Wait, is that with the people with the annoying kids?" "...yes." "No." heh. Riding in the car with Tiffany and her mom can be really really amusing sometimes.

Geez, I had the most horrible dream last night.

I don't know what happened at first, but I some stuff happened before this. Anyways, my mom, my dad, and I had just walked into a mall and this guy... on like a second level was dropping this chair down into its spot below and I was concerned that it would fall on us and then like... all of a sudden my mom was saying "Oh god, I think I'm having a heart attack" and she was on the ground and before I could think about doing anything, the chair the guy had dropped knocked into this thing that was like a vase and it hit this little boy in the head and he was saying "I think there's a hole in the back of my head" because after it hit him... it wasn't a vase, it was like... a large, green, plastic, triangular chip [not the kind you eat, the poker kind], and so everyone was focused on that instead of my mom who was having a heart attack and then I turned back to my mom and she looked dead and I started crying and my dad was calling 911 or whoever on his cell phone repeatedly and I kept saying "She's dead, it's not going to help!" and then he finally insisted, "Don't worry, I'll save her" but for some reason they weren't picking up and she was just lying there all... dead... and I was positively bawling because... my mom was dead.

...yeah. That was my dream. And I remember thinking when my dad said he'd save her, "No, now she's definitely dead, because whenever people say that in the movies/on TV, they always die and then the person they said it to blames them forever," and even though I knew that, when he didn't save her, I still ended up thinking "He said he'd save her." It was really sad! When I woke up, it had to be like... 3-4 AM in the morning, and I started crying, because you know... when you wake up, even though you've like... woken up, you still think it was real because it felt so real, and so I was crying at first because I thought my mom was dead, but a few seconds later I calmed myself down and realized that it was a dream. But then I started crying again because... I don't want to lose my parents, ever. And I know I'll have to one day, but it just... sucks. Plus, my parents were so old when they had me, that like... they'll probably die when I'm in my 30's-40's, and that really sucks. sigh.

Yeah, so... that was a really awful dream. I know it probably doesn't seem so bad, but... it felt so real, and I was convinced my mom had died. x_x

Woo! New layout. Told you so.

About This Layout:
This is a Buffy layout. Header is of Buffy in The Gift. Small images are from the season 1, 2, 3, 5, and 7 finales. Chose to do this because... I did. Er. I don't know. Not sure how I got this idea. I just... oh! I was looking at blend challenge sites and this one had a The Gift layout and it was saying "a scene that meant a lot to you" so I was thinking of doing a The Gift blend, and then when I went for screencaps, the first page was of course of the first scene, and I saw the caps and was reminded of the "...but you're just a girl" part ['course, I realized after I had merged layers and saved and gone on and crap that I had the quote wrong, and she actually says "keep saying that" instead of "said that" and I wasn't sure which it was when I was doing it and my computer'd been too fucked up to check, and "keep saying that" sounded awkward to me, so... yeah. Deal with it. Not that big of a deal] and so I blended that, and then I got the idea for having pictures of other times Buffy kicked ass. So yeah. I like it, but I can't promise it'll say, since I said that for the P/J one and that lasted a few days. And the last one I thought'd last, and that lasted even shorter. So yeah.

uhhhh ok then. My nose is cold. Is it weird that I've been freezing cold this summer more often than burning up and sweating like a pig? Stupid air conditioner. There's just no winning with my room: either the air conditioner's off and I'm burning up and sweating like a pig, or the air conditioner is on and I'm freezing my ass off. Sigh.

mmkay.

Great day :)

First off:

Got a schedule for marching band today. First field show is October 9. The next is October 30. Provided neither are changed, I'm totally fine to go to the concert. :D

Second!

Went to lunch with Jackie, Justin, Soan, and Andrew. Albertson's area. It was cool.

Ooh and somehow the age of my mom got brought up. Everyone thought my mom was in her mid to late thirties. Heh. Uh if you don't know her age, she's 55. She's actually older than my dad [only by 4 months]. Yeah. I think she looks like she's in her early-mid forties, but then I know her actual age, so... she probably seems a little older to me because of that.

Anyways! I want a new layout x_X Both here and at my LJ. Sigh. Maybe tonight? Provided my computer doesn't act like an ass, as it's apt to do.

Oh! I heard "Just Like You" by Three Days Grace on the radio today! That was really cool, especially since... the video for that has been out since June, at the latest, so I thought the time had passed for it to be played on KROQ. But then, with I Hate Everything About You, I saw that on All Things Rock in September and heard it on the radio in October/Novemberish for the first time. But then again, that was the first single, and first singles are more likely to be played later than second singles. ...and I don't know what my point is. But yeah! It was cool!

...so. New layout. Soon. x_X

After doing some searching around, I found the competitions on October 16, 2004:

Bonita Vista Field Tournament (Chula Vista)
Etiwanda - Artistry in Motion AM - PM
Simi Valley HS Field Tournament
Valencia HS Classic (Placentia)

The only one that sounds vaguely familiar is Simi Valley, and that might only be because I've heard the city before. The rest of them I don't recognize in the slightest. Loara's not even till October 30. I may have overreacted a bit. Where is Simi Valley? Isn't it far? I don't think we'd compete in that. Right?

...I'm going to check if I can find a list of school participating.

...the Simi Valley tournament is their own band spectacular. It's in west Ventura. As in, LA area. I'm almost positive we wouldn't have a comp there.

None of those events seem like anything we'd do. Plus, last year, the first field show we went to was October 18. So, it seems likely that we might have one the week after, but not October 16. ...ok, so Oct. 16 is only 2 days before Oct. 18.

...ok so my dad said that we could totally have a field comp in Simi Valley because that's not THAT far. But.. but... it honestly doesn't sound familiar to me. Like... in the sense of what field shows we're going to. I remember out of 3? there was only 1 I didn't recognize. I think. Maybe 2. Well that one doesn't ring a bell. I'm like... 75% sure we won't have a field show October 16. Won't kow for sure though until band camp. Sigh. Another reason to await it eagerly!

a;skdjf i really want to go to this concert.

...I'm suddenly very afraid that we're going to have a marching band competition on October 16. It's just my luck that that would happen. And we have more comps in October than any other month, don't we? Or is it November? We have at least one in October. oh fuck this concert is like... al;skjdf I'd much rather go to the concert, as much as I like marching band. ugghh. And the band website only has up to September, in which there are no comps. We have... what? 3 comps, right? al;ksjf I'm really really scared right now that we'll have one that Saturday. gaahhhh. Irvine didn't finish till late. I forget about Loara. I think it ended while it was still light out. alskfj but omfg ahhh I have to go to this concert. I'll just... pray that we don't have one October 16. asfdj;lajk

OH MY FUCKING GOD.

Matchbook Romance posted the dates of the first leg. There was one at the place the SP/MXPX concert was in LA on a Friday night. There was also one in a place called Redlands the next day.

Me: You know that band that I had to get the CD immediately from last Tuesday that's like, my favorite band ever? ...At the moment?
Mom: Yeah
Me: Well see, they have this fall tour and they're going on it with these other two bands that are like, my other favorite bands and I've wanted to see one of them for like, ever, and well, they have a show this October on a Friday night! so it's not a schoolnight, but... it's at the place the SP/MXPX one was at.
Mom: It's impossible to get to Hollywood on a Friday night. If you left afterschool, you wouldn't get there till 10 pm.
Me: ...but... I... really want to go.
Mom: Are there any other dates?
Me: There was one in like... Red...woods or something?
Mom: What's the zipcode?
Me: I'll check.

[checks]

Me: It's 92373 [...or something similar to that]. And actually it's Redlands, not Redwoods.
Mom: Oh! That's on the way to Big Bear, practically. A easier than LA.
Me: And it's on a Saturday! We'd have plenty of time!
Mom: Yeah, Redlands is definitely possible.

eeeeeeeeeeeeee <333333333

...I'm pretty sure that was a yes. She didn't actually... say yes, but... that was a yes. Right?

It better be. This is the best lineup for a tour like, ever. Well, at least for like, a year. That I've known about.

;alksjf;lkjasflj omfggggggg :DDDDDDD

omfgggggggg!!!!!! Taking Back Sunday tour this fall! eeeee! a;sldkfjl AND DO YOU KNOW WHO'S ON THE FIRST LEG OF THE TOUR WITH THEM?! HM?! FALL OUT BOY AND MATCHBOOK ROMANCE!!!!!! <333333333333333333

...second leg is Atreyu and Funeral For a Friend. I don't like Funeral For a Friend [at least, I checked them out back in like February and I believe they were too screamo]. Atreyu I've heard like one song which was all right, but I don't know much else.

la;skfjdlk;asjf they better come to CA on the first leg. al;kdfjlkajsdf omfgggg :DDDD well even just TBS would kick major ass, but a tour with TBS, FOB, AND Matchbook Romance?! I would die. In the best way possible. And hopefully after the actual concert.

alsdkfj I must go.

So, apparently I'm done with summer school entirely.

Driver's Ed final. Freaked out that I missed way more than 3 on the multiple choice section. Only missed 2. So that's done with.

Health test. Easy. Finished 5 minutes before the end of class. He was all "If you finished it today, then... have a great summer" and everyone was all "We don't have to go to class?!" and he's all "...I didn't say that" because... I don't think the teachers are supposed to tell us to not come, but then he was all "And if you finish early, and you have to go to the bathroom... for the rest of the period... then..." Heh. So yeah! No more summer school! Kind of sad. But band camp's not... incredibly far. And it'll be so nice to sleep in.

mm that's it. I still want my AP x_x It better come tomorrow, or I don't know if I'll be able to hold out Saturday x_x

Ok, so I've been iffy on Katie Holmes in the past. Usually she's a really good actress, seems nice, etc., but there were some points during DC where she was utterly craptastic and I heard some really horrible things about her. But... she's totally and completely redeemed for me now. Because, after this:

Katie is 100 percent PJ. In the beginning of season 6, she said Dawson and Joey have a manipulative relationship. She said Joey and Dawson should never get married. I also heard she said Joey and Pacey had the better love affair. She picked her favorite moment on the show with Pacey during season 5 nonetheless. In the behind the scenes of the finale, she said it ends the way it should. She also said Joey had a crush on Dawson the first season, but Pacey and Joey's hate turned to love. Katie said she didn't believe in soulmates.

and:

I remember [Katie Holmes] and [Michelle Williams] going to the writers about giving [Joshua Jackson] more screentime in early season 5. He was suppose to have less scenes.

I am officially in love with her. Well, not like that. But... that's really awesome of her. And the whole "Katie said she didn't believe in soulmates" bit? <333 Heh, I bet if she did pre-Dawson, it was all the "soulmates" crap through the run of the show that made her turn against it.

Plus, she cut her hair and it is safely one color again. No more two-tone, brown/orange shit. Her skin is no longer orange either. Niiice. I might actually want to see the movie with her and fishboy [Fishboy! Fishboy! ...but... didn't he marry Sam and is in the Costa Rican rain forest with some secret branch of the government chasing after demons? Of course, coincidentally enough, Katie's character in her movie is named Samantha. Ooh. Crazy. Though it'd be even crazier if character was named Buffy. Heh. But anyways. Fishboy! ...why am I so excited about this again? I don't like Fishboy! Sigh.] She undid the damage and doesn't look half bad in it. Despite the fact she and fishboy have the chemisty of a dead fish. ...hey, wait a second...

Taking Back Sunday was on Loveline last night! Heee it was aaaaawesome. ;lkjasdf omfg PSA on airplane turbulence ja;skdfj;lakjsdf fucking most hilarious thing I've heard in like, ever. Or at least, like, a month.

Driver's Ed was... the same. Only one more day of it left! Health was also the same. Only two more days left! Awww summer school's ending. That's sad. Except I look forward to being able to sleep in to 11 AM everday. Except Saturday, for some reason. I don't know.

uhhh taped Taking Back Sunday performance on Jimmy Kimmel last night, so I watched that when I got home, and then I watched the Warped Wednesday I had taped where Sugarcult hosted! Uh some good videos: I'm Just a Kid - Simple Plan [geez they looked so young! Awww this brought back really good memories], The Anthem - Good Charlotte [same as IJAK, with the memories and such], something by The Early November [BUT DUDE! THE EARLY NOVEMBER! AH! <3], I'm on Fire - Motion City Soundtrack [a;lsdkjflkjasf <3333333], Give it Up - Midtown, Somebody Told Me - The Killers, Red Hot Moon - Rancid, Stuck in America - Sugarcult, Memory - Sugarcult, and I'm too tired to remember anymore. Oh, wait. There were a few others. They played A Decade Under the Influence - Taking Back Sunday. Twice. And then there was A Favor House Atlantic - Coheed and Cambria. Twice. And then there was Vindicated - Dashboard Confessional. Again, twice. ...yeah, something was going wrong with Fuse. Like, I like those videos and all, really, but... twice? Really? I'd have liked to see one of the early TBS videos x_x Oh well.

uhhh I think that's it. geez I can't believe summer school's almost over. I was really dreading it and I thought it'd be absolutely horrible, but it wasn't bad in the slightest. Sigh.

I want my AP x_x

..yeah, so I already changed the margins and printed out another copy. I'm such a perfectionist x_x It's JUST at the bottom of the third page now, but it looks way better.

Then I watched the footage on the Taking Back Sunday video!

Hee. "Digital wonderland." I <3 Adam in a completely non-teenie way. It's more like a... omfg he's sooo gay [...not... in a negative way. He's just quite... feminine] and in love with Jesse and John awwww too bad John left the band and ahhh he is just so... ahhhhhh. He's made for slash, man.

Adam in a thong. Uh. o_o That was either incredibly amusing or it scarred me for life. ...leaning more towards the amusing. It would be more scarring for life if I'd seen him from the front, but thankfully all I saw was his ass :)

Adam with his hair in a ponytail! [are you noticing a theme in these bullets?] He should do that more often. It looks nice. I like his hair a bit shorter [like his hair in "You're So Last Summer" video (or at least, I think that's the vid), the more... emo in-style one right now], but the longer hair looks really good in a ponytail. Well it's more of a pollyanna, because it's not THAT long, but... yeah, it's good.

Adam: "I love you in the best way a man can love another man." Best way, huh? [wink wink, nudge nudge] I mean really, it's not like I have an overactive imagination. This shit writes itself, man.

omfg HEEEE. Ok, so it was like the last day of a tour and everyone in Taking Back Sunday was hugging each other [er separately, not group hug]. And... well you know how guys always do the whole... when you're hugging another guy, pat him on the back so you're still manly and not preceived in any way as homosexual? Well they were all doing that, EXCEPT when Adam hugged Fred. I saw absolutely NO patting. And it wasn't like they did that for everyone, because right afterwards, they turned around and hugged other guys, and they did the patting thing. Awwww <333 Except Adam should be with Jesse [John acceptable as well], but... it was still cute. Geez, it's slash. Of course it's cute.

...yeah. Noticing the pattern with that being all Adam focused. But... like I said... I'm not teenie over Adam. It's more like... teenie over Adam's obvious homosexuality. :D

Ok I'm done here.

I finished my term paper for health :D You know, I'm really proud of myself. I told myself I'd do the term paper tonight, and by golly, I did. AND, I didn't have to reach to make it three pages. In fact, it's just barely reaches a 4th page. Thought, the margins are 1 1/2 and it's double spaced, so if it were 1 inch margins and 1 1/2 spaced, then it'd probably be just at the bottom of the third page. I didn't realize how... like... small? it looked before printing, so I may even go back on my mom's computer tomorrow and change the margins and/or spacing [probably just the margins, actually. I mean, he did say it was ok to have it double spaced]. But in any case, it's done, it's what he required of us, and it's not half bad, if I do say so myself. I actually really like my intro, my first paragraph. Then the rest is quite informative. History of bipolar disorder, [oh, did I mention that's what I did it on? Well, I have now] what exactly it is, symptoms, causes, and treatments. Then the last paragraph sucks, because it's on why I chose the topic, so it sounds horrible, but... the rest is fine. I think I may even get a decent grade on it. !! :D So I'm uplifted about that. Wasn't nearly as bad as I thought it would be. Took me about 1 1/2 hours. But woo, I'm done. Didn't procrastinate at all! ...well, tonight. I shouldn't be so excited, because whenever I think I've done well, I end up doing a lot worse than normal. And plus, I really don't know how he'll grade it. It's not as if he's going to grade it as an English essay, it'll probably just be more for research, and I think it'll be ok, but... I just don't know. I shouldn't really get my hopes up. Actually, I really shouldn't think about it at all :) He has like... only one or two days to grade it, though, so... I don't think he'll be grading it too closesly. Ah. Stop thinking about it. I need to return to uplifted, because everytime I start to worry and overreact, it's over absolutely NOTHING. So yeah. Finished term paper, it isn't too bad. Plus, I mean... I researched schizophrenia on my own back in... February? and... mental disorders and such interest me. So it wasn't like it was particularly painful learning about it.

Allllllll riiiiight. I think I'm actually going to go back to my mom's computer now and print it re-margin-ed because I'm a perfectionist like that, and then return here to watch the enhanced shit on the Taking Back Sunday CD :D

it's been a pretty damn good day, so far.

!! guess who got the new Taking Back Sunday CD that just came out today? :D:D:D

Driver's Ed was eh... we prepared to turn in our notebooks on Thursday. I calculated that I have enough points that I could miss 50 points on something and still have an A in the class. Nice. So, pretty much guaranteed A for Driver's Ed.

Health... I'm... not so sure. We never turn anything in, and so I have to do well on the term paper to get an A in the class. Eh. x_x I'm going to do that tonight. Seriously. Made a deal with myself.

In health he told us to write down the perfect way to break up with someone and he read them aloud.

Some Guy's Answer: I'd run her over with my car and kill her so I wouldn't have to worry about hurting her feelings.

Errr. Remind me to find out who that guy is and to never, ever go out with him. o_O

Mmkay so then. On Tuesdays my mom and I drive to the Golden Spoons in the area across from where Jim's Music is. Somehow we finished our frozen yogurt at like 12:30, so we had half an hour till my lesson and it'd take like... 10 minutes to drive there. So... 20 minutes to kill. My mom asked me if there was anything I needed to buy at Jim's or anywhere around there and I was all no. But then... Ok, so you know how I've been saying that I was considering asking my mom if we could go buy the new TBS CD the day it came out and all, but I ended up not because I didn't really want to ask her since... I feel like I ask her for so much anyways. So yeah. I never did. But then when she asked me this, I was all suddenly "Are there any CD stores near her?" She said no and then I quickly was all "Well see, this band, who's like my favorite band right now, they have this new CD out and it just came out today and normally I'd wait to go to Spectrum, but... well I've been waiting for this CD since like March and... I was kind of wondering if we could get it on the way back from the lesson." Then I added it might be somewhere like Target or Walmart since people were comparing prices of those places on livejournal. My mom said that there was a Target in the Marketplace center, which is right on the way to the lesson.

Well, that place is confusing, so we ended up not finding it till about 12:50, and I had to go to my lesson at that point. So we scurried over there.

I'll just... not comment on my lesson, because I'm in a good mood and would rather not remind myself of my lesson, since, as you know, my teacher fucking sucks and I'd like to hit him with a piano.

But then, the lesson ended, and we drove back to Target. I went to the TBS area of the CDs and it wasn't there, but usually with new CDs, they have them out instead of in the artist section. So my mom went off to ask and then there was this whole... like... shelf of new CDs and THERE IT WAS. WOO. So I got the new Taking Back Sunday :D:D:D

I have this problem with bands where, I'll like the first CD all great, or even I'll just like a few songs I've heard by them, and I'll eagerly wait their CD, and then... it ends up not being nearly as good as the songs I heard or the first CD [Sugarcult, The Killers, Midtown, etc.] I've been really afraid the same would be true of the new TBS. But... I really like it. Like, I do like the first TBS more than the new one, but then... I think I feel about it the way I do about Good Charlotte. Like, the second is definitely better lyrically and musically and all, but for some reason, I just... like the second more. Course even though I don't like the second as much as the first, I still love it. Like, I'll find myself thinking "A Decade Under the Influence and This Photograph is Proof are definitely two of the weaker songs on the CD" and then I'll get to them, and I'll be bopping along and grinning and still really enjoying the songs. So yeah. I think with time, I might even like it as much, or more, as the first.

mmkay. so good day, so far :D I guess I probably could've waited till Saturday spectrumming but.. hey, the opurtunity presented itself and... I really, really wanted it x_x The new AP has Taking Back Sunday on the cover! And now I'm actually getting it in the mail, since my mom got me a new subscription, but then... well last month's came like... 2 weeks late. x_x So I'd rather not wait for it. Sigh. But I suppose I'll wait another week before going out and getting it myself. It still has plenty of time to come. Usually comes right before the new month.

Home is where you make it, folks.

Whoa, that was creepy.

This Pennywise song on KROQ ended and before the next song started up, the beginning of Incubus "Talk Shows on Mute" started in my head and then like... 5 seconds later, that song started up. O_o That was seriously freaky. I'm like, psychic. Like. Whoa.

a;lskdjflk;j I'm seriously going to murder my computer right now. I NEED A FUCKING NEW COMPUTER. I CANNOT TOLERATE THIS PIECE OF CRAP ANYMORE. x_x!!!!!!

Heeeee. Health class today:

Cunningham: This is the exterior side view of the male genitalia, commonly known as the penis. Slang for it would be... [pause] I... probably shouldn't say that.

That amused me.

Er and then. Ok, there's this dude in my Driver's Ed. Now, there is one of three things going on:

He washes his clothing everyday.

He has numerous pairs of the same pair of boxers.

He wears the same exact boxers every single day.

...if it's the last one, then... ew. x_x It's not my fault for noticing! His ass is at my like... head [...well ok, closer to my chest] and his shirts are tight-ish and pants are loose and always hanging down and his boxers are these bright, bright red things that are like... glaring at me and... yeah.

oooookay then.

[In the last 24 hours, have you]
01. Cried: yes; my computer was frustrating me horribly. And still is.
02. Bought something: no
03. Gotten sick: not that I know of
04. Sang: uhh probably. I find myself all of a sudden singing randomly along to the radio and don't remember when I started quite often.
05. Eaten: er, yes
07. Felt stupid:yes! for overreacting about Driver's Ed today.
08. Wanted to tell someone you loved them, but didn't: ...no. I've never been in love with anyone, except if you count platonic love, in which case I tell them.
09. Met someone new: errr it depends. The girl who talked to me some last week talked to me more today. But then, I kind of knew her last week. But THEN, I'm getting to know her better.
10. Moved on: ...from... what?
11. Talked to an ex: I don't actually have an ex, so that'd be hard to do.
12. Missed an ex: see above!
13. Talked to someone you have a crush on: no crushes for me, thank you
14. Had a serious talk: uhhhh... no. OOH but that reminded me of something that has absolutely nothing to do with this! I'll blog it after this survey.
15. Missed someone: eh, sort of. Not like... a person specifically, just like... all my friends.
16. Hugged someone: no
17. Fought with your parent: er... I don't think so
18. Dreamed about someone you can't be with: ...no...

[Who]
01. Have you known the longest: Of the people I'm still good friends with now, Annie. Of all my friends that I still see every once and awhile, Adriana.
02. Do you argue with the most with: er, of my friends? No one. Of... everyone? My mom, probably. Or stupid people on livejournal.
03. Do you always get along with: all my friends
04. Is the trustworthiest: er, I'd say they all are
05. Makes you laugh the most: ...again... all...
06. Has been there through all the hard times: ...I haven't exactly... had any hard times for anyone to help me through
07. Has the coolest parents: ...I like mine... :)
08. Have the coolest siblings: er... I don't know anyone's siblings very well.
09. Is the most blunt: ...no one?
10. Is the smartest: your MOM. OOOOH. or Rosa x_x Damn her.

[Personal]
01. Who is your role model: Pierre, Chuck, and Pat, because they created the clothing line! har dee har har. ...er x_x No one.
02. What is some of your pet peeves: eh don't get me started x_x
03. Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with: uhhh O_o
04. Have you ever cried over the opposite sex: not that I remember
05. Do you have a "type" of person you always go after: I don't actually... go after anyone.
06. Have you ever lied to your best friend(s): I don't have a best friend. :)
07. Ever wanted to get revenge on someone because they hurt you: sure
08. Rather be dumper or dumped: ...I wouldn't like either. I'd be too chicken to dump the person, but be more hurt if I were the dumped.
09. Rather have a relationship or a "hookup": relationship
10. Want someone you don't have right now: er. no? O_o
11. Ever liked your best guy/girl friend: no
12. Do you want to get married: eventually, yeah
13. Do you want kids: ...it seems very painful, and they stick needles in you a lot x_x I'll have to consider it more
14. Do you believe in psychics: no
15. Do you believe you know the person whom you will marry at this point in time: uh. An emphatic no. O_o
16. What is your favorite part of your physical appearance: ...uhhh... my... lovely... left eyelash? The verrrry leftest one. Ooh, is that attractive.
17. What is your favorite part of your emotional being: ...wtf? O_o
18. Are you happy with you: at the moment, yes
19. Are you happy with your life: at the moment, yes
20. If you could change something in your life right now, what would it be: uhhhhhh. Can I say I'd change George Bush being president? :) ...I don't think so, but I'm choosing that anyways.

Yeah. x_x The last one wasn't even up a week. Sigh. But it was getting old to me. Even though I liked it a lot. And said it'd be up for a long time. Yeah. Ever notice the layouts I say will be up for long go away quickly, and the one's I say are temporary stay for months?

Mmkay. Uh, this idea has been floating around in my head for... about a week. The text says "Where You Want to Be", which is the title of the new Taking Back Sunday CD [WHICH COMES OUT TOMORROW. <3 must go to spectrum Saturday to get it x_x!!] and is also a line in "Set Phasers to Stun", the first song on the CD, and one I like a lot. Not that I've listened to the CD more than 5 times. But... still. I like that one.

allrighty. My computer's being a complete ass! I seriously need a new one x_x I haven't had a virus free, completely working computer for 2 years. gah.

x_x I should practice. Goddamn practice tomorrow. Maybe I could convince my mom to take pity on me and take me to a CD store to get the new TBS? ...probably not x_x

please make me stop overreacting x_x

Ok, so the whole behind-the-wheel assignment? First thing, he checked all of ours to make sure we had 5. I thought that was it, so I started to relax, but then he was all "Michelle, put one of yours up on the board" and I was like "o____o" but I did and other people did too. Geez the contact for the place I put up, I put David and then when he was looking at the board he was all "Good, we have contacts up! Like David at Newport Driving School!" and I was all "...er... heh..." Then he collected them and I started freaking out because I'm right by his desk and I could see him grading them and looking over at some other sheet and comparing some and I made up the price for one of them, so I was freaking out, but then... he handed them back and I got 25/25. Sigh. Seriously. I need to not freak out.

The insurance project he graded too. 80/75. Woosh. But I wasn't really worried about that.

uhhh what else. Driver's Ed is practically done for me. I mean, all we have is the final Thursday, but I'm really not worried about that, since I know the info. I told my mom to enroll me in driver's training so I can take my permit test either Friday, this weekend if they're open on the weekend, or on like... Monday. So hopefully I'll have my permit by next week.

uhhhhhhhh yeah, ok. Nothing else. Life is boring. We only have 3-4 more days of summer school. Awww. It feels as if it just started.

...I want a new layout. Already. Sigh. I'm so fickle.

I like how I go from constant blogging to nearly 2 days without blogging.

So. First order of business. Know my whole plan for getting work done this weekend? Well I somehow left it to both the assignments due Monday, I did tonight at 8 and didn't finish till past 10. And the term paper I was going to do tonight? Yeah. I didn't. I'll do that tomorrow. Or... Wednesday at 10 PM.

uhh first the insurance report? Never called Progressive. I just used the quote. He told us to mention the person we called and the address. I just gave the phone number. Sigh. But how much is he going to take off for that? Like, 5 points? I already did the sign the page thing which gives me 5 extra points. Plus, it's like... 3 pages. That's good enough, right? I'm really not so worried about that.

But then, there's the behind-the-wheel driving school list. Crap. Made up contacts for all 5. Made up prices for 3. Made up when we can start for all 5. And the thing is, you can't BS this as well, because he said he was probably going to make a list compiled of them all so we could use them. And it's one thing to have different contacts, but different prices for the same school? Uhhhhh x_x I really hope he doesn't check or look too closely x_x Oh well. Nothing I can do about it. Most of the places aren't open Sunday, and they're definitely not open this late, and it's not my fault the sites don't fucking list the prices. Gr. It's only 25 points, right? Sigh. I really shouldn't worry about it, because whenever I do start to worry insanely, everything turns out absolutely fine. I can't wait till a week from today. Then this will all be over, AND I'll have the new Taking Back Sunday CD. Hopefuly. And possibly even my permit. [I'm thinking about asking my mom if we can go Friday.] Sigh. laksjfdklj ugh even though I know I shouldn't worry, I am. Like, what if he does find out and then gets all grr and gives me a 0 on it? 25 points is... kind of a lot. I've done well enough so far that I think I would be ok without it, but... still. a;lkfdj aaaaaaagh. I can't help but worry. Whatever, he likes me [actually he likes me so much sometimes, he seems really creepy O_o] so maybe I could be like "...oh, I must've written it down wrong" or "...wait... I thought that's what the person said, though! I guess I misheard?" sigh.

...seriously. I need to not freak out.

Mmkay so next. I was going to practice tonight, but it ended up taking more time than I realized. So now it's 10:30, and I've only practiced once this week. Gaaahhh. Whatever, I'll just practice now for like 5 minutes. x_x I really want to quit. I dread lessons with him. aks;fklja;sf

Ah today. Went to dinner with my parents, aunt, and her... whatever, Brett, for her birthday. That was blah. I really dislike my family :) At least Brett didn't make too many comments. He's usually really condescending and arrogant. And my uncle wasn't there, which is good. Still. Blah.

ok. practicing now. right.

As much as I like summer school... right now, I really want it to be over.

I don't know what up with me and the constant blogging. O_o

Ok, gotten from a livejournal community. They said that there's a chance this list could be a parody. Even so, there are plenty of lists very much like this that are serious. Anyways.


Okay, my friend found this list a church made about how to tell if your kid is goth/satanist (apparently the two are one and the same all the sudden).

Put an X next to things that apply to you, a + next to things that sometimes apply to you and a - by the things that don't apply to you at all.

xFrequently wears black clothing.
xWears band and/or rock t-shirts.
+Wears excessive black eye makeup, lipstick, or nailpolish.
-Wears any odd, silver jewelry or symbols. Some of these include: reversed crosses, pentagrams, pentacles, ankhs or various other Satanic worshipping symbols.
+Shows an interest in piercings or tattoos.
xListens to gothic or any other anti-social genres of music.
+Associates with other people that dress, act or speak eccentrically.
xShows a declining interest in wholesome activities, such as: the Bible, prayer, church or sports.
+Shows an increasing interest in death, vampires, magic, the occult, witchcraft or anything else that involves Satan.
-Takes drugs.
-Drinks alcohol.
+Is suicidal and/or depressed. [...to clarify, not the suicidal part. The depressed part. But not often. Just every once in awhile. Hence, the plus.]
-Cuts, burns or partakes in any other method of self-mutilation.
xComplains of boredom.
xSleeps too excessively or too little.
xIs excessively awake during the night.
xDislikes sunlight or any other form of light.
-Demands an unusual amount of privacy.
+Spends large amounts of time alone.
xRequests time alone and quietness.
xInsists on spending time with friends while unaccompanied by an adult.
xDisregards authority figures; teachers, priests, nuns and elders are but a few examples of this.
-Misbehaves at school.
-Misbehaves at home.
-Eats excessively or too little.
-Eats goth-related foods. Count Chocula cereal is an example of this. [heee. Ok, this is totally a parody.]
-Drinks blood or expresses an interest in drinking blood.
xWatches cable television or any other corrupted media sources.
+Plays videos games that contains violence or role-playing nature.
xUses the internet excessively and frequently makes time for the computer.
xMakes Satanic symbols and/or violently shakes head to music.
-Dances to music in a provocative or sexual manner.
-Expresses an interest in sex.
-Is homosexual and/or bisexual.
+Pursues dangerous cult religions. Such include: Satanism, Scientology, Philosophy, Paganism, Wicca, Hinduism and Buddhism. [in the sense that I research, not... follow.]
-Wears pins, stickers or anything else that contains these various phrases: "I'm so gothic, I'm dead", "Woe is me", or "I'm a goth".
-Claims to be a goth.

If five or more of these apply to your child, please intervene immediately. The gothic culture is dangerous and Satan thrives within it. If any of these problems persist, enlist your child into your local mental health center.
~St. Mary's Catholic Church


Oh, darn. Someone better intervene. I'm clearly a satanist/goth. Because they're the same thing. Right.

Catholics are against abortions.
Catholics are against homosexuals.
But, I can't think of anyone who has less abortions than homosexuals! -- George Carlin

Hee.

All American Rejects or Aramaic:	never heard of Aramaic, so AAR
Muse or AFI:	AFI. I like Muse a lot, but AFI owns you
Goo Goo Dolls or Savage Garden:	...I don't know either well
Taking Back Sunday or New Found Glory:	Taking Back Sunday
Good Charlotte or Simple Plan:	Simple Plan
Feable Weiner or Hot Action Cop*feva for the flava*:	...neither
AFI or All AMerican Rejects:	AFI
Fefe Dobson or Avril Lavigne:	...ew to both, but Fefe Dobson isn't nearly as detestable as Avril, so I guess her
Green Day or The Offspring:	Green Day
Blink 182 or Story Of the Year:	Story of the Year
Yellowcard or Pillar:	Yellowcard
Pillar or Third Day Wire:	...never heard of either
Three days Grace or Sugarcult:	Three Days Grace. What? Did I just put TDG? I mean... I like... Sugarcult more. But... TDG was somehow my first instinct. So I'll keep them.
Matchbook Romance or My Chemical Romance:	Matchbook Romance
The Used or Taking Back Sunday:	Taking Back Sunday

Bands/Artists vs. Bands/Artists brought to you by BZOINK!


You know, I've realized that keeping a blog as like... detailed as mine? or whatever... it takes the fun out of telling people things. Like, I'll try to tell someone about like... lemme think. Like ok, I'll try to fill in the silence by like... talking about this dream I had that was really cool, and then they'll interrupt and be all "Oh, I know, I read your blog." It's like... well... fine then. Be that way.

..yeah, anyways. More surveys probably to come, because I'm bored :)

Yeah. One of these. I've been in survey mode recently.

::15 Random Favorites::
1:	music
2:	The O.C.
3:	friends
4:	livejournal
5:	black
6:	Paintshop Pro
7:	KROQ
8:	Taking Back Sunday
9:	concerts
10:	history
11:	fanfiction
12:	slash
13:	beach parties
14:	sleep
15:	just-baked warm chocolate chip cookies
::14 Favorite Foods::
1:	just-baked warm chocolate chip cookies [Mrs. Fields owns man]
2:	chocolate mousse
3:	fries
4:	pizza
5:	watermelon [HA! One semi healthy food]
6:	...ok I don't really care about food, so I'm sort of running out. Ice cream?
7:	popcorn
8:	whipped cream
9:	black bean and rice soup
10:	sesame chicken at Chinatown
11:	indian food [x_x I forget which dishes specifically, but they're awesome, especially all mixed together with rice]
12:	cake!
13:	pepsi should count x_x
14:	nachos, with the ounces of oil and disgusting plastic cheese. Yum.
::13 Most Watched Shows::
1:	Buffy
2:	Charmed
3:	Angel
4:	The O.C.
5:	Dawson's Creek
6:	Everwood
7:	Gilmore Girls
8:	Fuse in general [Warped Wednesday! Woo!]
9:	Queer Eye
10:	TRL in the past, but I haven't watched that for months.
11:	Felicity
12:	Tru Calling [even though it sucks major ass]
13:	uhhhhhh I used to watch Sabrina the Teenage Witch. It was actually pretty good, before her senior year in high school. Then it started sucking.
::12 Good Bands in your Opinion::
1:	Taking Back Sunday
2:	Something Corporate
3:	Bad Religion
4:	Matchbook Romance
5:	Amber Pacific
6:	Simple Plan
7:	Mest
8:	Coheed and Cambria
9:	Fall Out Boy
10:	Anti-Flag
11:	Just twelve is hard x_x Uh NOFX
12:	Green Day
::11 Memories::
1:	waking up at around 6 AM Saturday mornings, walking to the family room, finding my dad doing exercises before going jogging, and just... spending time with him. I miss that.
2:	My first sleepover, when I was 6. Heh. That was... heh.
3:	Meeting Ilana and Paige when I was 3 at pre-school. Making friends was so easy then. "Hi, do you want to be friends?" "Ok."
4:	Scoring my first goal at a soccer game when I was in 4th/5th grade.
5:	Qualifying time for swimteam championships in both butterfly AND freestyle. Freestyle was cool enough, but butterfly? Holy fuck, I used to suck at butterfly!
6:	The e-mail from Susan telling me that my "best friend" at the time wanted her to tell me she didn't want to be friends with me anymore.
7:	First day of 7th grade. Initiating a friendship with Annie. Just... everything was so different. So much better than elementary school.
8:	The petition in Humanities. Heh. You know what I'm talking about. And if you don't... well... fine. Be that way.
9:	Spectrumming nearly every weekend for over a year now. There have only been a few instances where I haven't had fun at spectrum. Usually it's really great.
10:	Marching band. All of it. I can't choose just one moment.
11:	Warped 2004. I can't choose every concert I've been to, because that would take up most of the numbers. I think Warped 2004 was one of the top few if not the best I've been to
::10 Close Friends::
1:	...oh god, I really don't want to have to do this.
2:	I mean, it's like... ranking friends.
3:	I don't want to put any of my friends over any others.
4:	I don't want to have to choose only 10.
5:	All my friends are equally amazing, and it'd be hard to get by without any one of them.
6:	So you know what?
7:	Screw this entirely.
8:	The people that I'm close with know that I'm close with them.
9:	I don't need to list it out for everyone else.
10:	Thank you, and good night.
::09 Things you're looking forward to::
1:	Band camp. Shut up.
2:	Whenever the next concert is! Hopefully soon.
3:	Warped 2005. Woo :D
4:	Wind Ensemble
5:	a;slkfj TAKING BACK SUNDAY CD NEXT TUESDAY! <333
6:	next spectrumming
7:	sleeping in tomorrow morning. Which really is only to about 9 if I'm lucky, but that's so much better than 6 AM, and last Friday night I didn't sleep at all.
8:	for when I finally get a new tenor teacher. aslf;kj ugghh. It'd probably help my case if I could figure out why I hate him so much. I really can't. He just... grates.
9:	er... next A.P.!
::08 Things you wear daily::
1:	shirt
2:	contacts
3:	pants
4:	underwear
5:	bra
6:	headphones
7:	socks
8:	shoes
::07 Things That Annoy You::
1:	certain... people. Who sit next to me in Health.
2:	Bush
3:	Hilary Duff
4:	homophobic people, or really, any type of like... judgmental in that sense pepole
5:	the fact that I have to get up at freaking 6 AM for summer school when it ends at 12 and we could easily start sooner and end later
6:	conservatives
7:	bible thumpers
::06 Things You Touch Everyday::
1:	computer
2:	clothes
3:	desk
4:	CD player/radio
5:	bed
6:	er... water bottle
::05 Movies You Could Watch Over and Over::
1:	...i'm not really into movies. I don't know. Uh... Matrix [first one]
2:	10 Things I Hate About You
3:	...eh I really liked The Notebook, but I don't know if I could watch it repeatedly. so I won't go with that one. uh x_x
4:	Ocean's Eleven
5:	a;skdfj geeez I watch movies, I really like movies, I really like watching movies, but I never have a favorite movie.
::04 Of Your Favorite Childhood Toys::
1:	Fluffy! My doggy. She's somewhere on the floor of my room.
2:	Claire. She's my other doggy. I got her a few years after Fluffy. She's Fluffy's sister.
3:	My reTARTed duck I got at "boomers" today that isn't a monkey. Duck love! Come on, who can't enjoy the duck love? ...ok, so this isn't really childhood, but still.
4:	uhhhh. my entire beanie baby collection? there's a lot.
::03 People You Have Kissed::
1:	...my mom.
2:	...my dad.
3:	...uh... I licked Annie's hand once. Does that count? ...probably not.
::02 Of Your Favorite Songs::
1:	...only two? O___O;;; well, currently, "Thoughts Before Me" by Amber Pacific
2:	"Timberwolves At New Jersey" by Taking Back Sunday
::01 Person You Could Spend the Rest of Your Life With::
1:	...no one, really. After awhile, they'd drive me crazy, I'd drive them crazy... it'd just be... crazy.

Countdown brought to you by BZOINK!

...I have an idea for a fic. Hm.

Ok, my dream last night!

...I actually don't remember much. There were kind of two different dreams.

The first, I really don't remember much except there was this gigantic movie theater, it was like...not a normal movie theater. I can't explain. It had like... it wasn't a box. it had like... places that went in and out of hte room and shit. alfkj I can't describe. It was cool. And then we were watching a movie and then were sneaking into another through this little... place? al;dfkj it's so confusing. I really didn't get it. But it was cool.

Ok then my other dream was awesome. For some reason I was at the airport with someone and then I saw Melinda Clarke, the woman that plays Julie on the O.C. and I started going "omg should I go over there?" and then I was like "Ok, I will" and I was walking over and my heart was pounding and THEN I saw Peter Gallagher, the guy who plays Sandy on the O.C. and I was freaking out anymore because he's like even better than her alsfkj and then there were other people from The O.C. all of a sudden, and there was like no one crowding around them and then I saw ADAM BRODY who plays Seth and I was like... I remember feeling so nervous and my heart was pounding so hard but I went over and talked to them about... something. Oh and it was really amusing, because in my dream, Adam Brody was shorter than me. Heh. He was like... 5'2" or something. Heh. But that was sooo awesome.

ok, that's it. The first was odd but cool, the second was like als;dkfj whoaaa.

Stolen from Lulu, because the one at Jackie's blog said only 15, and Lulu's didn't. ...you... care... I'm sure.

Bold what makes you smile the most.

1. Falling in love. [probably, but I wouldn't know]
2. Laughing so hard your face hurts. [...no, that just makes my face and stomach hurt]
3. A hot shower. [...I don't like hot showers]
4. No lines at the supermarket. [...I don't often shop at the supermarket... so I wouldn't care.]
5. A special glance.
6. Getting mail. [Especially if it's AP!]
7. Taking a drive on a pretty road. [well, if I'm driving...]
8. Hearing your favorite song on the radio. [:D:D:D DUI! A Favor House Atlantic! Mr. Brightside! Christmas By The Phone!]
9. Lying in bed listening to the birds outside. [x_x I've heard enough bird chirping the past 9 years of my life, that hearing birds outside really isn't that spectacular anymore.]
10. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer. [no, but hot clothes are really nice. Unless it's hot outside.]
11. Chocolate milkshake.
12. A bubble bath.
13. Giggling.
14. A good conversation.
15. The beach. [beach parties!]
16. Finding a 20 dollar bill in your coat from last winter. [money always equals a smile]
17. Laughing at yourself.
18. A huge sale at your favorite store. [...if it were like... FYE or Hot Topic or something, maybe...]
19. Midnight phone calls that last for hours. [except not phone calls, AIM, since i'm supposed to be asleep by 11.]
20. Running through sprinklers.
21. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all. [then people stare at you and it makes it all even funnier :D]
22. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful.
23. Laughing at an inside joke. [...although it sucks if you're not in on the joke. But it's good if everyone with you gets it.]
24. Friends.
25. Making other people laugh.
26. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep. [...that actually bugs me.]
27. Your first kiss with that special someone. [...I wouldn't know, but I guess it probably would.]
28. Making new friends or spending time with old ones.
29. Competing with your friend and beating your friend. [...um, no. O_o]
30. Having someone play with your hair. [x_x;;; Like it's fine sometimes, but then... certain people have the urge to braid it during lunch when I've already told them I don't really like it and bug me the entire time until I say yes and then pull on my hair and try to untangle it but end up making it worse. a;dlfkj gah]
31. Sweet dreams. [provided I remember them. OH that reminds me, I had an awesome dream I need to blog about after this]
32. Hot chocolate.
33. Road trips with friends. [I'm assuming. Anytime with friends is awesome.
34. Swinging on swings. [jumping off is awesome too]
35. Making eye contact with a cute stranger.
36. Making chocolate chip cookies.
37. Having your friends send you home-made cookies.
38. Holding hands with someone you care about. [probably, but... I wouldn't know]
39. Running into an old friend.
40. Watching the expression on someone's face as they open a much desired present from you. [when I'm really good friends with someone and I know what they'd want and I actually get it for them... man, I love it. It's awesome to give presents when you know the person very well.]
41. Watching the sunrise/sunset.
42. Getting out of bed every morning and being grateful for another beautiful day. [...um... have you not met me? Geez, every morning during schoolyear the first thing I think is "fuck, not again". Plus, I'm not a morning person! So no.]
43. Knowing that somebody misses you.
44. Getting a hug from someone that cares about you deeply.
45. Knowing you've done the right thing, no matter what other people think. [uh, not really]


woosh

woo.

uh nothing much to comment on about summer school. Gonna do my insurance project tonight after my mom gets back from dinner. Actually, that's going to end up me doing it tomorrow morning and doing the other Driver's Ed thing tomorrow afternoon. Ah, whatever. Then term paper Sunday night. Fun. x_X

err this afternoon was good, though. Went to bowling with... a bunch of bandos that I'm too lazy to remember. But... me, Jackie, Emma, Soan, and Justin didn't really bowl. ...well actually, I did once for Nathan [gutterball!] and Jackie did several times for people. But... yeah. Then to Boomers where we minature golfed [I think I was really getting good there at the end! ...at least the ball was actually staying on the course...] and then... arcaded. You know that... whatsit... Cyclone thing? Where you put in the coin and then the light goes around and you try to hit it when it gets to jackpot? I got it for jackpot and got 250 freaking tickets. Oh, but then I got it again later but I only got 23 when I was supposed to get 70 something because the machine ran out of tickets and I told the person there and she said someone would come but I waited like 10 minutes and no one did so I was all "screw it". I got a duck that's actually really crappy and 10 bouncy balls [though I gave 2 away].

Jesus love! And duck love. Woo.

...oh! And I saw Tiffany there with Danny and whoever.

uhhhhhhhhhhh OH. Yeah. Then we left and Nathan went to tutor place whatever thing [nice description there] and then Jackie to home, and... me and Justin went to Emma's for like... half an hour and sat in the grass. Then home. Woosh.

uhhhh I really don't want to do all these projects/papers. Sigh. al;ksjdf gah. I keep telling myself they'll be easy, all I have to do is this and this and this but then... gah. No. I don't mind summer school, I actually do still like it, but... not the part where I have to think and do work. Sigh.

woosh, think that's it.

Yeah. Blogging up a storm today.

Person A: Should the phrase 'under God' be kept in the pledge of allegiance?

Person B: Yes, it should. We shouldnt be forced to say, but we shouldnt all of the sudden forced to be a Atheist society. We should have the freedom to say it if we want, and not if we dont.

Sorry, but I find that to be utter crap. Taking out "under God" does not make us an atheist society. That's ridiculous. Nobody's saying that we should say "one nation, under absolutely no God whatsoever because we don't believe in God", they're just saying that we shouldn't... I mean, ok. Saying that taking it out makes us an atheist society is like saying that keeping "under God" makes us a Christian/whatever other monotheist religions in the US society, you know? So what, we should have the freedom to say it, but... we can't be forced not to say it? I.. don't get that argument. I know that you can opt out of saying it, but... well not all teachers everywhere acknowledge that right. Some still make you say it.

I think it should be removed simply because religion shouldn't be involved. I mean, I don't think anyone should have to say the pledge at all because I find it ridiculous for many reasons that I've ranted about in the past [though not here], but if it is required to say [although, ok, we don't say it at Uni, but... we did up until this year for the most part], then... "under God" should just not be included. I mean, geez, teachers aren't allowed to talk about their religious beliefs. We're not even allowed to read the freaking Bible or anything else like that in school [at least, not at my elementary school] because it "influences" kids or whatever. I mean, we can't do anything remotely... related to religion other than learning about its origins and its teachings, yet... we can still say that this nation is under God in the pledge? I don't know. Just doesn't make that much sense to me. Besides... which God? There are so many goddamn sects of Christianity, and then of course there are Judaism, Islam, etc. Oh, and then are religions, such as Wicca, that believe in multiple Gods, or actually Godesses, and there are just so many different religions and then of course there are the people who don't believe in any God at all! It just... I don't think it should be included, and this person was really idiotic. Geez.

ok. Last post for tonight. Really.

AAAAGH.

So according to her, now, the reason I hate my teacher is because of practicing.

Um. No.

Honestly. Like ok, yeah, I don't like practicing clarinet, but geez, that's because I don't see any reason for me too. Especially since I never fucking play it in the lesson anymore anyways! But really. I am absolutely fine with practicing tenor. I don't mind that a bit. PLUS, I started hating him after like... 4 lessons, at the most. That was back when he wasn't bugging me about practicing, and when I'd practice like 4 days a week. Seriously. This has NOTHING to do with how much I practice. It has to do with the fact that he annoys the hell out of me and hasn't taught me anything and such. She's just saying this because I haven't said anything before now, so she ASSUMES that it must be because of practicing. IT'S NOT. A;LDFKJL;AKSJF AGH.

mm. But tomorrow afternoon should be good.

oh crap. I don't know how easy it's going to be to quit lessons from this guy x_x I kind of mentioned it to my mom because I went to rant to her about the person with the idiotic gay marriage views and then... she asked me about practicing and somehow I found myself saying I only wanted to take tenor. BUT then she started reiterating to me about something he said about you start getting sloppy with fingerings if you don't do clarinet too and shit. Uh. You know, Emma and Andrew are really good. And... neither of them take clarinet. Or at least... I don't think so. Well they weren't actively taking clarinet for the entire time they took tenor/bass clarinet. And they seem to have gotten along just fine. BESIDES, I'm not getting sloppy, I already have "perfect fingers" wired into my brain. My mom really shouldn't be using that against me, since she doesn't know anything.

And then she was all "Then why did we buy you a several thousand dollar clarinet for Christmas?" ;alksdjf GEEZ! You can't possibly hold that against me! I thought I'd be taking clarinet for at least three more years! It's not my fault she approached me [in MARCH, btw. MONTHS after the new clarinet] about bass clarinet and then tenor. Really.

...and then I kind of mentioned that I hated him and he'd been bugging me since at least a month after I started, if not sooner, and that he was driving me insane. She asked why I hadn't told her sooner and... well honestly it was because I didn't know how to bring it up and then I wanted to take tenor from him anyways, and that part I did tell her, the tenor part. Then she said something about "Not wanting to try a new teacher out just yet" or something, which I interpret to mean "You're staying with him for awhile." Sigh. x_x She didn't... really freak out, so I suppose it's better than I thought, but it still isn't that great.

a;lskfd GOD I HATE HIM THOUGH. I can't stand to take lessons from him anymore. I don't even need to bother practicing clarinet since WE NEVER EVEN GET TO IT ANYMORE. In the past 3 weeks, we haven't gotten to clarinet at all since WE RUN OUT OF TIME because I'M ON TENOR. GOD. Oh, and he'd like to add piano to this too. Right. He'd never even hear me PLAY. EVER. AHHHHH.

sigh. I'll work on her some more in a few weeks. I wasn't going to bring it up till after summer school ended anyways. Or until band camp started. Probably band camp, because I'm a chicken. a;lkfj gah. I can't stay with him when school starts. If I have to go through schooldays and THEN see him for lessons on an instrument I don't even need to take anymore, I'll go insane. Not that we ever play clarinet anymore anyways. But... still.

I WANT A NEW TENOR TEACHER. JUST TENOR. NO CLARINET.

I do feel bad about the very very expensive clarinet being bought. But it's not even working now anyways [not that he notices, since I HAVEN'T PLAYED CLARINET IN THE LESSON FOR WEEKS] and... ugh. I couldn't have known, you know?

a;lskfjlkLA;KJF OMFGGGGGGG "DECADE UNDER THE INFLUENCE" IS #2 ON THE FURIOUS FIVE AT NINE HOLY FUCKING GODDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D:D:D:D:DD:D a;lskjfaklsjd eeeeeeeeeeeeee. A Favor House Atlantic was #4 and Mr. Brightside was #3 and it was already like the best furious five ever, and then... EEEEEEEEE. :D:D:D

that lifted me a little. But still. I NEED TO GET AWAY FROM THIS TEACHER BEFORE I KILL HIM. UGH.

Ok. I feel like I'm blogging every 2 seconds. But I had to respond to this.

Person A: We can't allow murder and rape in a "free country" because those things hurt other people, but letting gay people marry each other hurts no one. America was founded on the idea that everyone should have liberty to do what they want so long as it didn't infringe on the rights of other people. A marriage is between two people; it doesn't infringe on anybody else.

Person B: I tend to disagree with the you saying that it doesn't hurt anyone. It hurts me. It hurts other people who do not think that gays and lesbians marrying is right. Little kids will grow up thinking that because they see two men or two women married... then it is right.

Legalizing gay marriages is only telling everyone that it is perfectly normal and perfectly ok to do that. It's not!

And if our whole stinkin country allows gays to marry then I hope it is still considered wrong even if it isn't unconstitutional. Abortion is unconstitutional because it is murder, being gay isn't.


Um. Excuse me? What?! I've seen ridiculous comments on gay marriage before, but this one is just... got to be one of the stupidest, if not the stupidest. Really? It hurts you? Really?! You know, I'd love to know how. I'm not being sarcastic here. I just... can't even begin to imagine what kind of argument you have for this. You know, gay marriage is legal in the Netherlands. Are two people who love each other who chose to get married who live THOUSANDS of miles away from you and just HAPPEN to be of the same sex hurting you? Really? They are? Because I just can't see it at all.

Annie: 'random people i've never seen/met before hurt me.'

I mean, really! Like, dude, if gay marriage was legalized, you probably wouldn't know most of the people getting married. And... these people... hurt you? These people who live hundreds, thousands of miles away from you are hurting you just because... they love each other?

You know what? Disallowing gay marriage hurts people of the same sex who love each other and just want the same rights as married straight couples and also want to pledge their love to each other forever... it hurts them way more than it could ever possibly hurt you. I mean, really. These people... so many homosexuals have had to go through so much fucking shit just because they're gay. It's horrible. You can't even begin to imagine what so many of them have gone through. What people are going through this very fucking second. But no. They'd be hurting you right now. Really. That's interesting. Somehow I don't see it that way. You know, where we live, it's pretty good. I mean, you can hear "Oh yeah, Brandon's pretty hot, but I heard his boyfriend's even hotter!" and it's fine. That's awesome. But there are so many places that if you said Brandon followed by boyfriend? It... just wouldn't be ok.

I'm just... ugh. The more I think about what this person is saying, the more I hate them. It's really selfish, too. Like "Oh hey, you guys can't get married no matter how much shit you've gone through and no matter how much you love each other, even if it is being fucking prejudiced against you guys because I just don't like it." I can't... I don't see it. It hurts you? Really? I mean... really, really? I just... no.

And then there's the rest of the post! I've only gotten to the first 2 sentences! The whole shit about "Oh, kids might think that it's normal/ok" is absolutely horrible. So what if they think it's ok! So what if they think it's normal! I'd prefer that they think it's normal, because at least that means the next generations won't be nearly as prejudiced against gays and put them through nearly as much as we've put gays through in the past and even still today. Oh, and really. "Gay parents raise gay kids." Right. Because straight parents always raise straight kids. And you know what? So what! Not everyone in the U.S. is gay, you know. It's still a small enough percent that IT WOULDN'T MATTER. GEEZ. "It would escalate and grow and yadda yadda yadda." No. It. Wouldn't. I can't even... refute these comments because they're just so STUPID and... a;ldkfj STUPID.

...and I don't get the last paragraph at all. Uh, news flash. Abortion is legal. Gay marriage is not. Geez, the last sentence makes it almost seem like they ARE for gay marriage. O_o I just... don't want to bother.

;asdlkfj my fucking god, I want to slap this person a;slfkjkj aaaaaaaaaaagh.

Another Survey. I'm bored. Woo.

What is your stance on...
Abortion?: I'm pro-choice. I feel that a woman should always have a choice about what they do to their body and the government shouldn't be able to tell them otherwise. Especially in the case of rape. I mean, how hard would it be to carry the child of your rapist? I know that adoption is usually the best option, but sometimes... it's just difficult. You'd still have to carry the baby out full term and have it, and if you're a 15 year old girl, that wouldn't exactly be easy. You'd miss school and probably fall behind, people would constantly be making comments about it, it'd just... not be good. I probably wouldn't ever be able to do it myself, but I still think it should be an option.
Death Penalty?: I'm kind of... really mixed about this. I see both sides. But I'd say that I'm leaning more towards being against it. There have been plenty of people who were innocent but were sent to death wrongly. Besides, I'd say that jail for life would be a much tougher sentence than dying. I mean, if they're put to death, then... it's over. But if they're in jail for life, then they're going to have to suffer for decades, depending on their age. ...of course, there's still that whole "wrongly accused" bit, but at least if they're still alive, you can release them from jail if it's found that they weren't guilty. You can't be released from death.
Prostitution?: I don't see the big deal. If a girl wants to and a guy wants to, then whatever. It's their deal. Though I do feel horrible for them, since the majority of them were probably abused in some way as children, or at least experienced great trauma [ah, the things Loveline teaches us]. Prostitutes should all get a little therapy.
Alcohol?: uh. x_x I'm... I don't know. Not very... in favor of it, I guess you could say. I think it's stupid to get wasted as an adult, and 10 times as stupid to get drunk as a teenager. I've never understood why teens think it's cool to drink. If you're over 21, then... fine, it's your choice. Just... exercise the choice responsibly. But if you're a minor... I'm sorry, but that's just stupid IMO. I personally am never going to drink for several reasons. Besides, I'm just fine with a soda or water.
Marijuana?: Whatever. If you want to harm yourself, then I don't really care. Just... don't be stupid about it. Don't drive while you're high. Do it in your house. Same with drinking. If you want to be an idiot and drink at 15, then fine, but... do it in the safety of your home. Don't decide to drive and possibly ruin someone else's life.
Other drugs?: Pretty much the same as marijuana and alcohol. If you want to harm yourself, then fine, but don't do it so that you ruin other people's lives. Go home, lock yourself in your bedroom/bathroom/whatever, and get high.
Gay marriage?: Definitely for it. Geez, I could go on about this forever, but I'll condense it. The only reasons I've heard really against it are A) religious reasons, and B) to preserve the "sanctity of marriage", whatever the hell that means. Ok, A)? Not everyone follows the same religion. Nobody's going to force you to marry someone of your own gender. They just want to be able to marry who they love, just like you want. And B)? Dude. Sanctity of marriage? Geez, even before Britney, marriage was hardly... sanctuous [sp? is that even a word? whatever]. I mean, that pretty much ended with Henry VIII. Once divorce flew into the picture, marriage didn't mean nearly as much. I mean, so the sanctity of marriage is still intact when people can divorce whenever they want and the divorce rate in America is over 50%, but when two people who love each other and just happen to be of the same gender want to get married, that ruins the whole "sanctity of marriage"? Uh, no. I don't think so. And I'll stop there, but honestly. I remember what my mom said, after the whole San Francisco marriage licenses crap. "Just seeing how happy all these people are to finally be married... it's horrible that so many want to take away that happiness from them." And I agree wholeheartedly. Oh, and one other thing [ok, so I'm not really stopping there]. Marriage allows I believe... 4000 some-odd rights to the married couple that unmarried couples don't have. Civil unions grant about 100 of them. OH, and that's another thing. The whole... "Well they have civil unions, we have marriage. That's fair." Uh, heh. Funny. I thought we realized back during the Civil Rights Movement that "separate but equal" wasn't quite how things worked. And in any case, it's not fair, since as I said, civil unions don't grant nearly as many rights. Oh, and one last thing, and then I'll really stop. I've heard a few very unintelligent people say before something like "Oh, but if we allow gays to marry, then the population growth will fall and the population of Earth will eventually die out!" Uh. Even if they don't get married, they'll still be gay. They aren't about to randomly start having sex with straight people and producing babies just because they can't marry a gay person. And furthermore, there was a study done in the Netherlands [a country that does allow gay marriage and hasn't crumbled from it] and while the population growth rate has gone down from earlier years, the decrease began before they legalized gay marriages, and it's really not having much of an effect in that sense. All right. Now I'm really done.
Illegal immigrants?: I don't really know the arguments either way, so I'll refrain from commenting
Smoking?: Like the other shit. Kill yourself if you want, but don't do it around me.
Drunk driving?: I think this is absolutely horrible and people who drive while under the influence are absolute idiots. It's one thing to risk your own life by drinking excessively [and you can kill yourself by drinking too much. Ever heard of alcohol poisioning?], but you're a fucking asshole if you're willing to risk the lives of others.
Cloning?: Don't know all the arguments, so I can't really say.
Racism?: ...uh. It's bad. O_o People who are racist are absolute idiots and deserve to be slapped. Repeatedly. And then die.
Premarital sex?: I don't really care. If you want to, then fine, just be safe about it. Otherwise, you're probably not responsible enough to be having sex. Oh, and you should be able to talk about it. Like... I know some young teens will be all "Oh, so you do you want to... [giggle]" or about condoms like "Oh, do you have the... you know?" Like, if you can't say it? You're probably not ready to have it. But otherwise... whatever. You know, if you love your partner, trust them completely, been dating them for awhile, know they're committed to you and all that jazz, and are responsible about it, then I think it's absolutely fine. I don't know if I'll have sex before marriage. I definitely am not until I'm at least 18, if not older, and I know I'd have to be in a relationship for a long time before I'd be ready to have sex.
Religion?: I'm an atheist. Don't believe in God, don't agree with organized religion, etc. However, religion in itself is not a bad thing. I mean, at times it can be. The issue of gay marriage would never be this huge if religion wasn't in the picture. And dude, I mean with terrorists and shit? The dudes who flew the planes into the WTC and such? They were doing it because they thought it was like... what God wanted them to do and such. So it can definitely be bad. But for the most part, I think it's good. I mean, if you can have utter faith in something like God and it helps you get through the day or just... I don't know. Helps you in anyway. Then it's good. And I actually respect people like that a lot. If religion helps you, then by all means, be religious. I personally just... can't believe in God, and... religion really can't help me. But if it helps you, then that's great for you.
The war in Iraq?: Ugh. x_x We went there based on a lie. Bush went from turning America from the most sympathized country in the world to the most hated in the world. Well, at least one of the most hated. Seriously. I know he was all "Oh, let's free Iraq!" and such, but geez. Iraq never threatened us. They were never a threat. They weren't going to attack. We had absolutely no right to go in there. I have no idea how he thinks he's going to rebuild Iraq, because no matter what, I can't see any situation working.
Bush?: Ugh. Hate. x_x He's an absolute idiot. Clinton was actually a really great president. Did great stuff for the economy and shit. I've forgotten it all now because it's too hard to memorize all those numbers and details and such, but geez. Bush completely ruined it all. Plus, the whole Iraq thing. And, again, he's a total idiot. I just... ugh. Heh, he said something in May about "What America needs is a president who can speak clearly to them" or something like that [that's not word for word]. I was thinking "Oh, so Bush is in favor of Kerry?" goddd I hate him, and while Kerry isn't exactly the prime candidate, he's definitely a lot better than Bush. I'd hate to even imagine what America would look like after another four years with him as president. Ugh.
Downloading music?: Whatever. I think it's a good way to find out music from band, especially really small bands. However, if you like the band, I think it's simply... courteous [sp?] to buy the album, if you can. I mean, if you can't find it, then... that's fine, whatever. But I know if I download music online and I really like the band, then I'm going to buy the album because... I like them, so I should support them.
The legal drinking age?: It's absolutely fine how it is. They do have reasons for the age. Something about the brain not being fully developed until them. I mean really... teenagers don't need to drink. Just... keep it how it is.
Porn?: I don't really care. If you want to look at it, then fine by me.
Suicide?: I think it sucks. I don't know how I'd manage if any of my friends/family killed themselves. It's just... it's selfish and it's horrible and I don't want to lose anyone that way, ever. I understand that peoples' lives can really suck sometimes, but... geez, talk to someone first. Please.

mmkay that's it. This took awhile. O_o

There's a great chance I've taken this before. I don't care. I felt like it. Deal.

The Generic Teenager Stereotype
Do you drink [alcohol]?:	no
Do you party a lot? How often?:	never
Do you use drugs for recreational purposes?:	no
How often do you use the word like in an average hour?:	...ok, a lot. But... not... x_x I use it well. So there.
Do you skip classes? How often?:	never
Do you have casual sex? Protected?:	never. er... never had sex. Not the never protected part.
Do you steal?:	nope
Do you wear inappropriate clothing?:	uh, no.
Do you drool over celebrities?:	...I'd like to respectfully refrain from answering this question.
Do you watch a lot of TV?:	during the fall and spring seasons. I usually shy away during winter, and there's nothing good on during summer. Eh, all the shows suck now except maybe The O.C
Do you ever watch the News?:	sometimes
Do you even care about world issues?:	yep
Do you read books often?:	yep
Are you failing a lot of your classes?:	...I'm failing none of my classes
Do you spend most of your time with your friends?:	I could probably spend more time with them. x_x
Do you smoke cigarettes?:	no
Do you hang out a lot in malls, or at Seven Elevens?:	spectrum!
Do you often find yourself with a crush on someone?:	...that was... a weird way to phrase that.
Do you cuss a lot?:	uh. It depends. In comparison to whom?
Are you desperate to fit in?:	...no, not particularly.
Are you intelligent?:	...sometimes I feel smart, a lot of the time I don't.
The Goth Stereotype
Black lipstick?:	no
Black eyeliner?:	no
Black eyeshadow?:	no
Black trenchcoat?:	no
Black boots?:	no
Black fishnets?:	no
Black nail polish?:	...I did. Then it chipped off and I got too lazy to repaint them. That was like, a year ago.
Cigarettes?:	didn't you already ask this?
Heavy metal music?:	no
Marilyn Manson?:	no
Kittie?:	no
Cradle of Filth?:	no
Constant frown and perpetual angst?:	...not perpetual...
Do you like to be seen as:	YES! I DO LIKE TO BE SEEN AS!
Are you an intellectual?:	...I guess? Like, not in the intelligent sense, but in the sense that I enjoy history and reading and shit.
An atheist?:	yep
Horrible home life?:	nope
Hopelessly depressed?:	nope
Suffering with suicidal idealations?:	nope
Self-mutilation?:	nope
The Punk Stereotype
Plaid?:	no
Big black boots?:	no
Mohawk?:	no
Excessive piercings? [Especially facial]:	no
Loud, confident and opinionated?:	I'm opinionated, but not particularly loud or confident
Wild hair colors?:	no
NOFX?:	yes!
Rancid?:	yes!
Well versed on political scandals and outrages?:	somewhat
A:	yes. A. Indeed.
The Jock Sterotype
What's your IQ?:	uh.. the crappy online tests said I was somewhere around 150? But those are so fucking unreliable. So I don't know.
Do you watch a lot of sports?:	eh. I like to. I just... forget. Ooh that reminds me, I need to see when x-games starts. Early August, I know.
Play a lot of sports?:	nope
Talk a lot about sports?:	no
Do you do anything, really, but think about sports?:	...yes
Are you arrogant?:	I don't think so
Are you a male or female whore?:	uh. no.
Are you homophobic?:	[bursts out laughing] ...oh wait, you're serious? ...you don't know me very well, I'd say.
Do you tease other people a lot because you want to seem confident?:	...no...
But really you're a quivering mass of insecurity?:	...still no...
Boobs = yes?:	...yes... what? I DON'T UNDERSTAND! STOP THE MADNESS!
Parties = yes?:	...no.
Dropping out of high school and flipping burgers = yes?:	...uh. O_o no.
The Girl Stereotype
Do you spend a lot of time on your appearence?:	nope
Have you ever been on a diet?:	once, when I was like... 11.
How much did you lose?:	...I gained like 2 pounds.
Was it not so much a diet as it was an eating disorder?:	...no. It was a "only eat the apples your mom packs in your lunch and none of the other food" kind of diet. So... I suppose it's not very surprising that it failed.
Make yourself throw up?:	no
Make-up?:	no
Low-cut tops?:	no
How big are your boobies? [Cup size]:	hee. boobies. Man boobies! I'm like, 12, internally.
Do you flip your hair when you talk, even if you don't realize it?:	...no...
Giggle a lot?:	no
What's the deal with boys?:	...they have penises. Penes? Peni? I don't know. What's the plural of penis? They got dicks, dude. There we go.
Thongs?:	...uh, no.
Pretty bras?:	...I don't really care what it looks like, considering I'm not planning on showing mine to anyone anytime soon...
YM, Teen, Cosmo, et al?:	to make fun of
Who's the weaker sex?:	sadly, the majority of teenage girls these days are.
Are you a feminist?:	...in a sense?
Do you think Brad Pitt is hot?:	not really
How often do you shave your legs?:	...whenever I know I'm going to wear shorts. I'm too lazy to most of the rest of the time.
How about your armpits?:	Same.
Are you emotional?:	not right now
Especially when on your period?:	...actually, not really. I pretty much stay the same.
This Or That [Oh, that old coconut.]
Originality or Acceptance?:	originality
Independence or Companionship?:	independence
Stability or Freedom?:	freedom
Personal or Interpersonal?:	personal
Introvert or Extrovert?:	introvert
Popularity or Isolation?:	isolation
Unique or Loved?:	unique
Understood or Individual?:	individual
You or Them?:	...are YOU one of THEM?!?!?!

How Stereotypical You Are... brought to you by BZOINK!

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Whoa! Simpleplan.com got a new layout! That's like... crazy as hell, seeing as in all the time I've known and liked them, they've never changed their layout. Like yeah, ok, the front page they've changed I think... two or three times. But... wow. They completely changed it. No more pop-up blue box. It's crazy. Geez. How long would that make it? Found out about them in May of 2002... so over 2 years they've had the exact same layout. Craaazy.

:D:D:D:D I heard Decade Under the Influence on KROQ again :D:D:D ooh and the new TBS CD is on The Leak at MTV, so you can hear the whole album before it's released [NEXT TUESDAY!] ...this would be a lot cooler if I hadn't already broken down and downloaded all the songs on the album a few weeks ago. Yeah, the entire album's been leaked for like, a month. I've only listened to all the songs three times, though, so as not to spoil it too much. So I'm still insanely excited to get it. Besides, hearing it on your computer a few times is totally different than actually owning the CD. PLUS, it has cool bonus stuff on the CD :D So yay.

uhhh ok then. as;lfkdj I have to see Something Corporate live. Er, again. I mean the Warped DVD... alfkd the live performance of Something Corporate was fucking mind-blowing. They are definitely one of the top bands I've seen perform live. They're in like the top 5 definitely. They're just... god they're amazing. alkfjd sigh. They need to tour here now x_x

Nothing much to comment on summer school. Listened to another speaker in Health who was rather amusing. Oh, and this girl in my health who sits in front of me and sometimes says stuff to me randomly talked to me a lot and sat down next to me in the theater, which was kind of cool. I admire people who can just... go up to someone and start talking to them. I can't do that.

mm then afterwards Emma came to the school and then Emma, Nathan, Andrew, Eric, and Robert Sorey went over to the Albertson's area. I got pizza from Gina's Pizza and it burned the roof of my mouth x_x gack. And then... back to school and then home. Woosh. It was cool, though.

Amber Pacific fucking owns. Geez. I want their CD, but they're not... huge enough to be in stores yet. Their only CD is one of those 5-song EP type of deals. Sigh. But they kick so much ass. So does Authority Zero. "You want a revolution? You got to make a difference on your own."

mmkay so... uh... yeah. Crappy stuff due next week. x_x Behind the wheel classes information due Monday, Insurance project due Monday, term paper in health due Thursday. I'm either going to do my term paper on bipolar disorder or schizophrenia. I'd like to do schizophrenia, but it's not on the list. But then, I researched it awhile ago, so I already know a lot about it. Ah. It'd probably be ok. The term paper really isn't bad, it just sounds bad. All we have to write about is why we chose the subject and then... information about it. And the insurance project isn't bad either. The worst part about it, actually, is the calling of the insurance agent, because... asl;dfkj I can't talk to people on phones. I have trouble even calling people I know well. Eh. But whatever. Have to call like 5 freaking places for the behind the wheel project x_x gack. Oh well. Otherwise that project is easy. Just bullets and shit.

mmkay then. uh. yeah.

...the roof of my mouth still hurts x_x

!!!!

"A Favor House Atlantic" by Coheed and Cambria again!!1 :D:D:D EEEEEEEE.

For awhile I had a bunch of songs to look forward to on KROQ that they played every once and awhile. Then... they played them a lot and it was all... whatever, I didn't care anymore. Then... there was a very long time with nothing new that I cared about.

But now. NOW. They have "Decade Under the Influence" [TBS], "Mr. Brightside" [Killers], AND "Favor House Atlantic" [Co&Ca]. :D:D:D I'm happy to listen to KROQ again. wheeee.

ok now I want to hear DUI again,